chris car money

out to dinner somewhere with people and chris its some kind of venue like a casino and the waiter is saying you can test drive this car for $1,000 and chris gets a look in his eye

and wants to the car

i try to mind my own business and look at the table


(( last night before chris falls asleep he is sleep talking... saying there is a lot of people there...(i ax him where...) ... chris's parking lot ))

12/26/2019 troy frog statue

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i drive with my father to troy and take him and buy two beers somewhere and sit down at a picnic table in a small park in the middle of the city --- (its the same park i ended up at with the woman who i followed off the bus when i was on the bus in troy in another dream and james was there too and she was quoting bible verses to me )

my father is not drinking his beer and i am starting to get kind of anxious like i cant remember why i brought him all the way here

then i see the pond (where before in the other dream there was a huge real live frog sitting in the middle of it on a lilypad) i go over to the pond and see the frog but the frog is a statue and i can't believe that its a statue and before i thought it was a real frog

and i guess this is what i brought my father there to see

and i drink his beer and my beer

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i go back to troy again this time alone and im on a street with a big median park in the middle and a street going the other way on the other side and everyone out on their stoops

and in the median park there is a black/hispanic guy with a boombox starting to perform his music

and again im almost not sure why im there but i meet some people on the stoops and talk to them

and then i go looking for artist studios or i meet someone who brings me there, somehow i end up with a crew of new people

there is a nerdy looking skinny blonde guy with freckles and glasses, we all go to an artist studio where we can see quiet looking asian people inside but the studio is closed

and we cant get in

it seems like travis is there then and driving the car and maybe we are leaving

the blonde guy with glasses becomes my boyfriend somehow and maybe i am moving to an artist studio in troy

eventually it seems like we get in

but then we are standing on the street and maybe travis there and maybe leaving--

and i am looking at a metal side rail to see a bird sticker i put there before or put a new one there now

(in waking life i tell my dad about the dream while driving to lynn city hall and he says there is a pond in troy somewhere near his fraternity house and he heard they are draining it, and then he tells me how a whale once swam up the hudson river there and i look up the whale but cant find out what happened to it)

FROM THE PAST WEEK

SEE HOWARD STERN IN A ALMOST MINIVAN SIZE JEEP WITH A BIG BIRD HEAD IN IT AND DRUMS, AN OPEN BACK AREA AND I CAN SEE THROUGH THE WINDOWS ALL THIS COSTUME /PROP STUFF LIKE DISGUISES FOR HOWARD I GUESS AND HE IS SLUMPED DOWN IN THE PASSENGER SEAT AND BETH O IS DRIVING THE CAR AND I AM REMEMBERING KKK TELLING ME THIS IS HOW HE GETS AROUND OR THAT HE WEARS DISGUISES AND THIS IS IN CAMBRIDGE NEAR HARVARD SQUARE

THANKSGIVING HAPPENS AT OUR HOUSE AND KEITH IS THERE AND BRANDON IS A BABAY AND THERE ARE ALL THESE PUPPIES LIKE LITTLE GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPIES... THEN THANKSGIVING IS OVER AND MY ASIAN LADY THERAPIST IS LIVING IN THE HOUSE AND SHE HAS TWO CHILDREN THAT SEEM LIKE STRANGERS TO HER THAT SHE DOESNT QUITE KNOW HOW TO CARE FOR IT SEEMS AND I AM THERE KIND OF LIKE AN AU PAIR OR SOMETHING AND PUTTING THE KIDS TO BED AND THEN WATCHING A.L.T. ALONE AT THE KITCHEN TABLE LIKE SHES NOT QUITE SURE WHAT TO DO , THERE IS A SOUND IN THE KITCHEN AND SHE ASKS ME WHAT IT IS AND IT TURNS OUT TO BE THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL WHICH HAS SOMEHOW BEEN LEFT RUNNING....

