GOING TO HERBS HOUSE and axing about the car and him telling me he sold it and not giving me any information about it and just being a total asshole about it,  i start taking things from around the house and throwing them at him

cav comes and takes me away and we are in a grocery store and i dont want to be there or with him and he is looking at all these different chips and there are free samples out and i take some kind of tiny pastry that looks like a button and im telling him how i dont want to be with him 

chris car money

out to dinner somewhere with people and chris its some kind of venue like a casino and the waiter is saying you can test drive this car for $1,000 and chris gets a look in his eye

and wants to the car

i try to mind my own business and look at the table


(( last night before chris falls asleep he is sleep talking... saying there is a lot of people there...(i ax him where...) ... chris's parking lot ))

several days ago

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i am in a car with ellen degenerous driving around and i am kind of being a ham with her and am at some point reflective of the fact i am so comfortable with her and cracking her up also... it seems odd but feels very comfortable... we are driving and we go by a house with a driveway and there are these huge mop haired monster people ogre things (like the monsters in where the wild things are except huge) walking up the driveway and we just kind of laugh at it and it not scary but its v weird obviously not people in costumes... she takes me to some kind of studio... and i can tell ellen likes hanging out with me i guess because i dont treat her like a celebrity and goof around... but there is food everywhere like little crumpets and i really want to eat all the food and im going to ask but then i realize of course all this food is laid out for ellen and free and i can eat it but then im too embarassed to ask about the food and too scared to eat it so i cant eat the food even though i want to ...

and i kind of get hung up on this

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go into nick z and jessicas house, its the top floor on a stand alone little grey house with long narrow hallways i go up wood stairs in the back and come in off a small porch and its dark but like its not night and kind of warm and seems like no one is there but then i see nick and jessica both come in and they are nice and i wonder why im in there house 

3/6/17

i am at some high school reunion & scott kitchen is trying to hit on me or something , there is some kind of weird connection. then, even weirder i am seriously thinking of hooking up with jason tedeschi , when i wake up i realize who i was naming jason tedeschi in my dream was actually kyle laffin.

it makes more sense?


i am walking around a high school/ middle school school ground, gravel parking lot in the dark and finding lots of great rusted metal pieces. i have all this stuff in my car (even more than real life) and even more stuff i have to take care of throw out or take somewhere.

it is overwhelming

i am going to china. rachael hayes is there and her sister just left. there is a big apartment we get to stay in when we go to china, and we get to go there when we go on trips across the world. i guess i am going to europe, maybe paris. but i have to go to china first, like a layover, only we stay there at this apartment there.

i am in boston or new york and moving around and trying to collect all my things together. like i am in the emf building or a hotel and left all my things in different rooms and i need different things for different parts of the journey i'm about to go on and i'm trying to gather them up.

i have a little gold box that is a very important thing that i will need in china or europe but have to hide in my suitcase for part of the journey.

i get to china and i am in a car with someone, a guy i know but don't recognize and we are driving around this big square restaurant with big glass windows and rachael hayes is sitting in the restaurant and i can see her through the window and i am coming to meet her so this is good.

in some kind of mall...or fairground...

driving around in a car with antonia...bright sun...looking at a big stack of junk and bricks and debris...bright colors on a brick wall...like graffitti...

I have got some kind of touror show together and I pick up travis in my car (and maybe we are driving to New Orleans) he doesn't know anything about what we're doing and acts dumb to everything. We stop by my parents hous and my mom comes out in the driveway, she's telling me she doesn't want me Togo she says "I never said I wanted you going to fall river." 

night before last

night before last- i saw sara silk on the street in boston and went with her somewhere and was running into people i knew and we both knew, i was at some kind of art warehouse type thing that i think we were in control of, antonia there, other people, i think we were having some kind of event.

last night frankas dreamed we were being chased around by a corrupt cop and lawyer, inside, outside, and they were shooting at us. it culminated at a liquor store we must have gone in and the cop and lawyer showed up and then frankas woke up. we did not get shot. before that he dreamt we were moving carly's furniture and there were all these bed bugs that came out and he was trying to kill the bed bugs.

