couple nights ago

going on a cruise with the whole family + rob potylo, first it is like a real big ship, cruise liner but then turns into smaller boats and like we take the big cruiser to the bay where we all get our own little boats, like a tropical island kind of place kind of like water world. no one will drive the boat so i start trying to drive it. then i see there are boats going around in a circle like they are learning how to boat and i am kind of driving wild around the area.

at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.

(a few nights before or the same night as this)

i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!

First I take the bus to New York and walk into a store, I think I see Jonathan. There is a store with bags. And Alex Johnson. I am walking around but find nowhere to go and go back to boston and then back to New York again in one week. I think briefly about how I don't have the money to be spending on this... Someone has an apartment (Alex?) and there is a young asian man there and he comes by to give me a spare key. He has pot smoking things setup on his floor like toy trains or legos. When  I am in New York I am on the outskirts and on the outskirts there are these big colonial like houses that look like they are in a field somewhwere but they are on the outskirts of new york city in the dream. I am walking around and find an alley and at the end of the alley is a fence and boulders beyond the fence and then the ocean. I touch the fence and it almost collapses or is broken. There is a family of a woman and two kids I think, almost like gypsies, and they go on the rocks together beyond the fence. I get back on the bus to leave New York.

Alvan is talking to me about running the office for him since the other ladies he used to have help him are gone (Franny, someone else) I go into 'the tank' area and there is a big blue bench attached to the wall and suspended from the floor. The tank looks almost like an auto-body type place.

I am in France with a group of people like a school standing there with Beth. We are near a highway and maybe just got off a bus. This woman is telling us about how shes seen people come and go and how its dangerous and how you have to act a certain way and Beth does not want to hear it and is scoffing. While shes saying this stuff a bird comes by and lifts her bag, which is brilliant blue into the air and something drops out of it and the bird still has the bag and then it lets go and the woman begrudgingly goes over to where the bird dropped the bag and I am hoping she doesn't throw it away (or does so I can take it) and thinking shes missing the most beautiful thing that just happened by staying focused on her lecture!

Traveling with Erin and Leslie and maybe their parents, further and further down into the ocean, going further down each level on a series of steps. We are traveling down staircases and Erin keeps jumping and then landing on the bottom steps like she forgot they would be there or something and then she sits there and cries, almost like a character that keeps messing up on a video game. It is like a giant caver that becomes the ocean. At the bottom of the steps before I wake up there is shallow water and I look into the water and see little sea unicorns. I wake up and draw the sea unicorn.

for some reason we are going on a journey overseas, even though it feels as if we have just taken an overseas journey to get to the place at which this journey begins. in order to travel, everyone on the trip must wrap themselves up in a huge blanket which is their personal boat. i think i get mine wet when i am not supposed to. it is late at night and dark and cold. danielle is on the trip and carries her boat next to mine. she is acting sort of strange and nervous and then she says i hate having my period and i know its because she has her period. i don't remember vey much about the trip other than it was very dark and cold and i don't think we were doing things the right way.

yesterday/ last night

i am on like a rented house vacation with my family and relatives. everyone has children even the old ones all have babies and stuff. i can tell everyone is judging me for not having a baby or a boyfriend but the babies freak me out. im scared to touch them or hold them or be near them or left alone with them. everytime someone hands me a baby i end up in the ocean and the water is almost over my head and the baby is about to drown. no one really yells at me for this, they just take the babies away. uncle andy's baby shits in the water and he scoops it up like hes going to take it in as a sample. i guess there is something wrong with his baby. inside keith and wendy are there and they take out these gigantic chunks of corn on the cob out of the freezer. they are each one half of a huge corn on the cub. they put them on the table and cut of a row of kernels and when they cut it off it becomes a regular sized full corn on the cob. i eat it raw.

last night-
anson was there or i was waiting for him somewhere but we changed empty rooms or something. then i was at a table at a restaurant or bar or something and alex was sitiing across from me and i got up and i'm not sure if i made it happen but there was this robot-waitress thing and it got a cup of water and walked over to the table and dumped the water on alexs head and zipped away. it was really funny and the robot was really cool looking like the jetsons.

we are traveling italy by sea. we are somewhere and ancona is far away but no ships go there and you can only go by swimming. i am with another girl around my age and we are swimming. we start swimming toward acona in the middle of the night and i do not want to go. i would rather go during the day but we cant turn around. i think there is a shark. there is some kind of animal with a large fin rising out of the water. we also see dolphins.

my family goes on a trip to a special cove like place that is sort of like iceland or antartica, it is all white and snowy and centered around an ocean, only it isn't cold. everyone lives in little houses that are cut into the cliffs. al gore is there giving a speech about hating his wife and being upset that there is no coffee shop there. he is wearing nail polish. i am there with my parents and will and two other people with us. will is strong and picks me up a lot. he can hold me over his head. we lay down by the water for a long time. we eat dinner with my parents and they leaver and i go to get wine but the clock says its only 4 30 even though it feels very late. i go into the basement and in the refrigerator there are security cameras and i see myself on the screen, sitting in the basement. later on, i remember i have to go to check on the apartments of madame bellafont (maybe?) i think i have had to do this in dreams before. i remember she was going away and i was supposed to check the apartment. this is in paris though, and somewhere in the dream my parents and i fly to paris. i am smoking a cigarette when i gto into her apartment and i put it out on the rug. when i come back from looking around, i have burnt i white line into her rug. i cover it up with a piece of grey cloth and i hear the door open. madame belafonte comes in and is nice although i think she is usually not nice. then jarod charsewski comes in and i find out he is staying at the little icelandic cove with his wife. i look at him again and i realize he isnt wearing any clothes. a few people make jokes about this and he is pretty casual about it.

i am driving around with lindsay and jonathan. we go to barnes & nobles. i have to buy school supplies but i forget. he almost tips the car over three times then he asks me to go to california. his parents are paying and we are going only for a few hours. it is to see someone graduate or something. i am excited because ive never been to california but i have to tell my parents and be back to school by monday. waiting for the airplane me and my family sit on the sofa and have cups of water that we spit into sometimes. we watch this movie where this one guy kills the last guy by jumping on him in the ocean in the last scene. the other guy says wait i need to unbubkle my belt first and then the other guy stabs him in the neck.

dream digression- 9-09

danielle brutto, james and i are having a picnic in the ocean, we kee losing the salad bowls and i keep swimming underwater to retreive them