chris lauren michelle bOat

with chris laurena and michelle and there is tension and chris is not like himself normally or he is critical and michelle is yelling and lauren is kind of swaying in and out

and we are all on a boat im in one corner with michelle across from me and lauren is next to me and chris is to the left of michelle and michelle is saying things

and it is like the boat is dropping stories like the tower of terror, like levels of something are being broken through and the feeling of being nearly thrown out of the boat at all times

but it stops and somewhere we get off the boat and we are somewhere else maybe like italy

and lauren keeps touching me and then she is touching my face and i need to get away

Go with Travis to some other state where some friends of his are living, warm, I've never been before, maybe Florida or Mexico...

His friends all live in this house and I guess he used to live there, he gets upset at his friend mentioning something because he wants it for himself and I describe to his friend how he's mad at whatever his friend said he did because Travis thinks his friend should have done it for HIM. He looks at me some weird way and I kind f beat him up and he is being dramatic about it. 

I go out to go fishing with his friends on the dock and they are saying how they fish is called something bombs and they are talking about how where they are is more like Missouri than where it really is.

They fish by throwing apples into the water of this lake like area, some kind of channel. We are standing in the water with the dock beneath our feet and the water up to our chests at least. They throw the apples in the water and wait for the fish to bite the apples and then try to catch the fish. 

I am watching this and something brushes my leg and I look down into the water and it is a manatee! Lots of manatees in the lake and I want to go and swim with them but I'm not sure what else is in the lake so I don't do it. I am thinking of Frankas and wishing he is here, but somehow I know he is at home with my parents.

I leave heir house with Rachael Hayes and her friend to go to some show out at this bar. There. Are curvy neon sign lined streets kind of like New Orleans or something. I am talking to some dudes at the bar. I have all kinds of art supplies on me. Rachael and her friend want to leave and I take a long time putting all my art supplies together in my bag before i meet them outside. There is some bar we wanted to go to on the way back. We decide we are still going to go.

Some other scene with Frankas at my parents house or something.

amy shumer is in town and she has been texting me... things like pictures of her with a thought bubble coming out of her head and some of my birds in the thought bubble...

i realize and text her back and talk to her about going to the middle east. i realize we were supposed to go together last week but i didn't show up.

i meet up with her and bring her into a room where frankas and someone else is and introduce her. then we are at some kind of comedy club kind of backstage and i find tyrone there and someone else, a girl, maybe sam j.

i am thinking of what jokes i am going to do and trying to think of a joke to do for amy, kind of about amy...i am thinking i will do elmo and the tiniest hand job and i can't think of what to do next. i realize she really wants to go to the middle east though and its reassuring but i want to do well. i remember her saying she bombed a lot and try to think of something genuine i could just try out.

in another part of the dream i am in some kind of math class and in the math class we are making a water ecosystem in a dark room. there is a big tank of water with plant life growing all around it in the center of the room and you can walk all the way around the tank.

there are eels and fish and little miniature dolphins in the tank. i pick up one of the dolphins out of the water and it turns into one of those sponge grow-a-sponge things that gets bigger when you put it in the water. but when it is in the water it is a real miniature dolphin and it swims around.

i realize they make this whole ecosystem for the math class every semester and i start wondering what they do with all ther animals and everything after each semester.

Going to New Hampshire, see kaz in New Hampshire first maybe he is going on tour or something understanding how he has a job and things are different for him with the band... 

Then at my parents house and wanting to leave to go to New Hampshire to stay at the merits house which for some reason we can stay at but they won't let me go and I am upset and staying at their house and not wanting to be there

Then Erik and I are arriving at the merits place in New Hampshire and go by all thi stuff for free on the street outside and pick it up, their is a miniature organ and also a keyboard I think is mine that my parents have thrown out but turns out is. Different one long and skinny plugs into the wall very simple but does not play loud

Then my parents frankas and I are all on vacation on some kind of houseboat and they are going cliff climbing, I am just sitting spider style on frankas lap

My mom goes off the side of the house boat ledge and onto a gray cliff and my dad also goes, when my mom jumps onto. Rock of grey cliff material she causes it to rise upward like some kind of move on legend of the hidden temple, it goes very high and I am afraid of the height for a moment

Two cats this shopkeeper has and this mall we're in...Devon and maybe we are trying to find willows house in Janet jarvas car, my dad is saying it's not the right way but I start to recognize a stream with bushes and know we're going the right way but the right way dissolves

Some abstract film in a theater at the mall Tyrone has made about "the only thing worse than that last drummer..." Like a status that's been written on Facebook but I'm seeing it in the theater at the mall and I think it's going to be video of us performing but it's these multiracial people getting naked under a waterfall

That turns into a river where people are getting pulled together from the tide and there are all different people on the river and it kinda seems like they're all wanting to have sex

