at some kind of family reunion and brandon jarva is somne sluf type potato person and he is making fun of keith and keith is saying something back maybe about being fat or being strong
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Sunday, October 10, 2021
Tuesday, January 14, 2020
turkey, family vacation tb hospital art establishment paige
I
go on a family vacation to turkey, like i am bringing my family there kinda (and i wonder when im there how i got there without a new passport and dont remember the flight)
we stay at a hotel i stayed at before in the same room i stayed in, and my memory is that i traveled here as some part of educational trip, like i came here like i came to france,
and i am thinking about ozzy ozman and how i havent told him im here and why havent i
and the hotel is a grand large hotel and its all familiar to me and i remember all the people that work there but they dont quite remember me,
and there is a dunkin donuts in the lobby oddly, there are dunkin donuts everywhere
and when you go outside its a cobblestone street and a body of water in a curved plateau around it and you go to the right --- i take my brother and my father out with me when i go out and see it
first through the hotel where a familiar man (there is one man who seems to be everywhere in the hotel always , a main man, who i remember and who is affable and helpful and quirky)
i bring them by the pool where he is mopping around the pool and my father almost falls into the pool, is unsteady sometimes on his feet, with his balance
we go outside to this cobblestone area i remember so well and i am thinking the fish ball cart will be there and it is-- now i remember, we go out because i am so hungry and looking for falafel and
the main hotel guy had said they only had dunkin donuts falafel there at the hotel which is basically fake falafel cardboard and i am remembering this delicious falafel with baba ganoush i had had
(and my brother had a sandwich that looked like falafel but it was made of chicken)
so we go out and the fish ball cart is there and then we go to the right where there is a little market enclosure leading in from the outside and then if you go to the right inside of that there is more
little kiosks and venders, USUALLy, but this time, because it is late i suppose, there is practically nothing in the second room and it doesnt lead any further--
its a closed room and then it looks like there are geisha looking women playing harps but these are actually some kind of statues that operate like windchimes --- they are moving and making
soft harp like sounds and look like women but they are not, they are made of something like porcelain, like those perpetual motion things with the metal ball--
in the closed market there is a free sample tray of baklava which my father eats one of
we go back to the hotel and through some kind of dunkin donuts like coffee shop where a band is playing-- or is this happening on a tv ? there are tvs in the hotel that show the insides of dunkin donuts
like coffee shops-- like surveillance cams-- the band is also playing in one of these
II.
im with paige and we are in halifax walking down the street and i am going to show her the tb hospital-- it doesnt look like halifax its like a town center with cobblestone streets and
some kind of big show going on that night -- we are walking toward a dirt road that leads to the tb hospital and this guy who is somehow reminiscent of john hopper but with a bulbous bumpy face
stops us and tells us about the tb hospital and i dont tell him what i already know, but he is nice
and then a car stops and a man who looks just like him but older and taller gets out and he says
this is his father coming to pick him up , and his father is nice and for some reason we ride into the town center with them and his father leaves and then he walks us halfway back to where we were
going-- there is a big glass room where black and white videos of old movie stars with their hair being pulled back from their head, wide eyed and other flashing clips are playing
and the guy tells us this is some famous artist and in the room there are two guys sitting there and one is v young too young to be the artist and the other is old enough i guess and looks like hunter s thompson
we are on cobbled stairs coming up from under a bridge of some sort-- i am worried about it getting dark and getting to the tb hospital where i have spray painted a mural on the back and plan to do
more-- paige is maybe flirting with the guy--- and i think somehow i leave on my own and go down the dirt road to the tb hospital--