December 11th 2015

Francesca Antonia

A big warehouse type space where everyone from emf and beyond is there doing something

Perez Ricardo wants to know why I'm nice to him and why I treat him he way I do- I hear him talking to me from behind and I know he is pushing a shopping cart

Terence is here too there is some kind of comedy fight going on, someone has changed the tile in one of the big rooms of the wArehouse and I notice

Dave trees art is there

I have a car and Francesca villa comes in during the comedy fight and dissolves it somehow she gets in my car and I am giving her a ride before that she is sitting next to me and I ask her if she went to Antonia's wine party and she said no in her way it was ok she was watching some kangaroo show which I somehow know is a cartoon

We get in the car and i tell her it's ok even if she doubts me I feel I will prove myself to her eventually and am going to tell her about being the third and oldest villa to my surprise but see maybe she is about to cry and then she gets out of the car

Someone takes my car and iam looking around for it and upset, something has changed once the warehouse is outside

Before this I go to Sara silk and Lisa barons apartment and have a glass of wine and they are doing something there having some kind of party or something very glad I came and interested in me but the party is wrapping up too and I leave

When I lose the car I also lose a motorcycle I had somehow and iam walking around the outside warehouse area and I hear jonand kaz and people and then I see Jon and some people I the hallway and give him a long hug, I don't know what they are doing,no kaz, then I walk outside and I see kaz by the side of a building

I am looking out a window in a car driving and I see two Buffaloes in a field starting to get into a fight and I alert the car maybe frankas driving? But he is not there after to the buffalo and they're tout and run down the street after us and at the next house there is a at and the Buffalos cause the cat to start running and it seems like a new animal comes out and starts running at every house/ farmhouse we pass in the car,

We end up at a modern Adobe looking one floor house that I guess is the kardashians house, the Buffalos are outside the door and I am looking to see what they are like, if they are friendly and they seem interested in people, I let them in or the door gets open and they get in the house and they are very docile around people,

The woman who owns them a squat Hawaiian looking woman comes over and lingers maybe because it is the kardashians and she is

 Looking togetsomething from them or sell them the Buffalos but then she is walking them back down the street with halters and leashes on them walking them back toward her house

I see Bruce Jenner and kris Jenner and there is a different apartment that seems tobe the kardashians they aren't talking to me directly but they look at me, one of them is grinding salt onto a cutting board

In a different scene I am with Sara silk and her friend Lisa and maybe some others, we are outside a chain link fence by an area of long fields and Sara silk is hanging off the fence and chewing a water bottle and thinking of a skit or doing a skit

Then I am on a talk show with Conan I think watching Kanye west and Kim kardashian talking to Conan telling him this interview is going to net 21million dollars or more and that he should go to this website after the show because it is supposed to net21 million dollars and she is very authoritative and excited about this facts if she is really telling Conan to dothis and expecting him to which is strange I am thinking she must want other people to go tithe site but the ,delivery is a good kind of tactic for getting people to look at it because she's being so serious about it whatever it is

Frankas had dreamed he was with his cousin who looks like Ray going to a wedding and he had To go into an unlocked house to change and he goes into the bathroom and is changing in the bathroom and the shower is spraying all over him as he gets dressed

I run into some people from high school in downtown Boston and end up getting in a car with Jason tedeschi and Corinne perry, like we are going to a club or something but we end up going to an event like a rich house living room or an event place all windows and white carpeting and it is Andrew ? Bachelor party, Erin fitzgibbons is there all people from high school mostly my grade, we walk in and there are all these different superhero themed pins on the table you can take and pens and pencils with mini troll dolls on the eraser heads, I am taking stuff but semi aware I don't think I was invited to the party, then I realize no one who was invited is really friends with Andrew. My father is there and Andrews mom comes out from behind the crowd over by a row of windows and says someone was sent to pick up Erik and my father almost says something and we are thinking it must be my brother and is my brother supposed to be Andrews best friend? Scooter boi is on a couch behind me sitting next to Michelle Granara and saying something stupid and she is like do you know anybody here? Andrew when I glimpse him looks like an Arab man with dark circles under his eyes. There is a big log in the middle of the room with ropes on either side and Hilary duff is there and has a lisp and wants to start the rope log going, Michelle Granara and scooter and another person all get on the rope log and other people lift it in the air and Michelle Granara is complaining that her parents are holding either side of the rope log and it isn't any fun cause they're holding it too steady. 