SEND UNDERWEAR (EMBARRASSING NOT SEXY) AND A PACKAGE WRAPPED IN NEWSPAPER TO UNBLEACHD SOMEHOW AND AM WATCHING HIM GET IT FROM AN OMNISCIENT NON PRESENT PERSPECTIVE AND HE TAKES THE UNDERWEAR AND PUTS IT ON OVER HIS JEANS AND THEN JUST STANDS THERE AND SMILES LIKE A WEIRDO

several days ago

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i am in a car with ellen degenerous driving around and i am kind of being a ham with her and am at some point reflective of the fact i am so comfortable with her and cracking her up also... it seems odd but feels very comfortable... we are driving and we go by a house with a driveway and there are these huge mop haired monster people ogre things (like the monsters in where the wild things are except huge) walking up the driveway and we just kind of laugh at it and it not scary but its v weird obviously not people in costumes... she takes me to some kind of studio... and i can tell ellen likes hanging out with me i guess because i dont treat her like a celebrity and goof around... but there is food everywhere like little crumpets and i really want to eat all the food and im going to ask but then i realize of course all this food is laid out for ellen and free and i can eat it but then im too embarassed to ask about the food and too scared to eat it so i cant eat the food even though i want to ...

and i kind of get hung up on this

                                                                           II

go into nick z and jessicas house, its the top floor on a stand alone little grey house with long narrow hallways i go up wood stairs in the back and come in off a small porch and its dark but like its not night and kind of warm and seems like no one is there but then i see nick and jessica both come in and they are nice and i wonder why im in there house 

Go to my pa rents house with Frankas. Leslie and mike just had a baby and they come over with carol and Andy and Keith also comes over. I guess Erin already had a baby too. And this is Leslie's second baby. She doesn't look fat. The baby looks like a little tiny Maltese puppy and crawls around in the floor like one. The other baby looks like a bigger Maltese puppy. There is nothing human about them but we know they are babies. Frankas is very moody and does not really talk to anyone. My mom is kind of mad and bitchy and saying how we should act with one another and wanting me to do things for her. There is a lot of food bring prepared. I accidentally eat a piece of ham which I think is salmon and spit it out. 

Leslie tells me they are vacationing in Honda. Upstairs on my parents bed with Leslie and mike and Frankas and the puppy baby.

Then it seems like everyone left and I didn't notice or something. Leslie is gone I think. I take the Honda Civic and start driving to Honda. 

I drive way past Boston and way lady Honda I think. I finally stop somewhere and go into a restaurant and everyone is talking another language and it looks kind of Mexican Jewish, dark native people. I pee in a weird stall with a toilet that is right next to the dining tables. There is wall to wall carpeting.

I ask the girl at the cashier if I'm far from Honda and she asks me if I am rearranging or going there and says I'm not far. A map on the wall shows where I am and if I go backwards I can go to Honda. If I keep going forward I get to the United States and then to Israel.

When frankas is falling asleep he is going no no no and I ask him what's happening and he says someone was trying to stick fingers up his butt

Jason tedeschi comes over my house for some reason there are three beers in my parents basement that we share one in an Oscar Schmidt but it is really that other kind of beer that maybe begins with an o and has cursive writing on it and is someone like Oscar Schmidt (the guitar) but not - my parents are out of town

I have to leave to go and meet Sara silk and her friend Lisa and some of her other friends at this movie bar somewhere in hull and I drive from my parents house it is a bar with a movie theater attached and you get drinks and then go into the movie, we are playing around doing improv and when Lisa does improv with Sara Sara gets right up in her face as she's speaking like touching her face with her face and it is very funny and I like hanging out wi them I am somewhat worried about drinking and driving and being neurotic 

Another sequence before that I am washing nane in a bathtub , we are at her house and my mom and dad are there and we are all in the bathroom and washing her and she is going under the water and they are saying she is ok and I pull the drain and she comes up for air and she says this is why I want you to live with me or this is why you are my friend because I'm going blurb bluh blurb bluh blurb bluh blurb down there and then she breathes deeply and says happy new year everybody! And in that moment I think she seems like Marilyn Monroe

Night before last- donut dream realization

Driving somewhere with michael butler from the butts we fm show and others, stop at some coffee shop called Ray's cafe or something like that