and when i get there its a big warehouse room all cleaned out and full of stuff i left there, like art supplies and all this wood, all these wooden figures
and for a moment but not for the whole time it seems like my brother is there and i am showing him this
and then i start painting on the walls
and then a whole group of young people come in and start immediately putting wooden sculptures on these long tables and working on them, they paint them, one is a painted fish made of wood
that stands on a wooden stand with a ball at the top and a round hole in the bottom of the fish so then the person moves the fish with a string and it looks like some kind of puppet and i want to make one
i know i have been here before but it seems like a long time since ive been
the young people see me but dont say anything and talk amongst each other and go about their work, one girl seems like the lead girl and i recognize her and like her--
i stop what im doing and feel a bit awkward because i thought this was my secret abandoned place--
but they seem fine with me, they start talking about the space and how tracy chapman said 'oh they just use a porter' and i ask them very softly what is a porter-- it seems this has become some kind of art school known as porter or a porter
and the main girl explains to me a porter is like an outdoor space, like an indoor outdoor space or enclosure, like maybe they dont have heat i guess
and she is offering me things like food and clothes and i wonder if she thinks im homeless or remembers me--
and then they put everything away very quickly and then they take all these clothes and spread them out all over these tables and then put them away very quickly again -- and this is something like a
flash exchange or something-- and i like their energy and their community--- and then they all go outside on the steps and its a bright sunny day and looks like a college campus
go on a family vacation to turkey, like i am bringing my family there kinda (and i wonder when im there how i got there without a new passport and dont remember the flight)
we stay at a hotel i stayed at before in the same room i stayed in, and my memory is that i traveled here as some part of educational trip, like i came here like i came to france,
and i am thinking about ozzy ozman and how i havent told him im here and why havent i
and the hotel is a grand large hotel and its all familiar to me and i remember all the people that work there but they dont quite remember me,
and there is a dunkin donuts in the lobby oddly, there are dunkin donuts everywhere
and when you go outside its a cobblestone street and a body of water in a curved plateau around it and you go to the right --- i take my brother and my father out with me when i go out and see it
first through the hotel where a familiar man (there is one man who seems to be everywhere in the hotel always , a main man, who i remember and who is affable and helpful and quirky)
i bring them by the pool where he is mopping around the pool and my father almost falls into the pool, is unsteady sometimes on his feet, with his balance
we go outside to this cobblestone area i remember so well and i am thinking the fish ball cart will be there and it is-- now i remember, we go out because i am so hungry and looking for falafel and
the main hotel guy had said they only had dunkin donuts falafel there at the hotel which is basically fake falafel cardboard and i am remembering this delicious falafel with baba ganoush i had had
(and my brother had a sandwich that looked like falafel but it was made of chicken)
so we go out and the fish ball cart is there and then we go to the right where there is a little market enclosure leading in from the outside and then if you go to the right inside of that there is more
little kiosks and venders, USUALLy, but this time, because it is late i suppose, there is practically nothing in the second room and it doesnt lead any further--
its a closed room and then it looks like there are geisha looking women playing harps but these are actually some kind of statues that operate like windchimes --- they are moving and making
soft harp like sounds and look like women but they are not, they are made of something like porcelain, like those perpetual motion things with the metal ball--
in the closed market there is a free sample tray of baklava which my father eats one of
we go back to the hotel and through some kind of dunkin donuts like coffee shop where a band is playing-- or is this happening on a tv ? there are tvs in the hotel that show the insides of dunkin donuts
like coffee shops-- like surveillance cams-- the band is also playing in one of these
II.
