matt stearns talking to me through a line... asking me to go to the beach,,, to go to copley square and go to the beach there (somehow) and then im saying no and yelling at him and hes saying we could just walk on the beach somewhere else where its raining and i am saying no and yelling but coriander is there somehow and we are listening to it like its on a radio show...

its thanksgiving and brandon and christopher and wendy are there and all the animals (edna chloe lightly gilbie) and i guess i make a cage for gilbie outside in the old rabbit cages and then days pass and it rains, some time goes by and we dont know where gilbie is and i go outside and the rabbit cage cage i made for him is filled with mud and all wet and there are people out there i dont know doing something else too and gilbie is all wet with mud in the corner of the enclosure

and i pull him out and have a dread hes going to be dead but his eyes are big and blue and hes still alive and hes ok and i bring him inside and he dries off right away and starts running around and i notice him and the cats are the same size (more hamster size than cat size) and chloe is running after them and they are all playing in erik's room

IN SOME kind of empty luxury apartment... waiting under unclear circumstances... waiting for go lightly for something, or for the animals to come...

lisa rinna's daughter delilah is there or whoever it is looks just like her

there is a palm tree in a big planter

my mom is there and she is leaving 

in some kind of weird babe-like story with my family and my brother...living on this farm or on this farm visiting...and our grandfather comes down to the lake-pond in the back of the farm and he is naked and he bathes there and somehow i see this in pictures that perhaps my brother took...

then we are with my grandmother on a porch and she was going to take us away somewhere...it turns out she ties animals and people to the front of her house to make some kind of point...

it also turns out her mother died (maybe somewhat like howard stern's mother because i was listening to howard stern latenight) and we are not sure if she is sorry that her mother died...

i keep trying to figure out the story and it seems familiar like babe or something so i'm also kind of trying to figure out which fairytale type thing we are in and i'm getting confused and frustrated...

i go into a room with an older man i dont really recognize who i guess i was in some kind of relationship with ( i a aware of frankas somewhere and this is not frankas) and he tells me that woman at the party when we first got to the farm (which i remember again in pictures) was his wife

and he tells me we can't see each other anymore and i am pretty ok with it (although he doesnt notice) and then we go for a drive

amy shumer is in town and she has been texting me... things like pictures of her with a thought bubble coming out of her head and some of my birds in the thought bubble...

i realize and text her back and talk to her about going to the middle east. i realize we were supposed to go together last week but i didn't show up.

i meet up with her and bring her into a room where frankas and someone else is and introduce her. then we are at some kind of comedy club kind of backstage and i find tyrone there and someone else, a girl, maybe sam j.

i am thinking of what jokes i am going to do and trying to think of a joke to do for amy, kind of about amy...i am thinking i will do elmo and the tiniest hand job and i can't think of what to do next. i realize she really wants to go to the middle east though and its reassuring but i want to do well. i remember her saying she bombed a lot and try to think of something genuine i could just try out.

in another part of the dream i am in some kind of math class and in the math class we are making a water ecosystem in a dark room. there is a big tank of water with plant life growing all around it in the center of the room and you can walk all the way around the tank.

there are eels and fish and little miniature dolphins in the tank. i pick up one of the dolphins out of the water and it turns into one of those sponge grow-a-sponge things that gets bigger when you put it in the water. but when it is in the water it is a real miniature dolphin and it swims around.

i realize they make this whole ecosystem for the math class every semester and i start wondering what they do with all ther animals and everything after each semester.

Two nights ago

Right before I wake up I am hanging out with Adam Jacobs and his girlfriend he is getting married to maybe they are having a party for their engagement or something but they are having this huge party and the girl he is marrying is like Colleen Colbert and she is really nice and fun and I am having a great time with them and all their friends, there are animals at the party and maybe drag queens and also a big wood stage

When I wake up in real life Tyrone has just told me night before we can no longer be friends and I receive a text message from Amanda telling me she is never going to talk to me again

C'est last vie mon ami

recap night of 4/18/2015

dreamed of going to do a show of white stripes covers in a small space about the size of the lilypad, jack white and meg white are there but i dont see them and they are playing my music. first i hear the dead leaves and the dirty ground cover and somehow i know all this, but its like a show im supposed to be performing at but actually they are just playing my music and then jack and meg white are really going to perform but i dont see them even though i know they are there.

i am at my parents house and go with frankazoid to his mother's house which is up on a cliff with a green lush hill plateaus where the house is and the driveway and we are sleeping i guess outside overlooking the backyard, off the cliff in the back is my parents house which we can see clearly, in the dream it is an epiphane that frankazoid's moms house is right here in view of my parents house (i wonder what the non-reality implications of this dream-reality observation are?) we are lying there (and maybe there is a clothesline out the window) and all of a sudden some kind of dugong comes to life in the water below the cliff anbd then other exotic animals loike safari jungle animals, all coming to life and we realize they are all around us, not scary at all, just suprising and wonderful

i am on some kind of vacation with my family. we keep ending up in new places. i have a lot of animals with me or keep receiving animals. i think there is a point where there are a ton of cats or kittens, sort of like that resvervation thing katharine pelzer sent me. I think Erik is there but maybe he is younger or just seems to be younger or is in a better mood than usual. i don't remember anyone being really angry or upset or any of the animals being dead or dying which is rare.