Butts grabs about six sandwiches panini like which are stuffed in a row in front of the cash register like newspapers, he has been here before

I take forever deciding what kind of donut I want,I want all the donuts but am thinking how I should not eat donuts and finally ask the cashier what his favorite donut is and he pulls out a donut that looks like a croissant envelope with a bubble part on top, 

He says it is part muppet 

And it is filled with chocolate, I decide to get this donut but do not have achanceto eat it before I wake up

Waking up and realizing the donuts are not real I try to go back to sleep and eat all the donuts while i still can!

(Real time) yesterday evening walk with frankas to whole foods to buy toothpaste and wander around bakery section while he is in line thinking about my donut dream but not seeing any donuts AND THEN 

Seeing hidden free sample of cut up donuts on a plate and so I take two pieces and give one to frankas (which he throws away) and eat mine because I feel I must and it also tastes good and this must be some dream reality connection, undeniable I think

There is a grey long haired skinny collie like mix dog outside the whole foods and he startles us with his quiet presence when we walk out through the covered parking garage, he has his 

Leash tied

To a pole and were walking away from him, I've gotten down to two inner pieces of the Brady part of the donut which I don't really want and run back

To the dog and give him one piece which he takes semi reluctantly and drops and then eats and once he tastes it gets up and is eager for more,

I make him sit and ask for his paw which he gives me and I give him the second piece, frankas says he wants to go back and brush the dogs teeth but he doesn't and that you shouldn't feed other people's dogs and I tell him

I don't think people own dogs

And remember the time I fed Heather Faile's hot dogs to the dog outside the piggly wiggly

(With some pride)

(Before also this same night we witnessed a dog which sat down hilariously several times during its walk like it had dropsy but was just itching its neck,

Accompanied by a very patient 'owner')

august 13th

yesterday was dreaming i was going over to lindsay's house and going to tell my dad i was going over and wondering whether i had to ask permission...

frankas woke up and woke me up too at 5 am and i thought oh thank god i can just go over i don't really have to tell/ask my dad

Jerry Seinfeld is running some kind of political campaign which coriander is making signs for and somehow I'm on the inside track of but I don't know much about the event and I kep having to go to this tow n hall type place am preoccupie d with buying $1 bags of small packaged candy mix, think if my mom and how she'd want to know the. Scoop with jerry by a computer. There is some driving around, not sure about my involvement

Recently be fire- dreamed I found my  old pink mini iPod in a. Duffel bag

I have my moms car or a car, it feels like summer. I drive to the grocery store on the way somewhere else and when I go in I realize the grocery store is in Canada and I know they are going to check my bag. Maybe the grocery store is in a mall but the parking lot is bright and sunny and open and the area all around is beautiful and full of nature. Maybe I am trying to buy fish? I become aware I have some nips in my bag and pot but once you go in the store u can't leave without them checking your bags and I know this. They ask me to go have my bag checked as I'm leaving and the guy tells me to give me the pot he knows I have and I give him my grinder with the buts of glass glued on top. He asks what it is and I tell him it's the marajuana and he looks in it and there is pot in there so he's happy with it. I have more pot in my bag and have given him the grinder instead of the other pot which is the prerogative in the dream I guess (to keep the pot) (bc I don't know where I am?)  I am glad it was a dream decision// Lindsay is around somewhere, maybe there are animals

Dreamed there is a new system where you have to press 2 after the area code when making a call (781) 2- some woman chuckling at me for not realizing this when I am trying to make a call

couple nights ago

going on a cruise with the whole family + rob potylo, first it is like a real big ship, cruise liner but then turns into smaller boats and like we take the big cruiser to the bay where we all get our own little boats, like a tropical island kind of place kind of like water world. no one will drive the boat so i start trying to drive it. then i see there are boats going around in a circle like they are learning how to boat and i am kind of driving wild around the area.

at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.

(a few nights before or the same night as this)

i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!

Jeffy notices the freckles on my face...