im with paige and we are in halifax walking down the street and i am going to show her the tb hospital-- it doesnt look like halifax its like a town center with cobblestone streets and
some kind of big show going on that night -- we are walking toward a dirt road that leads to the tb hospital and this guy who is somehow reminiscent of john hopper but with a bulbous bumpy face
stops us and tells us about the tb hospital and i dont tell him what i already know, but he is nice
and then a car stops and a man who looks just like him but older and taller gets out and he says
this is his father coming to pick him up , and his father is nice and for some reason we ride into the town center with them and his father leaves and then he walks us halfway back to where we were
going-- there is a big glass room where black and white videos of old movie stars with their hair being pulled back from their head, wide eyed and other flashing clips are playing
and the guy tells us this is some famous artist and in the room there are two guys sitting there and one is v young too young to be the artist and the other is old enough i guess and looks like hunter s thompson
we are on cobbled stairs coming up from under a bridge of some sort-- i am worried about it getting dark and getting to the tb hospital where i have spray painted a mural on the back and plan to do
more-- paige is maybe flirting with the guy--- and i think somehow i leave on my own and go down the dirt road to the tb hospital--
and when i get there its a big warehouse room all cleaned out and full of stuff i left there, like art supplies and all this wood, all these wooden figures
and for a moment but not for the whole time it seems like my brother is there and i am showing him this
and then i start painting on the walls
and then a whole group of young people come in and start immediately putting wooden sculptures on these long tables and working on them, they paint them, one is a painted fish made of wood
that stands on a wooden stand with a ball at the top and a round hole in the bottom of the fish so then the person moves the fish with a string and it looks like some kind of puppet and i want to make one
i know i have been here before but it seems like a long time since ive been
the young people see me but dont say anything and talk amongst each other and go about their work, one girl seems like the lead girl and i recognize her and like her--
i stop what im doing and feel a bit awkward because i thought this was my secret abandoned place--
but they seem fine with me, they start talking about the space and how tracy chapman said 'oh they just use a porter' and i ask them very softly what is a porter-- it seems this has become some kind of art school known as porter or a porter
and the main girl explains to me a porter is like an outdoor space, like an indoor outdoor space or enclosure, like maybe they dont have heat i guess
and she is offering me things like food and clothes and i wonder if she thinks im homeless or remembers me--
and then they put everything away very quickly and then they take all these clothes and spread them out all over these tables and then put them away very quickly again -- and this is something like a
flash exchange or something-- and i like their energy and their community--- and then they all go outside on the steps and its a bright sunny day and looks like a college campus
last week living room erik stabbing
in the living room in norwell with my parents and my brother erik and i am on the couch and my mom is over by the fireplace
and she says something to me , judgemental , mean, something that really gets to me and makes me angry and very emotionally upset
and erik is on the couch just laying there next to me maybe sleeping and i am upset but also realizing this is a dreAM
and so i start stabbing him because i know its a dream and there is red blood and even then i dont stab him too much because i know its a dream but i dont want to kill him
and then he is getting up and putting clothes on and staggering around like he is just getting ready to get his flight back to japan, very non emotional
and my parents are freaking out and im suddenly realizing its not a dream and i really stabbed him and im the bath room sobbing and freaking out and cant believe what i have done
and i wake up and realize it was a dream
and she says something to me , judgemental , mean, something that really gets to me and makes me angry and very emotionally upset
and erik is on the couch just laying there next to me maybe sleeping and i am upset but also realizing this is a dreAM
and so i start stabbing him because i know its a dream and there is red blood and even then i dont stab him too much because i know its a dream but i dont want to kill him
and then he is getting up and putting clothes on and staggering around like he is just getting ready to get his flight back to japan, very non emotional
and my parents are freaking out and im suddenly realizing its not a dream and i really stabbed him and im the bath room sobbing and freaking out and cant believe what i have done
and i wake up and realize it was a dream
Friday, December 27, 2019
open studios
having open studios at my studio at western ave and my mom is there and uncle kenny is there and maybe more family
and i am running around and trying to get ready and set up my display
and mom and uncle kenny are there and they are getting in the way of things and putting me down, uncle kenny is saying oh well you know how jessies stuff is .... something negative
and i yell at them and tell them to go somewhere else and look at someone elses art
and uncle kenny looks guilty and they leave and go to another floor
then im in my studio and setting it up and have some cassette playing and someone wants to buy the cassette and im thinking how can i make a copy of any individual cassette anyone wants to buy