There are two little black boys before that and I guess they bring in the cats first and they are both wearing belly shirts and look like girls but I think they are boys and we are taking care of them, maybe my mom is taking care of them

There is something like a pet store and this one black dog starts to get real aggressive, maybe it was one of the cats and it turned into a dog? Maybe it is still a cat it is very hard to handle

We are looking for costumes to look like Cher and maybe Paris Hilton trying to explain why it's important to my dad, this is with the lack children, I'm trying to express that I only need a wig and not the whole costume

recap night of 4/18/2015

dreamed of going to do a show of white stripes covers in a small space about the size of the lilypad, jack white and meg white are there but i dont see them and they are playing my music. first i hear the dead leaves and the dirty ground cover and somehow i know all this, but its like a show im supposed to be performing at but actually they are just playing my music and then jack and meg white are really going to perform but i dont see them even though i know they are there.

i am at my parents house and go with frankazoid to his mother's house which is up on a cliff with a green lush hill plateaus where the house is and the driveway and we are sleeping i guess outside overlooking the backyard, off the cliff in the back is my parents house which we can see clearly, in the dream it is an epiphane that frankazoid's moms house is right here in view of my parents house (i wonder what the non-reality implications of this dream-reality observation are?) we are lying there (and maybe there is a clothesline out the window) and all of a sudden some kind of dugong comes to life in the water below the cliff anbd then other exotic animals loike safari jungle animals, all coming to life and we realize they are all around us, not scary at all, just suprising and wonderful

couple nights ago

going on a cruise with the whole family + rob potylo, first it is like a real big ship, cruise liner but then turns into smaller boats and like we take the big cruiser to the bay where we all get our own little boats, like a tropical island kind of place kind of like water world. no one will drive the boat so i start trying to drive it. then i see there are boats going around in a circle like they are learning how to boat and i am kind of driving wild around the area.

at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.

(a few nights before or the same night as this)

i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!

Traveling with Erin and Leslie and maybe their parents, further and further down into the ocean, going further down each level on a series of steps. We are traveling down staircases and Erin keeps jumping and then landing on the bottom steps like she forgot they would be there or something and then she sits there and cries, almost like a character that keeps messing up on a video game. It is like a giant caver that becomes the ocean. At the bottom of the steps before I wake up there is shallow water and I look into the water and see little sea unicorns. I wake up and draw the sea unicorn.

In the end I am in Charleston with Maria who is graduating  and she says something about how the funny thing is about going to graduation... and I point out that she didn't go to my graduation ceremony. Charleston is curvy and circular and more like a small New Orleans or Paris, like it has been in other dreams. Maria gets a small white dog for graduation I guess and it remains with us. She is trying to make a point about what I need as an artist or a writer,or where or how I've gone astray. We walk out through marshlands. It seems like there are other people with us. We pick up some things along the way. There are multiple frogs & the sensation of swimming and a couple of figures swimming too at one point where the water body is larger and more like a lake. Mostly it is like a creek or small river. We end up at a kind of shed at the end of the Marshland's and in it are all kinds of papers and trash and pieces of leftover art of mine. This is what Maria was trying to show me. I want to take things, it immediately seems like a bunch of things I need or have been missing but Maria tries to make me leave everything there. I end up taking only a few orange and white pieces of paper.

Right before I wake up I am with Max in Ricks's bathroom in Charleston. I had a brand new computer and its sitting on the blue stool from my parents house outside the shower (and I see now we're in the upstairs bathroom of my parents house). The computer is covered in water and I start getting upset and then Max comes in and I realize the computer is actually smashed on the top and then I realize the computer is actually a microwave and I don't care anymore.

Something to do with the Channel...Joyce was there, I think I was crying and trying to talk to her. Maybe there was water or flooding and stairs and staircases. Some kind of delivery trying to get done. I overslept.

I'm going on some kind of camping river trip and I'm texting Lenny about it because I know he's going and he's texting me back that he's cool with me being there and that its not a big deal...I'm going out with Jeff Goldblum and he's a little over-concerned with me...when we get to the camp site its on a cliff over a lake or something and we are going to jump off the cliff all in a blow up raft I guess but there is a woman there who is somebody's mom and like the camp mother I guess and she is saying how we don't need to use the raft necessarily. I am immediately under the covers in this bed thing with Jeff Goldblum and we are just getting really revved up but never having sex. He leaves at some point and I'm wondering whats going on with Lenny and if anyone's noticing us under the covers on the cliff.

First it was Thanksgiving or some kind of family get together time; Uncle kenny was there and Aunt Kathy I think and my mom and Dad. We had a manatee that started out like a sponge grow-a-manatee toy if there were a real live version. We put it in the bath tub and it got to big or all the water drained or the manatee soaked up all the water. I was walking around carrying the manatee until I think we found a bigger tub, more like a pool. There was a brief scene where I saw a larger manatee jump out of the water and hit a fence and had to be handled by my Uncle and other people- I don't think this was the same manatee, more like a flashback of another manatee incident.