Then the dream fast forwards and I realize it is a movie, it must be following Hillary duffs character because it fast forwards to her in a bathtub with a guy and she has a lisp and the guy is saying how she does things like a man has sex like a man and for some reason she turns into a black girl and then there are people still on the sidelines watching because someone maybe scooter yells out ' like a guinea pig ' and scooter says o yah like in Apollo 13 so there must be some guinea pig joke that is a reference to Apollo 13

Like we are making/ watching the movie that is the dream

Frankas dreamt he was fighting people in his fathers living room but trying to mix a song at the same time and trying to convince the person he is fighting to help him mix the song.

It is Arbor Day... On some kind of long vacation with my mom and relatives and she doesn't want to buy me food, we are in a car ordering food...she ends up getting angry at me...

Marc Maron is sending me sheets of paper like a fax but it seems like we are sitting in the same room together, the sheets are self portraits of Marc Maron all roughly the same

*watching bill hicks standup special and he says "snickers"! And frankezoid remembers he had a snickers in his dream he was buying all sorts of food at the store but he stole the snickers

I have my moms car or a car, it feels like summer. I drive to the grocery store on the way somewhere else and when I go in I realize the grocery store is in Canada and I know they are going to check my bag. Maybe the grocery store is in a mall but the parking lot is bright and sunny and open and the area all around is beautiful and full of nature. Maybe I am trying to buy fish? I become aware I have some nips in my bag and pot but once you go in the store u can't leave without them checking your bags and I know this. They ask me to go have my bag checked as I'm leaving and the guy tells me to give me the pot he knows I have and I give him my grinder with the buts of glass glued on top. He asks what it is and I tell him it's the marajuana and he looks in it and there is pot in there so he's happy with it. I have more pot in my bag and have given him the grinder instead of the other pot which is the prerogative in the dream I guess (to keep the pot) (bc I don't know where I am?)  I am glad it was a dream decision// Lindsay is around somewhere, maybe there are animals

Dreamed there is a new system where you have to press 2 after the area code when making a call (781) 2- some woman chuckling at me for not realizing this when I am trying to make a call

I am supposed to perform for something at out of the blue. It seems in a different place, like an outdoor library, and a different town. I feel unready to perform and don't remember performing. Will is there somehow. And Tom is there but different. Maybe it's supposed to be New York. Someone pulls me out of trying to help out inside the out of the blue I think? And tells me about knowing when to leave a place and how I should have left already, telling me how to conduct myself and move art-- it is mostly about being direct and getting out quick. When he pulls me out ( almost seems like Vince but not totally) he brings me over to his car by the side of the road and it's the car and the sidewalk here that makes it seem like New York in my dreams (how New York is in my dreams which is different than it is in real life) -Toms thing , maybe caroline Sullivan is there too, something seems townie about it, but also like a poetry gathering and maybe people are coming to see me, and maybe will is there. 

I am on some kind of journey, traveling through the city. Hard to say if its Boston. Like I'm getting picked up in a car. I am living in a house somewhere. Kind of like there is a community of people around me and I'm doing something for the community in running around or housing them. Then I am out on the yard and Rob Potylo is there and we are next to each other on the grass and there is something like a small dog or something- there is something like a baby and the baby is on the grass in between us and rob and my foreheads come together over it and we're looking in each other's eyes. I feel like home again in the dream and want to take him inside and feel like I can stop running.

the night before last night, next to rob potylo

Rob Potylo and I are in a car, I am driving. Its late at night kind of like we are coming back from a trip like rob and I's trip to Austin. We come up to this bridge and its bright blue, as if plastic coated in bright blue. I watch as the blue part of the bridge comes off like a weird scraping slithering thing that leaves the under structure of the bridge intact but to the right over the edge of the bridge the part of the bridge that has come off like a skin is laying over the side rails, a blue ladder of plastic/metal like for a tree house. Rob doesn't notice somehow and I tell him to look. I don't know whether to drive or not, other cars seems to be going through but you can't see what happens to them. The blue overcoat of the bridge suddenly slithers back over the bridge structure and we go forward.