and it seems like steve kimock is there and loving the studio and the studio looks open and organized enough and experiential and you can move around in it, the vibe is good
and someone like bill dwyer but maybe not bill dwyer comes in and wants to buy 3 hats, and i am trying to take pictures of the hats before he takes them,
and they are very minimalist hats where i just wrote something on them-- one has a face upside down-- with a nose going over the top of the hat-- the other two say things on them i can almost remember , something about piss maybe
and i am quoting the hats at $25 -- thinking the total is $75 and worrying a bit about the charge but the guy loves the hats
(today in waking life jaws the girl tags me in a post on instagram wearing a hat i made which she bought at the sparrow when i played there last february)
and i am running around and trying to get ready and set up my display
and mom and uncle kenny are there and they are getting in the way of things and putting me down, uncle kenny is saying oh well you know how jessies stuff is .... something negative
and i yell at them and tell them to go somewhere else and look at someone elses art
and uncle kenny looks guilty and they leave and go to another floor
then im in my studio and setting it up and have some cassette playing and someone wants to buy the cassette and im thinking how can i make a copy of any individual cassette anyone wants to buy
and it seems like steve kimock is there and loving the studio and the studio looks open and organized enough and experiential and you can move around in it, the vibe is good
and someone like bill dwyer but maybe not bill dwyer comes in and wants to buy 3 hats, and i am trying to take pictures of the hats before he takes them,
and they are very minimalist hats where i just wrote something on them-- one has a face upside down-- with a nose going over the top of the hat-- the other two say things on them i can almost remember , something about piss maybe
and i am quoting the hats at $25 -- thinking the total is $75 and worrying a bit about the charge but the guy loves the hats
(today in waking life jaws the girl tags me in a post on instagram wearing a hat i made which she bought at the sparrow when i played there last february)
Thursday, September 12, 2019
DREAMS FROM THE PAST WEEK
1. with someone who is like colleen shea at first and also like sinclair from tennessee and also like katie clancy by the end of the dream. with her and a guy who is like christian comeau and chris valverde. and we are all together and i guess they are in a relationship. i find myself attracted to the christian comeau / valverde. we are in one place and decide we are going to new york -- chris and katie leave somehow and i lam sitting in a chair that starts zooming through the air at the height of a plane --- it is very rocky and i am barely hanging on , it is very scary but i survive-- we end up in new york going to colleen sinclair katies mothers luxury apartment in new york city which is inside a big building that is like a grand hotel. we go to play basketball and the basketball court is a tiny circular platform with hoops on it and no guard rails and is maybe 100 feet in the air above the next floor. colleen is nervous about playing basketball on this platform. christian valverde kind of chides her is kind of mocking her or disgruntled and judging of this like shes a pussy or something. i say i am uncomfortable too.
we are walking out on the steps of the grand hotel luxury apartment and i ask her if the people know her here--
2. i am on a family vacation with artwerk666 with my dad and she is very grumpy and maybe we are sisters. she seems upset and is not talking and like maybe she hates me, we are in a car or on a bus at some point. my dad is there. i start to wonder if she is jealous over my dad or our parents, its like she wants to be with them and doesn't want me there but like maybe we are sisters
3. go to some crazy place a barroom some crazy event where i am supposed to play and bob dylan is there and i see him in the crowd with a hat on leaning near a wood pillar close to the stage -- its a woozy kind of atmosphere -- i think he sees me play but i dont know
i go in the same place or maybe not and see myself in something like an orgy with people S-in my Ts
go into a bathroom and start to pee and its way more pee and pee pressure than is normal and the pee is coming back up and getting all over me
we are walking out on the steps of the grand hotel luxury apartment and i ask her if the people know her here--
2. i am on a family vacation with artwerk666 with my dad and she is very grumpy and maybe we are sisters. she seems upset and is not talking and like maybe she hates me, we are in a car or on a bus at some point. my dad is there. i start to wonder if she is jealous over my dad or our parents, its like she wants to be with them and doesn't want me there but like maybe we are sisters
3. go to some crazy place a barroom some crazy event where i am supposed to play and bob dylan is there and i see him in the crowd with a hat on leaning near a wood pillar close to the stage -- its a woozy kind of atmosphere -- i think he sees me play but i dont know
i go in the same place or maybe not and see myself in something like an orgy with people S-in my Ts
go into a bathroom and start to pee and its way more pee and pee pressure than is normal and the pee is coming back up and getting all over me
Monday, January 21, 2019
I
living in this house and somehow osman ozzy comes there out of nowhere and i'm remembering that his parents live in the house with us in the hall across from my room but then i remember that they actually moved,
he is there and im feeling his head trying to remember if hes balding or not but hes not (think im confusing him for a minute with north end ricky)
we have sex and go out together and i find him again but hes also not there forever and going back to turkey
i am with him at some point in a basement type room at his uncles house?
