go to some venue thats familiar and the guy from pod awful is there doing some kind of show but its in boston on my turf and im playing guitar on the floor and somehow i go into the bathroom and its full of shit everywhere and it gets all over me and my head and i go and brush it all on the pod awful guy and he gets very mad butt hurt upset that im ruining his show

rob potylo is there and talking to me and seems more mature and i feel a slight attraction to him and he tries to hook up with me but i dont hook up with him, i guess he was a part of the show too

there are lots of people there 

then vomit bitch and we are at some kind of outdoor show and then its a highschool reunion and jackie maynard likes me but doent like vomit , people start talking shit about vomit 

dreams from last week johhny two legs lil bleachy

1.

go do a show somewhere on tour like philadelphia but not sure and ive got art everywhere and people are trying to buy it

and not sure i want to sell it or something

and then johnny two legs is there like i asked him to come meet me there

it is after the show and the show is ending , maybe im unprepared, moving art around

johnny two legs takes me to a room full of trap doors and little enclosures underneath the floor and he is showing it to me almost like a segment on 60 minutes

talking about how all these art scene people used to live here in these little rooms and now its been shut down and no one lives there anymore

and then it seems more like new orleans


2.

saturday night --

lil bleachy and trying to get back to lil bleachy but being pulled away by everything else but i guess going to fux lil bleachy

in some kind of social situation

hug for a moment a tiny little body

last weds 7/10/2019

1.

$300 dollars on wilco tickets and somebody and maddy weaver were supposed to go with me

and something happens to where we arent even in the same city as the wilco concert the night of the show

and i am pissed and cheap even in my dream

furious that i spent $300 on these tickets and we arent even going to make the show

and pissed at maddy, really upset with her

(***and i sleeep all day in this dream like its a real life event)

2.

walking into this place like a warehouse made into some kind of art event /gala

something supposed to be emf i guess and some kind of grand opening / event

all white walls/ white lights/ big open spaces

i am walking in and notice queen latifah is walking in also and i kind of walk up close behind her like to talk to her or kind of walk in together and she kind of sees me kind of snubs me , kind of walks faster to get in ahead of me, walk in alone

(****seems related / a dream shortly after my dream in nyc of john goodman hamming it up in the tent / where i left my phone charger in the wall and then did the same thing irl****)

GO TO WORK at some event for pro event and chris canfield is there and he has long hair and hes kind of bigger but still v attractive and i came there with someone else and im not actually doing any work

my body feels heavy and hard to move throughout

we're in a dark upstairs room at some place and the event is like a show or wrestling or something  v low rent speakeasy type thing and no stagehands are actually needed for anything

there is a long booth connected to the wall on one side and we are over there and i touch chris leg and he kind of touches me v casual v wordless

but someone else is there maybe anthony and i overhear him saying chris and his gf broke up

i tell my friend he lives in upton and chris looks over at me then and says something (even tho in real life he doesnt live in upton...lars does... he lives in haverhill)

i get his phone number and we text

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then i am at the merritts and i guess harry lives in a trailer in the back yard, we are at the merritts house in norwell , sephie is there and parker is still very little

but he has a bald spot right on the back of his head, big poofy hair but a hole in the middle where i can see his scalp which is very red, he is brushing something when i notice

they are talking about smoking pot as i am leaving but its in harrys trailer and a metal pipe made out of real pipes and i am leaving

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i am trying to meet up with chris somehow but there is so much going on and my body is so hard to work with

start traveling to this mcdonalds where when we get there you go inside and get to where the mcdonalds is and then you have to free fall down a stair case with no stairs to get to the mcdonalds and its scary and your whole body feels like jello, it doesnt hurt exactly, but is almost worse than hurting

helen and kate are working at the mcdonalds and talking about how it feels to be hired finally like they were working there freelance
                                     
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im\at my parents house and erik is there and im starting to get sick and i know i am going to get really sick its a throat thing and its bad cuz i cant get erik sick

go over to matt stearns house for some kind of family party , his mom comes in, she looks young, has a lot of glossy straight long brown hair, 80s cut, sunglasses pushed over bangs

in matts room i guess and our legs end up touching , we are kinda nervous around each other, performative but then at times end up close together when im not paying attention

we make juices in little tupperware containers

someone named ed we know from emf, stoic guy with glasses, asks jarva land to play a show so we go out to this barn like a big indoor riding arena and i feel like ive been there before and salty greyhound are there and theyve been there before like maybe its in littleton

at the barn show something happens like ive gotten drunk but im having trouble stan ding and walking like my feet are just falling apart, bending at the ankle and stopping working

im wearing platform heels and take them off but my feet still stop working, bending at the ankles

at some point me and matt start making out and almost have sex but dont (because i remember

i am looking around the barn for my tupperware juices and getting my stuff together, i guess everyone there knows me

