last weds 7/10/2019

1.

$300 dollars on wilco tickets and somebody and maddy weaver were supposed to go with me

and something happens to where we arent even in the same city as the wilco concert the night of the show

and i am pissed and cheap even in my dream

furious that i spent $300 on these tickets and we arent even going to make the show

and pissed at maddy, really upset with her

(***and i sleeep all day in this dream like its a real life event)

2.

walking into this place like a warehouse made into some kind of art event /gala

something supposed to be emf i guess and some kind of grand opening / event

all white walls/ white lights/ big open spaces

i am walking in and notice queen latifah is walking in also and i kind of walk up close behind her like to talk to her or kind of walk in together and she kind of sees me kind of snubs me , kind of walks faster to get in ahead of me, walk in alone

(****seems related / a dream shortly after my dream in nyc of john goodman hamming it up in the tent / where i left my phone charger in the wall and then did the same thing irl****)

3/7/2017

john hopper maccallum shows me  a 'video' of paige in an asian orgy . i look at her and she sees me looking and pulls out of the scene and puts me in a pool where i start swimming.

i am with frankas and he is drunk , we are at the space then we are at my parents place. i am asking hin to make love to me, we dont.

i am observing frankas jenny and karen zanes doing a song in room 3 at emf

october 5 2016

Frankas leaves me sleeping in room 04 and then two young boys come in the room. 

They are talking to each other and do not notice me past the divider.

One notices me and then they leAve the room. I think maybe I am dreaming them that they were there but realize I 'am not dreaming' when they come back in wi Frankas. I start to yell at them for being in the room and looking at Frankas but realize he has told them they can come in. He is being nice to them and asking them questions. 

I am mad he let them in there when I was sleeping and follow him when he leaves the room out to the bland entrance and throw the wood thing that holds the newspapers at him down the stairs.

We walk through some woods and a trai. Track and find this neat little dead end street with the old train track being the street, dead end on one side and on the other side a little shop. They are playing Elvis outside in one of the houses on the street and a guy walks by singing the Elvis song (this is actually later when I go back to the street) -

The first time, we go into the shop and it is a little middle eastern shop and there is a rabbit , white and black with short little ears hopping around the shop.

We go back again and are talking to a girl that works there, ,aye I am asking about getting a job, she takes me out back down the train track street and to a bug hutch where there are 5 or 6 big fluffy lop eared rabbits inside. I ask her and a mother woman who is there whether it is protocol to let the short eared rabbit live inside and keep all the lop eared ones outside. She said she doesn't really take them out of the hutch and she says yes, this is what most people do. She says the rabbits outside get better food though and some other things.

With Frankas and he puts his hair up Ina bun and he has different hair and really becomes a different person, tAller, thinner, looks slightly like Vince and like that guy who was in film school that I made out with at the party at Lindsay's cousins house in Boston we went to, with Chelsea?

I am looking at him, trying to place him. Then he takes his hair down and i realize he is Frankas again.

Walking around emf and open the door to the 2nd floor bathroom and there is a girl in there I recognize from some time before and she looks passed out but I notice she is scratching at a spot on her upper back thigh before I close the door.

I go back in room 04 and there are even more boys in there and they are all lying like sardines on the bed roll with blankets on them watching something on the projection screen. I talk to them and it turns out they are some kind of computer engineers. I ask them how old they are and they tell me they are 16.

last saturday

last saturday ( a week ago) - sara silk came over to emf and we were meeting up for the first time in a long time and she brought gifts for me and hugged me and was very warm...

an animal came out of the parking lot facing door of the emf building... at first startled and thinking it is a rat...it is all white...turns out it is a rabbit...and a 'domesticated' type rabbit in a way... it follows us around and when we yell "mr. rabbit" he comes or does what we tell him to do... he has one floppy ear... i want him to be real

(IRL on this day coriander comes over to emf and brings me gifts of skincare and stolen lip stain from wholefoods and we start filming our new talk show be. on. say.)

Right before I wake up- talking to Alyssa Richardson and Kathryn Tajiks about lacrosse, we are wearing all lacrosse gear and goggles and like we've gone through some kind of time zone change into lacrosse zone, like we stepped into a dugout in time and are now standing here about to play lacrosse I guess

Before that I am walking fast around in a circle like a kind of outdoor pavilion with lots of other people walking around it to and I am with Mariah Carey and we are singing all these Mariah Carey songs super loud and walking around in the circle

I am in an empty studio warehouse type thing, these big rooms in a basement and I guess they are supposed to be rooms at emf, I have boxes of all my stuff that I have to go through and move, I am starting to move the boxes when little soprano who used to be in scooter boi's rooms upstairs comes in. I guess these used to be his rooms, he has still been kicked out of the building but he has a key still and he comes in and starts talking about how there's all these rich kids here with rooms that never come and use them and people like him and me used our rooms....kind of complaining that he got kicked out and snooping around and asking questions and he won't leave...at first it's ok but then he won't leave and I have to go through all this stuff...and then a bunch of people come in with a cake and singing happy birthday, I forget exactly who, and I realize it's my birthday and this was why I was trying to get all the stuff put away and I get stressed out and am upset with little soprano.