II
at some place that seems like a big gym at a school but is supposed to be the out of the blue and there are scattered few paintings up on the wall and not the best feeling like no ones into my paintings and the ones i have there are not the best but throws me back
to a 'memory' of being there when mike greenstein came in and only wanted to buy my paintings--
III.
outside kathryn tajimas car with her mother and sister and my mother and they are talking about how their step father was such a creep and would try to lick their faces and now they are talking about it and exposing him and i tell kathryn tajima 'im sorry but i didnt know !' and she says but i did know i knew that her stepfather chased her out of the house and i am wondering about my diaries and if its in there cuz i dont remember
IV
go to some country music show in a wooded type mall type theater showcase where everything is connected and wooden... with megan kelly and irish dave and dave tree are there also and i dont realize its the country music awards that are happening but tickets are 100 dollars, im on the phon e with will and hes having some kind of event somewhere and im trying to stay on the phone with him but its hard to hear and when the phone dies its the old nokia brick phone and im trying to leave the country music award thing to go meet will, i use the bathroom there and i think - who else is there, ron from pro event ? some other guy i think is holding the door - but then an older black man with a doo rag comes in when im done but before i leave the stall... and a band is up front in this bar part starting to play and the guy sounds like dave tree and i tell dave tree that cuz hes right next to me and the guy is saying the song titles to his songs and one is 'picasso' and they all sound familiar-- dace tree says theyre gonna play at his place soon
living in this house and somehow osman ozzy comes there out of nowhere and i'm remembering that his parents live in the house with us in the hall across from my room but then i remember that they actually moved,
he is there and im feeling his head trying to remember if hes balding or not but hes not (think im confusing him for a minute with north end ricky)
we have sex and go out together and i find him again but hes also not there forever and going back to turkey
i am with him at some point in a basement type room at his uncles house?
II
at some place that seems like a big gym at a school but is supposed to be the out of the blue and there are scattered few paintings up on the wall and not the best feeling like no ones into my paintings and the ones i have there are not the best but throws me back
to a 'memory' of being there when mike greenstein came in and only wanted to buy my paintings--
III.
outside kathryn tajimas car with her mother and sister and my mother and they are talking about how their step father was such a creep and would try to lick their faces and now they are talking about it and exposing him and i tell kathryn tajima 'im sorry but i didnt know !' and she says but i did know i knew that her stepfather chased her out of the house and i am wondering about my diaries and if its in there cuz i dont remember
IV
go to some country music show in a wooded type mall type theater showcase where everything is connected and wooden... with megan kelly and irish dave and dave tree are there also and i dont realize its the country music awards that are happening but tickets are 100 dollars, im on the phon e with will and hes having some kind of event somewhere and im trying to stay on the phone with him but its hard to hear and when the phone dies its the old nokia brick phone and im trying to leave the country music award thing to go meet will, i use the bathroom there and i think - who else is there, ron from pro event ? some other guy i think is holding the door - but then an older black man with a doo rag comes in when im done but before i leave the stall... and a band is up front in this bar part starting to play and the guy sounds like dave tree and i tell dave tree that cuz hes right next to me and the guy is saying the song titles to his songs and one is 'picasso' and they all sound familiar-- dace tree says theyre gonna play at his place soon
Saturday, January 12, 2019
december 2018
I
chloe in the backyard with mud up to her elbows
II
my family members, some of them, men, my father, gathered around a counter in the kitchen eating meat, and i come and eat some of it with them, and come to realize its pig meat...
and take the bones to make broth
Monday, December 19, 2016
Monday, April 4, 2016
in some kind of weird babe-like story with my family and my brother...living on this farm or on this farm visiting...and our grandfather comes down to the lake-pond in the back of the farm and he is naked and he bathes there and somehow i see this in pictures that perhaps my brother took...
then we are with my grandmother on a porch and she was going to take us away somewhere...it turns out she ties animals and people to the front of her house to make some kind of point...
