There is a big dance like it is the end of school or graduation. I am wearing a short tight dress and trying to get all my girlfriends to dance. They are all drunk and arguing sort of like they are all girls who sort of know each other but don,t get along/ maybe I am he only link between them. It seems to be a mix of high school and college. Jared charsewski is there and I sort of flirt with him. I am running around everywhere. My art might be hanging somewhere like it's the final art show or something. John hull comes up to me and says that I was one o ten that could do something, maybe hang my art, and then that there were only two peoe who could wot calmly through a review with both barbAra and peacock (I am not one of the two and for some reason I think Dana Theringer is one). More people show up and I feel drunker. I start Dancing with Tony white from the basketball team. He comes up behinds and leads me to the Dance floor. I am pretty into it. When we first start dancing I am doing moves and goin low, and I feel as if people are watching (Jared charsewski) and are impressed with my moves. Then I am dancing with Tony and he is no longer behind me. He goes out on a limb dancing and gets embarrassed .

The dream reminds me of a highschool college afterparty that I went to in another dream.

first i am at some sort of writing ommune with carol ann who is dating a guy younger than me who is also there. a bunch of other writer kids are there too and me and carol ann are friends and no one thinks its wierd that she is dating this young guy but i worry about what would happen if he broke up with her. she seems to care about him a lot in a kind of motherly way but also like she depends on him. i remember garret and the kids halfway through and wonder what happened to them. the commune is on an island off of charleston and when i am walking around i find anson there. he says he has flown into the island. i meet him by the rocks and i am glad he has come there. at some point i realize i have a child and it seems like i've just had the child but it looks like me as a toddler and has bob-length blonde hair. i keep forgetting i have the child though and later on i realize i have a child and i am 22 and i hope that maybe i wont have to take care of it anymore. the writing commune turns more into an art thing then and i think about how much i paid for the application so i think maybe its supposed to be the 3rd ward residency. john hull is there and i have a wall of space to work on. first i am trying to write a paper on picasso but i cant finish it. then i am working on the wall when maria comes in and tells me the paper is due soon. john hull is there and talks to me about the work. i ask him what a goup of paintings of cartoony looking skulls are and he says who do you think they are the only person who makes those. and i know i know who the girl is but i cant remember her name and he tells me its diana and that she hardly ever gets any work done because she is always tripping. she tripped her whole last semester.

i can sort of see this chart with all my grades in aq light red pencil. i squint at it and sort of try to look and try to not look at the same time. i think that one of the grades is maybe an F but it turns out its not i'm pretty sure. peacock is at a thing outside an art building. there are a bunch of graduate art students there. he is smoking a cigarette. someone starts talking about my graduation outfit and he starts asking about it. he says i hope it wasn't like a crucified bigot and i know he means maybe it looked like i was a KKK member but i told him it was more like a german toddler adult size and he laughed. later on we have to get ready for a class. john hull is gessoing canvases to paint. cliff says something about being serious and john hull says its different for him. i amcarrying three canvases that are this yellowish orange color. cliff is standing in the corner painting a large black crow with an orange background. he says meredith cant be upset by people because she outwits them and the same will be true for me. he is talking about meredeth trevino who is there somehow. outside earlier he makes fun of alex and does an impression of her.