i am in a large supermarket that almost seems like the part of the cofc buildings where snap is located and student services, and is served to riverside community care... i know because i am in the spine between the supermarket and what must be riverside community care behind a set of glass doors because gail is on her phone outside the doors and i can tell she is working

i am looking for something in the grocery store...

i have to go back to the tank and when i get in the tank there are a couple of black rapper guys who i guess are watching the tank...alvan is not around...it appears things have been infiltrated by rappers...

will comes into the tank and i am thinking i will explain everything to him but i'm too busy with what i've got to do in my mind and i don't really talk to him, i guess it kind of seems like i'm ignoring him for some reason

but he is there, shows up, wearing a pink shirt, wearing a blue checkered shirt

*saw marykate and ashley olsen on the street in central square, talking to one another, me seeing them as if omniscient third party, marykate talking about/doing something with her hair, remember realizing it was them and being surprised at how human they were

^just now remembering this after seeing online article that ed burroughs posted saying marykate got married (with katie baker in the tank)

in some weird kind of alternate world EMF and there are two glass frames on the wall with that black velvet background and the white letters you can change arouind and in the frames it has several different times a day, 11:00, 3:00 and next to it "rabbits, and other classes....

what is the class i am deciding i am going to? it is at 11:00. it is something like meditation but i think it is not meditation...

i am lying on the ground and frankas is sleeping and i am kind of laying on him and he isn't really frankas he is someone else and he doesn't want to do anything with me and i am thinking, i am going to take this class, maybe it is hypnotism?

cg is walking around

then i am in a room looking at joe mccarthy who is sitting in a chair and has a wig on, it looks kind of like his normal hair but longer on the sides and black, he has white face on and he has bright red all over his mouth or starts to put it on...

he is talking about something he calls 'independent' i look over and realize the fake frankas is there next to me and he is very doubtful about this scene and joe's story...he asks joe what the 'independent' is or joe starts trying to describe it

i tell joe he looks like hitler like a hitler clown and he does look just like that he looks very funny


*in frankas dream he was getting evicted from EMF 'TOMORROW' for posting a picture of the landlord with a hooker...he didnt know who the landlord was or that he had posted that...they said yeah, well it was a street photo but he was in the window of the barbershop

8/29/15

Same night as cat power dream....

I see carol Ann on a couch dressed cool in a grey shirt and jeans maybe only slightly self conscious, I see her there, not exactly sure where we are but realizing she grew up at emf in the same way I did, so maybe we are at emf, like she is coming back and exposing how she knows everyone here and they all know her and she used to be here before me and knows all about everything and everyone

What a wonderful dream for me!

4/27/15 dream recovery

Dave tree is outside the party at emf which is going on but it's not the emf building and more like sparell school with another guy who looks familiar in the dream but I don't know in real life he is drunk and I am semi surprised cuz he seems so businesslike in theft e, Dave tree seems fine not drunk. Just before then john hopper went into the building or I thought it was john by how he looked and realized it was Madison, I had just been at market basket and left my iPad on a park bench outside but got it, I brought some girl with me when I left the party to go around Boston and was telling her how I knew everybody in Boston I felt like and wished I could meet some new people, I was carrying her around with me more like a disembodied electronic thing than a person, paigecame to town but was trying to get into Adams tavern and I heard the conversation somehow, my brother was there and came in to show me his art up on the wall some black thing which was right where I put ,y art too below it, but I'm notable if I gotta tell him, there was some big fat guy With a backwards baseball hat who I was supposed to be in love with somehow or something's and everyone else was bothering me about rp

In rooms with frankezoid and also Karen or someone else. Go back to frankezoid to be reassured, keep going. Most feelings/rooms feel like emf.

Dreamed I was moving intothis studio space/band space/ clubhouse above EMF, moving into it like a house in a way but also all my stuff was there. I am in there alone and it is sunny and bright like an attic, I am there at night breifly and there's a kind of party going on and I see Alvan. All these chairs and tables are arranged like a wonky U shape and I have to walk around behind them to get out either side. I find Brown Bear in a compartment underneath the tables and start carrying him around. Before that I am with my mother and Kathy Cook and Ryan and Dan Cook who is talking all about their pitbull and how she's a real pitbull...there is also a cat, like a sister cat to Lightly or something. We are at a museum or something and my momand I leave and go out through this auditorium type thing and are looking at this pizza kiosk that has allthese pizzas out on display (suddenly Devon Gray is with us also) my mom mentions that she sees a hummus pizza and I am walking around the kiosk looking for the hummus pizza.

Before that something with horses.

Maybe Will, maybe an airport, maybe new york.