i am some kind of japanese man and i get out of some situation like im leaving the matrix and i'm being real daring with buildings and laws... i am on a roof of this building and i kind of jump off the side and am hanging off and i am with a girl and the girl is britney spears. there is a window and i pull the window out cuz its on a hinge and slides out toward me but im hanging off the ledge and trying to swing in through the window and thinking i have to jump but knowing i might not be able to make it if i jump and i might die and realizing im dreaming and wondering if i will die even though im dreaming and not being sure and keep pushing off the building and swinging back- then i realize i can grab onto britney spears hair and pull myself in so i do.

before that go out to dinner or drinks with richard pryor but he is really half obama and mostly obama and im not quite sure what our relationship is but he gives me good advice and is very smooth.

this was the night before last.

i am going to china. rachael hayes is there and her sister just left. there is a big apartment we get to stay in when we go to china, and we get to go there when we go on trips across the world. i guess i am going to europe, maybe paris. but i have to go to china first, like a layover, only we stay there at this apartment there.

i am in boston or new york and moving around and trying to collect all my things together. like i am in the emf building or a hotel and left all my things in different rooms and i need different things for different parts of the journey i'm about to go on and i'm trying to gather them up.

i have a little gold box that is a very important thing that i will need in china or europe but have to hide in my suitcase for part of the journey.

i get to china and i am in a car with someone, a guy i know but don't recognize and we are driving around this big square restaurant with big glass windows and rachael hayes is sitting in the restaurant and i can see her through the window and i am coming to meet her so this is good.

in some kind of weird babe-like story with my family and my brother...living on this farm or on this farm visiting...and our grandfather comes down to the lake-pond in the back of the farm and he is naked and he bathes there and somehow i see this in pictures that perhaps my brother took...

then we are with my grandmother on a porch and she was going to take us away somewhere...it turns out she ties animals and people to the front of her house to make some kind of point...

it also turns out her mother died (maybe somewhat like howard stern's mother because i was listening to howard stern latenight) and we are not sure if she is sorry that her mother died...

i keep trying to figure out the story and it seems familiar like babe or something so i'm also kind of trying to figure out which fairytale type thing we are in and i'm getting confused and frustrated...

i go into a room with an older man i dont really recognize who i guess i was in some kind of relationship with ( i a aware of frankas somewhere and this is not frankas) and he tells me that woman at the party when we first got to the farm (which i remember again in pictures) was his wife

and he tells me we can't see each other anymore and i am pretty ok with it (although he doesnt notice) and then we go for a drive

January 28th and 30th

It's thanksgiving, weird thanksgiving in the woods somewhere, kind of like the table in hook with rufio and the lost boys. I have a horse that acts more like a dog. He is at the table. I feed him by hand. I have a trailer and the trailer is like a hangout and people can hang out in the trailer. Scooter boi is there. It is like a family gathering.

It changes from friend-family to my extended real family and the table and festivities are up in a tree house platform type of thing. Brandon and Christopher and Wendy and uncle Kenny are there. All the food is on one table and then the dining table is up on a raised platform in the tree.  I show up.

Will is there or not quite there and I am looking for him. I see him and he has a shaved head but it's like he can't see me. I go over to his house which is like his house but a tree house and there Is a little Christmas tree he made or something on the table which I recognize so I know it is his house. And his whole family is there for the holidays.

I am out in a muddy field then looking for a horse. Frankas is there and maybe scooter boi also. There is a horse. We find a golden retriever in the muck all covered in muck and maybe missing a leg. It looks like a muck monster. There must be some kind of muck storm going on thAt has covered up everything. In muck. It seems like the golden retriever would have died if we didn't find it.

Two days ago;

I am somewhere like a salon or some thing working for my mother and some other people and I leave to go get coffee and a few things for them--

I walk along a woodsy trail (kind of like walking through north Hampton when we went to happy jawbones house) and find a little River area and notice a baby manatee is sitting like a rock on the bank cause when he sees me he sinks back into the river.

I go to the edge of the bank and look for more animals. I start making a high pitched 'woot woot  whoop' noise at the wTers edge and dolphins and seals and manatees start to come up one by one and touch my hand with their noses and get pry and look happy and go back into the water. Then I hear something behind me. A gruff voice. I look behind me and there is a big black dog and then, for an instant - many big black dogs. Two dogs at each of my shoulders speak to me in a gruff voice and tell me not to call to the manatees or touch them. That they are diseased animals. I look back and I see the owner of the two dogs is talking to me through the dogs and it isn't really the dogs talking. I scold him for doing is to me and trying to scare me.