it also turns out her mother died (maybe somewhat like howard stern's mother because i was listening to howard stern latenight) and we are not sure if she is sorry that her mother died...
i keep trying to figure out the story and it seems familiar like babe or something so i'm also kind of trying to figure out which fairytale type thing we are in and i'm getting confused and frustrated...
i go into a room with an older man i dont really recognize who i guess i was in some kind of relationship with ( i a aware of frankas somewhere and this is not frankas) and he tells me that woman at the party when we first got to the farm (which i remember again in pictures) was his wife
and he tells me we can't see each other anymore and i am pretty ok with it (although he doesnt notice) and then we go for a drive
then we are with my grandmother on a porch and she was going to take us away somewhere...it turns out she ties animals and people to the front of her house to make some kind of point...
it also turns out her mother died (maybe somewhat like howard stern's mother because i was listening to howard stern latenight) and we are not sure if she is sorry that her mother died...
i keep trying to figure out the story and it seems familiar like babe or something so i'm also kind of trying to figure out which fairytale type thing we are in and i'm getting confused and frustrated...
i go into a room with an older man i dont really recognize who i guess i was in some kind of relationship with ( i a aware of frankas somewhere and this is not frankas) and he tells me that woman at the party when we first got to the farm (which i remember again in pictures) was his wife
and he tells me we can't see each other anymore and i am pretty ok with it (although he doesnt notice) and then we go for a drive
Monday, March 7, 2016
i am with my family around the holidays. parents, erik, uncle kenny... end up getting in a fight and going "fuck you fuck you fuck you" to everyone.
something about blue.
lindsay comes over and sleeps over and we are going christmas shopping. everyone is all in this big christmas shopping store which is also a bar/restaurant attached.
am looking through all the items and then find my parents with antonia at the bar, having beer and she is having a cider. i go over but they don't get me anything. i am still upset with them.
something about blue.
lindsay comes over and sleeps over and we are going christmas shopping. everyone is all in this big christmas shopping store which is also a bar/restaurant attached.
am looking through all the items and then find my parents with antonia at the bar, having beer and she is having a cider. i go over but they don't get me anything. i am still upset with them.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
in a strange college town where there is a coffee shop and sara silk is there and maybe her friend lisa baron... sarah silverman is about to do a standup set at the coffee shop and it costs maybe $5 and i am unsure whether i can go and walk down the street.
there is an apartment with the door open and i can see a group of people sitting around a table and think maybe i recognize them. i walk in and it is john hopper maccallum and his nuclear family all wearing very kitchy christmas outfits. there is a cat and it seems like i know the cat. i believe i greet the cat and the cat runs out the door.
they are surprised to see me but very nice to me when i walk in. i ask john if he is going to see sarah silverman. when the cat runs out the door we go outside. i am standing outside with john's mother and notice there is a big dog laying on the porch. it seems the dog does not move. the mom makes a joke about the dog and also says kit is a 'nurse's dog'. i think the joke is supposed to be about the dog being a beached whale and it takes me a minute to decide this was the joke and then i say something to illustrate that i got the joke. i am no longer sure if her comment was a joke. if not, i have certainly just said something offensive.
i get the distinct impression, however, that the dog is unmoving at all times and lives its life as if on bed rest on the front porch of their home facing in toward the door (perhaps why they keep the door open) the dog also looks more like a cartoon girl and her ears look like hair and i believe she can talk. she has a very large body and many nipples.
the inside of their home as far as i can see it is very ornamental and rich looking, the wall paper is blue and white with gold embellishing and as i start to look around i notice more gold and ornamentation in the decor. it is much like napoleon's apartments at the louvre.
there is an apartment with the door open and i can see a group of people sitting around a table and think maybe i recognize them. i walk in and it is john hopper maccallum and his nuclear family all wearing very kitchy christmas outfits. there is a cat and it seems like i know the cat. i believe i greet the cat and the cat runs out the door.