I am supposed to be going somewhere we have a show but I am trying to meet up with someone or buy weed before the show or something keeps getting confused like Travis is at the show and I am trying to find Alvan... Driving around and dark open spaces

on some kind of road trip with my parents, through something like a natural preservation land kind of amusement park with something inside like a fountain in the middle or like the grand canyon but not really at all like the grand canyon. then we get in the car and are driving through places/ walking through places like Austin or what seems like a strip mall of little restaurants, kind of like that one street in L.A. where everything seems kind of indoors and kind of outdoors at the same time, or everything is almost a food court; we are deciding where to go to eat. Maybe you could only get to the first place via a big cruiseship kind of boat, more like a ferry.

I am on some kind of journey, traveling through the city. Hard to say if its Boston. Like I'm getting picked up in a car. I am living in a house somewhere. Kind of like there is a community of people around me and I'm doing something for the community in running around or housing them. Then I am out on the yard and Rob Potylo is there and we are next to each other on the grass and there is something like a small dog or something- there is something like a baby and the baby is on the grass in between us and rob and my foreheads come together over it and we're looking in each other's eyes. I feel like home again in the dream and want to take him inside and feel like I can stop running.

the night before last night, next to rob potylo

Rob Potylo and I are in a car, I am driving. Its late at night kind of like we are coming back from a trip like rob and I's trip to Austin. We come up to this bridge and its bright blue, as if plastic coated in bright blue. I watch as the blue part of the bridge comes off like a weird scraping slithering thing that leaves the under structure of the bridge intact but to the right over the edge of the bridge the part of the bridge that has come off like a skin is laying over the side rails, a blue ladder of plastic/metal like for a tree house. Rob doesn't notice somehow and I tell him to look. I don't know whether to drive or not, other cars seems to be going through but you can't see what happens to them. The blue overcoat of the bridge suddenly slithers back over the bridge structure and we go forward.

End up in a small downtown area like china town and people i know in boston are milling around. I see these lego men with flat pin sized tops instead of heads and scoop them up off the sidewalk, plus a coffee grinder kind of kitchy magnet. Then Vic from Audio Pro comes up behind me and hands me a flyer and says they are having a sale. I guess he works at the place behind me where I think the magnet and legos have come from. Ethan Marsh is across the street and has green hair and I say something to him and he comes over and starts doing lines from some "funny" broad comedy, popular in recent history. 

I am riding in the back seat of a car with Sarah Lyle, unsure where we're going but we've missed something then realize we are both hungry then realize Uncle Gene is driving the car and little Ken is in the passenger seat and we are driving to a bar where my father is going to meet us. Ken is talking about how he is going to get sauced with my father. On the way there we look out the windows and its all country side. I see what looks like a black and white pig on a leash.

Before this I am trying to meet Rob Potylo and I talk to him on the phone about meeting at his house. I go to his house and its all people that Rachael knows and they all don't talk to me and act like they hate me and don't want me to smoke their pot and Justin #1 is there and I try to get Rachael to come over and help me. I am nervous to meet  Rob and looking for him in the dream, knowing its a dream and he might look different but I don't see him or feel him in there, that I remember.

First it was Thanksgiving or some kind of family get together time; Uncle kenny was there and Aunt Kathy I think and my mom and Dad. We had a manatee that started out like a sponge grow-a-manatee toy if there were a real live version. We put it in the bath tub and it got to big or all the water drained or the manatee soaked up all the water. I was walking around carrying the manatee until I think we found a bigger tub, more like a pool. There was a brief scene where I saw a larger manatee jump out of the water and hit a fence and had to be handled by my Uncle and other people- I don't think this was the same manatee, more like a flashback of another manatee incident.

Then I was driving with my mother and I left my bag or something in a parking lot near where we got on the highway and I had to keep driving back and forth on the highway to find the spot where I'd pulled over and left something. I was feeling heavy and tired and fat. Either I was eating a jar of peanut butter the whole time or that swas what I was looking for. We stopped into this toy store/ convenience store and were looking at these stickers that were supposed to be babysitters and they all said Janet on them. Then we found the spot and my mom said oh, i knew where that was the whole time.

