First I take the bus to New York and walk into a store, I think I see Jonathan. There is a store with bags. And Alex Johnson. I am walking around but find nowhere to go and go back to boston and then back to New York again in one week. I think briefly about how I don't have the money to be spending on this... Someone has an apartment (Alex?) and there is a young asian man there and he comes by to give me a spare key. He has pot smoking things setup on his floor like toy trains or legos. When  I am in New York I am on the outskirts and on the outskirts there are these big colonial like houses that look like they are in a field somewhwere but they are on the outskirts of new york city in the dream. I am walking around and find an alley and at the end of the alley is a fence and boulders beyond the fence and then the ocean. I touch the fence and it almost collapses or is broken. There is a family of a woman and two kids I think, almost like gypsies, and they go on the rocks together beyond the fence. I get back on the bus to leave New York.

Alvan is talking to me about running the office for him since the other ladies he used to have help him are gone (Franny, someone else) I go into 'the tank' area and there is a big blue bench attached to the wall and suspended from the floor. The tank looks almost like an auto-body type place.

I am in France with a group of people like a school standing there with Beth. We are near a highway and maybe just got off a bus. This woman is telling us about how shes seen people come and go and how its dangerous and how you have to act a certain way and Beth does not want to hear it and is scoffing. While shes saying this stuff a bird comes by and lifts her bag, which is brilliant blue into the air and something drops out of it and the bird still has the bag and then it lets go and the woman begrudgingly goes over to where the bird dropped the bag and I am hoping she doesn't throw it away (or does so I can take it) and thinking shes missing the most beautiful thing that just happened by staying focused on her lecture!

dream 2nd night back from italy (order out of context)

i am on a trip with my parents. i have bought a fish and somewhere i have gotten a large bird who sits on my shoulder and also a duck. i remember ive forgotten to feed them. we drive to the hotel where we have always stayed. i have a friend with me. i think maybe it is alex. my brother is there. when we get to the hotel we pass an aquarium and i think ill get worms to feed the birds there. my father drives onto the sidewalk and down the steps. at one point he careens off a staircase and i fall out of the backseat and fall onto a step where the ledge gets steeper and i almost fall off. half my belonging land on the step behind me and i have to stradle in between to get them but i am shaking and losing my balance. i start to cry. ken and kathy are there then and ken collects my things for me and makes aq comment. everyone thinks im a wussy for crying. when we get to the hotel we go to a movie. we are here for a family reunion which is in my parents backyard on south street and all my friends are there. chanel is sitting by the old climbing tree and she beckons me over to talk to her. i say ill be there in a minute and maria and someone else sit down next to her and start singing out of tune. i go to get a drink and end up going back to the hotel. i start to feel drunk. at the hotel i am in the bathroom and anson is there. we talk about how he and my brother get alo0ng and he goes into the other room and starts talking to erik. he says i can hear in your voice how we are alike with our anger or something but its not anger and then my brother replies that its something that begins with a b. then they get in some sort of argument. i think my parents like anson. i keep checking the bird on my shoulder to see if its still alive. i still havent fed it and realize its been four days. sometimes i forget it is on my shoulder but it is always on my shoulder.