coriander and i are getting ready to go to new york. it happens very quickly. i dont have time to pack anything. and i forget my coat. i am worried it might be too cold but i just have a bunch of random stuff with me and not enough time to go through it. we are standing on the platform waiting for the train to new york. matt from dead trains is there. i guess we have some show opportunity last minute and are leaving for that. i am worried i left my coat and my pills in my coat and i dont know how long we are going to new york.

a train whistles like its coming in. coriander starts running and i follow her. we run up to another platform where we are going to catch the train and she runs on the train and i am running behind her but just as she gets on the train the door closes and the train leaves.

i am devastated. i dont know what to do. i have a phone but no one calls me.

i go up to the box office ticket window and the guy inside is mexican and seems like he doesn't speak. i ask him when the next train to new york comes and he holds up 7 fingers and i start to cry. he is smiling and then shakes his head like he is just kidding and holds up 2 fingers.

i keep waiting for the next train to come in a panic and feeling anxious.

With frankas and he is drunk and he gets arrested or I get arrested but we get out of it- I think I get arrested and then get away during it because it's a casual arrest and I leave during it and a wondering if it isn't better to just stay on the lamb- frankas is running around and drunk and I lose him somewhere, we are inside and outside of this big house that reminds me of glen and cindy's cookout- we make croissants with chocolate inside and they are very good me and frankas make them but then I lose him he runs off and I am in the house- somehow I know where he's gone and I go running through the town, it has just snowed and the snow is on the ground but very dry and it's warm out and I go running through the town with just my fathers running socks on and feeling good and warm and it's good running on the snow, I make it to the house and there's someone just coming into the house and I ask him if he lives there and can he let me in and he does and we open the door and frankas is inside with a bunch of people that I seem to know and they are having fun I think I tell them how I got arrested then we are all in a big basement type room and Karen is there and frankas is trying to kiss Karen in front of me but she won't let him but she's flirting with him and I am just thinking how terrible this is but i won't care

I am on some kind of journey, traveling through the city. Hard to say if its Boston. Like I'm getting picked up in a car. I am living in a house somewhere. Kind of like there is a community of people around me and I'm doing something for the community in running around or housing them. Then I am out on the yard and Rob Potylo is there and we are next to each other on the grass and there is something like a small dog or something- there is something like a baby and the baby is on the grass in between us and rob and my foreheads come together over it and we're looking in each other's eyes. I feel like home again in the dream and want to take him inside and feel like I can stop running.

dream digression- 11- 24- 09

i am with two girls, maria thinks they are cool girls, but i think they are prats-- it is like we are going to prom but we are going to a wedding- i am wearing a huge wedding dress and when i get there everyone is wearing a wedding dress, i immediately get ushered into a swarm of brides and we are going to run a marathon first, i run the marathon and break the tape and a man tells me i won, i won the whole thing and i keep asking him - really- and finally he says no, but you did ok, you can go again