I am driving around with Lindsay. First she comes over to my parents house and I'm not sure what I'm doing there but I feel like I'm supposed to be leaving. We get high. We get in the car and get high. Maybe before that I remember being in the backyard. Some kind of thing is going on in Norwell it seems like. Me and Lindsay leave and we are driving around high and I think maybe we are trying to go to New York. I think we end up driving through New York but its not much like New York and more like the weird dream New York I've seen before in Dreams. I get some kind of flat tire. I'm driving and its a small car. We get lost and we decide to go around this loop ramp instead of taking the other lane which seems like it just keeps going. Neither way has a sign saying anything. I go around the loop ramp and get a flat tire and it just melts on the car like a cartoon flat tire. We end up stopping and going downstairs into a basement which looks like the basement of the two girls I used to babysit with Taylor Cleaves on Mt. Blue street. We go in there and then Scott Kitchen comes down the stairs and we are surprised to see him and he's surprised to see us but it makes sense as if we all know what we're doing there. Lindsay has to get home and I think our high is starting to wear off.

I also dreamed about Edna getting outside and just roaming around but not really going anywhere.

i am in the car with chelsea. chelsea is driving. she is telling me how she heard i orgasmed immediately and i say, who told you that? and she says alex and of course i already knew it was alex. and then she says she heard i like this and i say what and i say don't listen to anything that girl says and complain how i can't tell alex anything. chelsea holds up a red vibrator instead of saying the word vibrator (how quaint) and i get mad about how alex takes things i say and twists them and then tells them to people...but then i get woken up by sharon who tells me the cat just pissed all over my grandmother's bed!! agh!

maria asks me if i want to go to see the celtics play their first playoff game, she has two tickets. i say yes and start trying to et dressed but hate everything i put on and it takes a really long time and we almost miss the bus. bus? yes. we are going to the celtics game on a bus and then it is sort of like the italy trip. we get to where the bus station sort of is and its like a whole area. there is a cold stone creamery and beth is working there. she wants me to work there too and i say no way i am not going back to coldstone but she tells her manaer or whatever that i used to work there and somehow gets me on the shift immediately. a pudgy guy asks me for something like a 'cookies and cream' which i think is sweet cream ice cream with oreos and whipped cream and fudge. so i make it for him and try to give it to him but he says its not what he ordered at all. after that i leave the cold stone (which is more like an open-air kiosk than a regular store) and start walking toward where i think the bus is. on the way i run into carol ann who is carrying a carton (like a whole carton, 20 packs) of either camel wides or camel unfilters (that dark brown orangey packaging) she says she has been craving that kind of cigarette but isnt going to smoke all of them and that i can take a pack or a half pack later if i want and not to tell anyone. i say oh oh i mean thats ok, but really i do want a pack because i have no cigarettes and i don't have any money to buy them either and i don't want to have to bum off maria. carol ann goes off into a doorway and when she comes back out all these people are carrying boes of free stuff over to long folding tables and i think maybe carol ann is holding a megaphone. people swarm the tables to get the free stuff. i remember about the nba game and try to go to find maria. carol ann knows about it too and i think maybe she is going. somehow i think i have missed the bus and garret davis pulls up in a minivan or an suv. i think he is going to take me to the bus, there are 2 or three other people in the car. i ask carol ann for a pack of cigarettes and she gives me one. i wonder if she wants to smoke cigarettes because peacock smokes and because i do. then garrett lets me in the passenger side door and i hold on to the seatbelt or something and before i close the door he starts driving. he drives around crazy as if he is trying to fling me from the car but i hold tight onto the seatbelt or whatever and finally he comes to a screeching halt. he says something along thelines of don't tell anyone about that but i can tell that this was some kind of rite of passage and that he was testing me and that he was glad i held on. i also think how easy it was to hold on and how everything is really a choice and i knew and he knew that i could just choose to hold on and if i had fell off i would have been choosing to fall off.