Will has put a picture of me and him on FAcebook and he calls me baby in it and I have blonde and pink hair, which he mentions.

I am looking through a bag of paper and collage bits and find two ten dollar bills and two five dollar bills.

Frankas thinks I am going to have Alzheimer's because I have messed with my memory. My mother asks me if he's torturing me.

I keep thinking back to the photo will put up. We are in a big banquet hall like hotel staying at this hotel, me and my whole family and getting ready to go to this big recital. Will is going to be in it. Maybe Frankas is going to be at it too. 

I am running around a big mall in the hotel putting on makeup and perfume to get ready for the show. It seems formal. I don't know what will happen or when I will run into who.

night before last

night before last- i saw sara silk on the street in boston and went with her somewhere and was running into people i knew and we both knew, i was at some kind of art warehouse type thing that i think we were in control of, antonia there, other people, i think we were having some kind of event.

last night frankas dreamed we were being chased around by a corrupt cop and lawyer, inside, outside, and they were shooting at us. it culminated at a liquor store we must have gone in and the cop and lawyer showed up and then frankas woke up. we did not get shot. before that he dreamt we were moving carly's furniture and there were all these bed bugs that came out and he was trying to kill the bed bugs.

I run into some people from high school in downtown Boston and end up getting in a car with Jason tedeschi and Corinne perry, like we are going to a club or something but we end up going to an event like a rich house living room or an event place all windows and white carpeting and it is Andrew ? Bachelor party, Erin fitzgibbons is there all people from high school mostly my grade, we walk in and there are all these different superhero themed pins on the table you can take and pens and pencils with mini troll dolls on the eraser heads, I am taking stuff but semi aware I don't think I was invited to the party, then I realize no one who was invited is really friends with Andrew. My father is there and Andrews mom comes out from behind the crowd over by a row of windows and says someone was sent to pick up Erik and my father almost says something and we are thinking it must be my brother and is my brother supposed to be Andrews best friend? Scooter boi is on a couch behind me sitting next to Michelle Granara and saying something stupid and she is like do you know anybody here? Andrew when I glimpse him looks like an Arab man with dark circles under his eyes. There is a big log in the middle of the room with ropes on either side and Hilary duff is there and has a lisp and wants to start the rope log going, Michelle Granara and scooter and another person all get on the rope log and other people lift it in the air and Michelle Granara is complaining that her parents are holding either side of the rope log and it isn't any fun cause they're holding it too steady. 

Then the dream fast forwards and I realize it is a movie, it must be following Hillary duffs character because it fast forwards to her in a bathtub with a guy and she has a lisp and the guy is saying how she does things like a man has sex like a man and for some reason she turns into a black girl and then there are people still on the sidelines watching because someone maybe scooter yells out ' like a guinea pig ' and scooter says o yah like in Apollo 13 so there must be some guinea pig joke that is a reference to Apollo 13

Like we are making/ watching the movie that is the dream

Frankas dreamt he was fighting people in his fathers living room but trying to mix a song at the same time and trying to convince the person he is fighting to help him mix the song.

Going to some event almost like Lindsay's wedding. Lindsay is there and Terence. We are driving around what seems like a big historic city in the sun, something sunny, maybe Austin. We go in a tent somewhere, kinda like its Tenesee and we are going to Bonario but also Linda like we are on a cruise. We are sitting somewhere and can see people up on a balcony above us and we recognize some of them and its like both parties are talking about each other but were not within hearing distance. Then someone says one of the people up there across from us is talking about WIllow, making fun of her or something.

i win 100 dollars in an arcade playing the "jackpot" game where you have to hit the button when the light in the jackpot spot lights up. i think this solves all my money problems. alas

* i also dream i think during the same night somewhere that i am wearing this purple and black dress i have and i wear it to an event like a red carpet or on stage or something except its been laying on the floor and is all crumpled and wrinkled and out of shape and later my grandmother (who is dead) criticizes me for wearing it and says it makes me look fat and i should have known better and i totally should have. i don't know why i was wearing it but i think i was in a rush and it was the only thing.