I run into some people from high school in downtown Boston and end up getting in a car with Jason tedeschi and Corinne perry, like we are going to a club or something but we end up going to an event like a rich house living room or an event place all windows and white carpeting and it is Andrew ? Bachelor party, Erin fitzgibbons is there all people from high school mostly my grade, we walk in and there are all these different superhero themed pins on the table you can take and pens and pencils with mini troll dolls on the eraser heads, I am taking stuff but semi aware I don't think I was invited to the party, then I realize no one who was invited is really friends with Andrew. My father is there and Andrews mom comes out from behind the crowd over by a row of windows and says someone was sent to pick up Erik and my father almost says something and we are thinking it must be my brother and is my brother supposed to be Andrews best friend? Scooter boi is on a couch behind me sitting next to Michelle Granara and saying something stupid and she is like do you know anybody here? Andrew when I glimpse him looks like an Arab man with dark circles under his eyes. There is a big log in the middle of the room with ropes on either side and Hilary duff is there and has a lisp and wants to start the rope log going, Michelle Granara and scooter and another person all get on the rope log and other people lift it in the air and Michelle Granara is complaining that her parents are holding either side of the rope log and it isn't any fun cause they're holding it too steady. 

Then the dream fast forwards and I realize it is a movie, it must be following Hillary duffs character because it fast forwards to her in a bathtub with a guy and she has a lisp and the guy is saying how she does things like a man has sex like a man and for some reason she turns into a black girl and then there are people still on the sidelines watching because someone maybe scooter yells out ' like a guinea pig ' and scooter says o yah like in Apollo 13 so there must be some guinea pig joke that is a reference to Apollo 13

Like we are making/ watching the movie that is the dream

Frankas dreamt he was fighting people in his fathers living room but trying to mix a song at the same time and trying to convince the person he is fighting to help him mix the song.

frankas has an apartment somewhere in like medford but close to watertown and he takes me there from emf

there is no one there but it looks old and lived in and carpeted and musty like an apartment in long island

i move in and at first i have my own room and both my cats are there my room is small and has a twin bed

we start sleeping in one room together and i don't leave the apartment far enough to figure out where we really are and we only go there by car at night it seems

at one point we are at the nearest t station and i am asking people what it is called and they don't know but one woman says it is mount pleasant

back at the apartment i notice there is someone in a room or i go to go in the other bathroom (there is one bathroom in total disrepair where the litter box is kept)

out of the room comes this giant guy that looks like a big tuna and has a whitish face and lips like he's been submerged in water for a long time

i am shocked and alert franks and franks sees the guy who kind of stumbles around and leaves and he just kinda shrugs

i keep wondering if the cats are there and still alive and i go into another room and see he sleeping underneath a bed and there is another bed in the room too which my mother is sleeping in

i guess my mom has moved in with us and it is awkward when we wake her up by being in the room, me first i guess because i look and see the cats and then  i am watching tv on the bed and then frankas comes and finds me

it turns out franks has at least two room mates he hasn't told me about, one is his sister and the other is this girl danielle i think she's called and she starts yelling and talking a lot like maybe there is something wrong with her and maybe she is yelling at another girl in another room

there are only two boxes of cereal for food and i eat some of the cereal and wonder if franks sister is mad at me but it seems like she's not, she seems nice and more level headed than the other girl and maybe like she wanted me to eat the cereal

i don't really talk to them directly though and I'm wondering where frankas is

at one point i go in thhe twin bed room and the bed is all torn up and there is shit on the bed and i don't know what going on

when i go back into the room the next time there is no bed and its more like a rec room or little sewing room and i discover three more rooms after it going down the hall behind it

seems that vince lives nearby with his shop in some alternate universe watertown

i am checking into a hotel room which is under the name of some man who for some reason i believe will not be checking into this hotel room (and at the same time somehow i know the room is under his name) and i am able to check in under it. i am in the hotel room and a hotel boy shows up with the guy whose room it is and it is someone i don't know but it is definitely his room.

i don't know how i knew i could check in to the room but i did and was able to

am i learning some kind of form of identity theft in the dream world?

overcoming structures of identity and permission?

was it funny to them? in the dream? when they found me?


awoke from this dream long enough to realize it had been a dream and feel back asleep , very tired, woke up at 12