11/27/2017

Going to Germany with maria martin and Danielle brutto…

First I am looking at maria’s facebook page and it has a long paragraph written and then some of her ‘long shot’ photos…my name is tagged in the long paragraph description… it is something about how she once thought she was going to be a photographer or pursue photography but isn’t anymore…

We end up going on this trip to Germany and my mother is there and Danielle brutto also comes with us… there is something like mcdonalds everywhere…we go to the first hostel we see and it is actually a school and it is something like $3 a night to stay there and all the food is free

We decide we will stay here one night and then go somewhere else

There is a big cafeteria and many common rooms.

When we leave we are on this odd train that zips around , brings us somewhere to get a ‘sandwich in a bag’ for $1… I am asking what is in the sandwich to make sure it isn’t meat…

Turns out the main thing in the sandwich is buttered pecans

The second hostel isn’t as good and we can’t find a hostel like the first one… the train takes us from the first hostel to the buttered pecan sandwiches and back 

i am going to china. rachael hayes is there and her sister just left. there is a big apartment we get to stay in when we go to china, and we get to go there when we go on trips across the world. i guess i am going to europe, maybe paris. but i have to go to china first, like a layover, only we stay there at this apartment there.

i am in boston or new york and moving around and trying to collect all my things together. like i am in the emf building or a hotel and left all my things in different rooms and i need different things for different parts of the journey i'm about to go on and i'm trying to gather them up.

i have a little gold box that is a very important thing that i will need in china or europe but have to hide in my suitcase for part of the journey.

i get to china and i am in a car with someone, a guy i know but don't recognize and we are driving around this big square restaurant with big glass windows and rachael hayes is sitting in the restaurant and i can see her through the window and i am coming to meet her so this is good.

Frankaz saying we are going somewhere, rock port? Redford? Something with a ford or a rock or a bed in it...we are in his room and I dream he says we are leaving and maybe we are going for two days

was with Kaz at a bar someplace else (southern?) if it doesnt connect to the dream before it / foreign if it does...

before it seems like we all got here on some group destination and i believe we took a boat, lindsay is there, and everyone is talking about what time the liquor store closes and i guess its early....

i am vaguely worrying about money and wondering if i still have a nip half full of whiskey in my pocket

we are at the bar and going to set up.. i guess we are coming here to play? that is when Kaz is here and it seems more southern... he takes a coca cola and whiskey from the bar and we split it...\

then everyone has to pay and there is some confusion and kaz is telling the waitress what he took from the bar like he knows the place already

other people are uptight and he tells them how we'll all pay for each other

i am glad he is there

he sees how people around me are questioning everything i do (this description may be a bit of a waking projection) and starts asking me about how im living/working with them

it seems to be about music

I am in Charleston with Rob and I came there a time before just for the night out of nowhere. I know because I can see pictures of myself or see myself like I would a picture, wearing a big fur coat.

Maria has taken pictures somewhere downtown in "historical" Charleston, dressed like a pilgrim with a blue dress and a bonnet on. Some are just her and then some others I am there in the background in sunglasses and my fur coat. I think I look like Elvis.

I don't know where Rob is. I am wandering around houses. I think I know there  is something going on with Maria.

i am on some kind of vacation with my family. we keep ending up in new places. i have a lot of animals with me or keep receiving animals. i think there is a point where there are a ton of cats or kittens, sort of like that resvervation thing katharine pelzer sent me. I think Erik is there but maybe he is younger or just seems to be younger or is in a better mood than usual. i don't remember anyone being really angry or upset or any of the animals being dead or dying which is rare.

we are trying to go somehwere and i am riding around with different people. we keep stopping to go into stores because we need to buy things and i keep worrying i don't have enough money. but for some reason i keep buying different kinds of prepared bagels like i keep forgetting i've already bought other bagels and i have a bunch of half eaten bagels in my purse. the dream ends suddenly but i forget why, i think i eventually figured out i was dreaming because the bagel thing was getting ridiculous.

for some reason we are going on a journey overseas, even though it feels as if we have just taken an overseas journey to get to the place at which this journey begins. in order to travel, everyone on the trip must wrap themselves up in a huge blanket which is their personal boat. i think i get mine wet when i am not supposed to. it is late at night and dark and cold. danielle is on the trip and carries her boat next to mine. she is acting sort of strange and nervous and then she says i hate having my period and i know its because she has her period. i don't remember vey much about the trip other than it was very dark and cold and i don't think we were doing things the right way.

we are in italy on the writing trip and we each have a murder mystery to solve but i'm not sure if its real or an excersize. we each have a set of suspects and victims from which to research and resolve the situation. i haven't done mine or have done it wrong. i don't really understand it. ed is sitting next to me on a plane or something and i'm pretending to sleep/ am sleeping and he touches my legs. then he is carrying me around by the legs and i am resting my hands on his shoulders. someone says that only the people who did the project right are getting called to read them or are having theirs read or something.

night before last: pat and ricks house

i dream i am at ricks's parents house and my whole family is there. we have all come to see someone who is related to us in a play that they are in. not everyone can go it turns out. the house is huge and wierd. mary merrit is making a pasta salad and the first one she makes gets ash in it so she has to throw it out and make another one. i am in the kitchen and i accidentally drop a small blue bowl into the garbage disposal which is more like a wood chipper. i try to act like nothing happened but accidentally knock a girl who is holding the second pasta salad and she dumps the whole bowl over into the wood chipper and it disintegrates. it is sort of funy. then when i am in the living room i go to pull down a dvd from the ceiling and all the entertainment center stuff pulls down from the ceiling all around the room. i guess you are supposed to use a remote control to take down one thing at a time. ricks's dad comes in and fixes it. we decide we are going to leave instead of stayong for the play. it seems like no one really cares about the play. i'm not sure who was in it but it seemed like a distant cousin.

we are traveling italy by sea. we are somewhere and ancona is far away but no ships go there and you can only go by swimming. i am with another girl around my age and we are swimming. we start swimming toward acona in the middle of the night and i do not want to go. i would rather go during the day but we cant turn around. i think there is a shark. there is some kind of animal with a large fin rising out of the water. we also see dolphins.

dream digression october\november 2009

(nane is dying) first i am on a trip with kennedy, we go to a shack in the woods where some girls who used to be her friends are, they expect her to have drugs but she doesnt, they are all fucked up and mean to us, we decide to leave and i say i will drive, we drive away and it is beautiful, the landscape keeps changing, it is a long drive