END up in a pow wow circle with some girl with glasses and my mom and others- girl in glasses is talking about comics and asking me if i ever made any and i show her some drawings/ comics i have and she says ya but they're not consecutive, she says have you ever finished any story line arc ?

and for some reason i get really pissed kind of start talking loud, kind of going off on this girl and trying to think what other comics i've done and then i remember the trash can and fire hydrant comics i did in watertown and i bring that up but i dont have them on me.. and she says something, like she doesnt get that its a comic about a trash can and a fire hydrant on the sidewalk and they never move and the comic always takes place in the same spot

its an existential comic and she doesn't get it or something and i kind of go off on her and i dont recognize her or know who she is

I have got some kind of touror show together and I pick up travis in my car (and maybe we are driving to New Orleans) he doesn't know anything about what we're doing and acts dumb to everything. We stop by my parents hous and my mom comes out in the driveway, she's telling me she doesn't want me Togo she says "I never said I wanted you going to fall river." 

Frankas dreamed he saw Anton Newcombe again and frankas thanked him for getting him into the Ben show at middle east and Anton said ya man you were stressing me out I couldn't get you into that show and frankas is going to get him a beer

I dreamed ere was a party going on at emf but emf was more like a big auditorium or cafeteria with a backyard and Dave tree was being the bartender in the backyard making some kind of orange drink, cg is there and tells me about the Orange drink, frankas is around but we are not together and he has a former girlfriend who is coming around, maybe I just know about this at first but then I see her, we are brought together I guess at this store place outside of emf and she takes all her clothes off and wants to see my vagina, I refuse to show her my vagina but I don't hate her, she is friendly but weird I don't think she likes me and she looks kind of like marnie, frankas is telling me eventually she was his girlfriend before me and they were together for a year and i think she has a child I am kind of getting upset at her being around but I stay cool I guess (frankas was reading excerpts from his diary including descriptions of other women which may have led to the dream exmarnie girlfriend figure)

I am freaked out knowing I am dreaming, lucid in the reality of dreaming

Woke up and ate pasta and chocolate cake early in the am (real time)

Feverish lucid dream nightmares I was struggling to wake up from, testing my dreams to know I was dreaming, knew I was dreaming and could not change dreams or seem to wake up for a long time

Looking for frankas and trying to tell him I was dreaming, something like drugs or alcohol getting involved, going to meet alvan or find frankas to go to the cat power show

Get to the cat power show and no one is there and I go outside, there are people there but not alvan or frankas, some Russian girl with blonde hair I am kind of in charge of

Leave the show and get stuck/lost in a food court, my mother is there

Forgetting about time or realizing its dream time which is different and realize I might be missing the cat power show

Get back to the cat power show and I've missed the whole thing and I am so upset and crying and devastated

Go in and it is like a rounded amphitheater seating with all permanent seating kind of like where neutral milk hotel played but smaller you can get right to the stage and cat power is there

She looks so happy and healthy and clean like a flower girl and she has just finished and is handing out some kind of flyer to people

I go up to near the front row and she hands me a poster flyer and touches my arm and says I am a special girl

I try to be happy and am happy and so happy to see her but still so upset I missed the show

Back outside to the food court my mother is there and the blonde Russian girl my mother is with some other people and is leaving I haven't eaten yet and it's all street food carts I see a cart selling perogies

And want a perogies, my mother gives me money and I get a perogies ( they also have big stuffed and fried habanero peppers which iwant to ask how much are they but don't and don't get one) 

There is a blonde guy who is at the perogies stand and starts talking about how insane it is the perogies cost 7 dollars a piece and it's only 200 calories and like drinking water to him

But the perogies is a giant perogies and I am eating it very slowly while he is talking to me and enjoying it immensely 

I remember I told therussian girl we would get a drinkir she wanted to get a drink and I wasn't sure if she meant an alcoholic drink or not, I don't get back to her before I wake up

When I wake up I am so glad thecat power show has not happened yet in real life I was trying together out of that dream for so long

One

I should have just enjoyed meeting her there

Jeffy notices the freckles on my face...

I am supposed to be going somewhere we have a show but I am trying to meet up with someone or buy weed before the show or something keeps getting confused like Travis is at the show and I am trying to find Alvan... Driving around and dark open spaces