they are surprised to see me but very nice to me when i walk in. i ask john if he is going to see sarah silverman. when the cat runs out the door we go outside. i am standing outside with john's mother and notice there is a big dog laying on the porch. it seems the dog does not move. the mom makes a joke about the dog and also says kit is a 'nurse's dog'. i think the joke is supposed to be about the dog being a beached whale and it takes me a minute to decide this was the joke and then i say something to illustrate that i got the joke. i am no longer sure if her comment was a joke. if not, i have certainly just said something offensive.
i get the distinct impression, however, that the dog is unmoving at all times and lives its life as if on bed rest on the front porch of their home facing in toward the door (perhaps why they keep the door open) the dog also looks more like a cartoon girl and her ears look like hair and i believe she can talk. she has a very large body and many nipples.
the inside of their home as far as i can see it is very ornamental and rich looking, the wall paper is blue and white with gold embellishing and as i start to look around i notice more gold and ornamentation in the decor. it is much like napoleon's apartments at the louvre.
Sunday, December 21, 2014
couple nights ago
going on a cruise with the whole family + rob potylo, first it is like a real big ship, cruise liner but then turns into smaller boats and like we take the big cruiser to the bay where we all get our own little boats, like a tropical island kind of place kind of like water world. no one will drive the boat so i start trying to drive it. then i see there are boats going around in a circle like they are learning how to boat and i am kind of driving wild around the area.
at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.
(a few nights before or the same night as this)
i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!
at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.
(a few nights before or the same night as this)
i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!
Friday, October 18, 2013
Night before last night's dream
Little Kenny comes to visit my parents house why h is open like its their house but the t.v. Set version or something. Before that Tory invites me to come out for her birthday. My mom wants to take me out for my birthday with aunt Annie. Pammie is there too and Erik. Jonathan is in town and meeting up with Shannon and calling me when me and Lindsay get to the hull restaurant called sailors or something so were all there at the same time. We drink white wine . Then I'm at my parents house talking to Tory about going away somewhere and I wonder if max is coming. Little Kenny is talking but no ones talking to him excepted dad, about sports. I notice little things he's saying that are turns of phrase and not quite true. He has little blue slippers on his feet and they are near me in the living room so I roll away. We end up in something like a tree house or a house addition, seems like in hull. Rob is there and was there before or I was with him before I left to go to all these reunions. When I'm at the house I keep trying to make us cheese sandwiches with this cranberry but bread that is laying out but I keep getting interrupted. In the tree house ish room we are back together only someone else is there and little Kenny and we are trying to get it on. We start making out and stuff and he looks like a different person, very feminine in the face like a Mexican lesbian lady and kind of meaty and shorter but with the same tattoos. We are in some kind of Chinese boxing place before that where Asian girls are competing in gymnastics and I have been there before. Certain things play like videos I assume rob and I are watching that are scenes from my life; one I am filming and feeding animals, a snake maybe an ostrich, I am with some friends and all these animals and my hair is long, another I am a small person like a child wearing a blue machinist looking outfit and trying to board a train
Monday, September 9, 2013
Talking to Cliff Peacock. We are on some kind of cruise ship that seems like the beginning of college and turns into Thanksgiving at parts. I am sitting at a table and Cliff is talking to some people and being funny and I'm listening. Then we are in some kind of studio, I have workup against one wall and some kid in the class is looking at it and asking about it. A disney pixar movie starts playing and one of the studio areas is curtained and roped off. When I go by its a hospital room and maybe the whole things a hospital too. When I'm not with Cliff it turns to Thanksgiving and I'm in the sun room and Kenny is talking about how many glasses of wine my mom has had as if 3 or more is a good sign. Lots of people are in the sunroom, little Michael. When I pass Cliff again its by a staircase and I ask him something about how things are going because hes been joking around and seems like things are going well but somethings wrong, he says something that seems like he's paying to get his child out of jail or something. We sit down facing each other and I notice hes gotten a long facial tattoo going from his right ear horizontally across his face kind of like a fish hook but hes not Cliff quite in the moment he's almost someone else. We are sitting on the top of the bleacher seats looking out to the edge where we can see the city of boston, tops of buildings and we watch them crumble and roll under the edge of the horizon.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Uncle Andy, Erik, Mom, Dad and me are all living in one house...there may be more family living there as well but I'[m not sure. Uncle Andy is living with us because he and Carol have split up...it also seems like she has died perhaps or been very cruel to Andy. Uncle Andy and Erik both feel like its a little below them to be living in the house with the rest of us and they decide to run for a position in the local election. Then everyone goes to sleep and I am the only one awake for a long time. While they are sleeping I also run for election and by the time they wake up the voting has already happened and I have been elected as an official. They are only slightly put off and I don't care because they are both very self-serving in their attitudes at this point in the dream...I think I may have ran purely to stop them from being elected and/or to show them that the public does not support their attitudes...also just to see what would happen...also because I felt they underestimated me.