Then I was driving with my mother and I left my bag or something in a parking lot near where we got on the highway and I had to keep driving back and forth on the highway to find the spot where I'd pulled over and left something. I was feeling heavy and tired and fat. Either I was eating a jar of peanut butter the whole time or that swas what I was looking for. We stopped into this toy store/ convenience store and were looking at these stickers that were supposed to be babysitters and they all said Janet on them. Then we found the spot and my mom said oh, i knew where that was the whole time.

(ricky spends the night)

ricky and i are driving in the dark in what is supposed to be cambridge i think but is more like a rural suburb ala norwell. we drive into a lot which is sort of like the bus turn around in scituate and i guess it is supposed to be a highschool parking lot. ricky goes inside or i go inside because another car comes into the lot and walks into the building. i guess ricky walks in after him. he is a pizza delivery driver. i get into the passenger seat of the car with the keys and wait for ricky and then get too nervous and jump in the drivers seat. i remember i say "just dont deliver any pizzas" i guess maybe we didnt have a car before and were walking along the road in"cambridge". it is always very dark. so we figure out the guy with the pizza is a delivery driver who is stuck in a time machine because he keeps showing up at this school lobby/ parking lot every 18 minutes with a new pizza and its the same guy with the same car. ricky gets frustrated that he keeps showing up and everytime the car dissappears. so we get in the car and drive away and i am nervous we will get caught and tthat another car in the parking lot is the police but it isnt or if it is they don't bother us. in the car we can see the pizza delivery driver still driving past us every 18 minutes.

before or after this we are outside walking around on the street and there is water like a creek. it is very dark and i am scared because ricky keeps scaring me. all of a sudden we are walking and the pavement turns into the tops of big wood telephone poles. we both go to turn back because we are so high up but then we see people walking under us on the street and sort of through the water. ricky goes back and jumps down and we walk over to the water which is full of starfish and sand dollars only all of them have only one half remaining. there is another thing sort of like an anenome that is coming out from a shell. all these bright purple strand like tentacles that are curved all in the same direction and extend and sweep around. they keeep touching me and trying to touch me and i think they are going to do something to me. ricky is trying to scare me wwith things in the water and i get upset and maybe start crying because it is scary and hes making things up and we've already stolen a car.

we go back to my place and it turns out i live in a dorm. instead of bunk beds i think i actually sleep in the same upper bunk bed as my room mate who i notice is there way too long into a makeout session with ricky. i see him and notice he is studying. he gives us a sheepish wierd look and we roll over to sleep or watch a movie. he is studying with a little book light thing and when we roll over to sleep ricky turns back and cuts off thee light. i tell him he cant do that and get out of bed. ricky calls nino and is talking about how much he hates those little booklights and how it must be perfectly understandable for him to need to turn it off. I go out into the hall of the dorm and a girl comes up to me and asks me if she can use me as a presentor for her project. i remember i go to a school for sortof tech-savvy pseudo art (i dont know why). she says she noticed me and how i have a gladiator persona that not too many people have anymore. I have to meet her at a panel like table meeting later. she shows pictures that she took of me in the grocery store or home depot where i am carrying heavy bag in each arm and my elbows are bent but my fists are raised up by my head...i guess this is what makes my persona "gladiator-like".

i notice what looks like a dead flower or flower-bud on my eyelash and pull it off. when i do a ton of other flower-heads come off. i dont know whether these are my eyelashes or not and i have to talk to someone without knowing right after.

after the eyelash incident and at the gladiator meeting, which ricky comes to, my face turns purple-red like a birthmark and gets very hot. when i go to the bathroom to check it out it has cleared up a little but my face is puffy and also my eyebrows have turned thin and blonde. i try to tell ricky about it. i think it may have been because they were going to take my picture.

i go to billy arria's fathers father's wake which is at st helens which looks more like a dining hall. people grunt and make comments when the priest reads the eulogy. then i find uncle andy and he says the funnest thing he ever does is to crack eggs and let the yoke run between his fingers. i tel him i used to do that. then we have to cross a bridge in the woods which easily spills you into water. before that i am in some sort of basement with other girls and we have some sort of grouping or competition, maybe it is swim team. alma was there. there was a room of paintings we were allowed to buy for a bit cheaper if we wanted. i didnt buy one and neither did she. perhaps we were in paris. alma had tattoos on her face and they were really cute. apparently i had told her to get them. they were trees and little animals, part of the tattoo looked like whiskers. then i was with uncle andy and dropped a lot of my stuff in the water. we were also driving through southie at one point which was crazy hilly and full of bright colors. we try to cross the bridge and i try to get my belongings from the water. a group of kids crosses another bridge opposite us and epic music plays. then alma shows up and we go in the water and start swimming. we may be trying to impress someone or are supposed to be training for swimming things.