End up in a small downtown area like china town and people i know in boston are milling around. I see these lego men with flat pin sized tops instead of heads and scoop them up off the sidewalk, plus a coffee grinder kind of kitchy magnet. Then Vic from Audio Pro comes up behind me and hands me a flyer and says they are having a sale. I guess he works at the place behind me where I think the magnet and legos have come from. Ethan Marsh is across the street and has green hair and I say something to him and he comes over and starts doing lines from some "funny" broad comedy, popular in recent history. 

I am trying to get someone to go to New York with me. I am living in Norwell with my parents it seems like but I have the mini-van. I get Monica to say she is going with me but then something happens and she gets weird about it or she won't come for some reason...maybe something to do with pot. Lindsay is around at some point too but she can't go to New York...

I think I end up taking a bus and I show up in New York and its different, its that weird street that is kind of like the NYU dining halls, a combo of that and the weird stretch between Harvard square and central where they6 have the restaurants you can see through the windows and kind of look like a strip mall and there's the weird square type cement step thing behind it. Its night when I get there and I go up or down an escalator.
I turn up and walk out through a series of parking garages and end up in a mall. I am carrying things with me, something heavy.

I find Jonathan and we leave and are walking I think but it feels like a car. We are talking and I am worried about him and happy to be in New York. I ask him who his best friend is and he can't answer. He says he goes over Tyler's often and makes a remark about his apartment and how gaudy it is, as if it is all gold-plated but very small (reminds me of the discussion on Psy and the subtext of Gangam style). We are in his apartment, it doesn't feel like New York. I drop my bags there.

I am riding in the back seat of a car with Sarah Lyle, unsure where we're going but we've missed something then realize we are both hungry then realize Uncle Gene is driving the car and little Ken is in the passenger seat and we are driving to a bar where my father is going to meet us. Ken is talking about how he is going to get sauced with my father. On the way there we look out the windows and its all country side. I see what looks like a black and white pig on a leash.

Before this I am trying to meet Rob Potylo and I talk to him on the phone about meeting at his house. I go to his house and its all people that Rachael knows and they all don't talk to me and act like they hate me and don't want me to smoke their pot and Justin #1 is there and I try to get Rachael to come over and help me. I am nervous to meet  Rob and looking for him in the dream, knowing its a dream and he might look different but I don't see him or feel him in there, that I remember.

First it was Thanksgiving or some kind of family get together time; Uncle kenny was there and Aunt Kathy I think and my mom and Dad. We had a manatee that started out like a sponge grow-a-manatee toy if there were a real live version. We put it in the bath tub and it got to big or all the water drained or the manatee soaked up all the water. I was walking around carrying the manatee until I think we found a bigger tub, more like a pool. There was a brief scene where I saw a larger manatee jump out of the water and hit a fence and had to be handled by my Uncle and other people- I don't think this was the same manatee, more like a flashback of another manatee incident.

Then I was driving with my mother and I left my bag or something in a parking lot near where we got on the highway and I had to keep driving back and forth on the highway to find the spot where I'd pulled over and left something. I was feeling heavy and tired and fat. Either I was eating a jar of peanut butter the whole time or that swas what I was looking for. We stopped into this toy store/ convenience store and were looking at these stickers that were supposed to be babysitters and they all said Janet on them. Then we found the spot and my mom said oh, i knew where that was the whole time.

I am driving around with Lindsay. First she comes over to my parents house and I'm not sure what I'm doing there but I feel like I'm supposed to be leaving. We get high. We get in the car and get high. Maybe before that I remember being in the backyard. Some kind of thing is going on in Norwell it seems like. Me and Lindsay leave and we are driving around high and I think maybe we are trying to go to New York. I think we end up driving through New York but its not much like New York and more like the weird dream New York I've seen before in Dreams. I get some kind of flat tire. I'm driving and its a small car. We get lost and we decide to go around this loop ramp instead of taking the other lane which seems like it just keeps going. Neither way has a sign saying anything. I go around the loop ramp and get a flat tire and it just melts on the car like a cartoon flat tire. We end up stopping and going downstairs into a basement which looks like the basement of the two girls I used to babysit with Taylor Cleaves on Mt. Blue street. We go in there and then Scott Kitchen comes down the stairs and we are surprised to see him and he's surprised to see us but it makes sense as if we all know what we're doing there. Lindsay has to get home and I think our high is starting to wear off.

I also dreamed about Edna getting outside and just roaming around but not really going anywhere.