Then me, my mom and Uncle Andy are driving in a car. Andy is upset about Carol- I don't know why I feel like she's died but I know they have split up and perhaps she has both the girls on her side and Uncle Andy is not allowed to see them- We are driving in a parking lot and making jokes and Andy, who is very sad, seems to cheer up a little bit...but then we see Carol and Leslie I think walking through the parking lot. I am sitting in the front seat and try to block them from Andy's view with my head but it doesn't work. Andy asks us to pull over so we do. We get out of the car and are standing on a wood-slat dock of sorts over a creek. Uncle Andy gets out of the car and starts crying. My mom disappears at this point and the car starts to slide over into the water...Uncle Andy tries to keep the car from going in and at first it is sort of funny (the parking lot seems like the parking lot outside of Leslie and Erin's highschool in Marblehead) but then Andy falls into the water. I am standing on the wood dock trying to pull him out of the water but he keeps slipping.
I dream that Ricky texts me "let me take you out tonight?" I imagine that I text him back "No. Let me take you out."
Then me, my mom and Uncle Andy are driving in a car. Andy is upset about Carol- I don't know why I feel like she's died but I know they have split up and perhaps she has both the girls on her side and Uncle Andy is not allowed to see them- We are driving in a parking lot and making jokes and Andy, who is very sad, seems to cheer up a little bit...but then we see Carol and Leslie I think walking through the parking lot. I am sitting in the front seat and try to block them from Andy's view with my head but it doesn't work. Andy asks us to pull over so we do. We get out of the car and are standing on a wood-slat dock of sorts over a creek. Uncle Andy gets out of the car and starts crying. My mom disappears at this point and the car starts to slide over into the water...Uncle Andy tries to keep the car from going in and at first it is sort of funny (the parking lot seems like the parking lot outside of Leslie and Erin's highschool in Marblehead) but then Andy falls into the water. I am standing on the wood dock trying to pull him out of the water but he keeps slipping.
I dream that Ricky texts me "let me take you out tonight?" I imagine that I text him back "No. Let me take you out."
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I am on a trip with my family on a cruise boat. THere is some kind of big party going on or about to happen. I am looking for Will and I can see him standing outside, (I'm not sure how there is an outside if we are on a cruise ship...we might actually be in a hotel in new york). MY DAD MAKES ME COME OVER TO A TABLE WHERE he starts talking about this guy or this guy he introduces me to starts talking about something and I have to be polite and listen but all I CAN THINK OF IS RUNNING OUTSIDE to see Will...he wasn't supposed to come I think and maybe does not know that I AM there. I WANT TO RUN OUTSIDE AND TALK TO him and am getting very frustrated that I HAVE TO listen to whatever bullshit is going on.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
i am on some kind of vacation with my family. we keep ending up in new places. i have a lot of animals with me or keep receiving animals. i think there is a point where there are a ton of cats or kittens, sort of like that resvervation thing katharine pelzer sent me. I think Erik is there but maybe he is younger or just seems to be younger or is in a better mood than usual. i don't remember anyone being really angry or upset or any of the animals being dead or dying which is rare.
Monday, May 3, 2010
there is a dog and when i put it on the table the colors of the table cloth change. i am in a family sort of situation in some house somewhere that reminds me of that house where there was a christening or something and a white couch and i went with my mom. later on i talk to anson's father on the phone. i forget why. he says something funny. it is a funny conversation. i'm afraid i may have accidentally hung up on him.
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