listening to a song by britney spears during her conservatorship, it sounds different , her voice sounds good,

its fall

at my parents house but its a big old dark colonial type house and i go into a little room to play some kind of music and somebody starts putting the window down from the outside and its maggie clune and she says hey jessie and i say hey 

and  i walk outside and we walk over to her house and she has this big dapple grey horse and he comes running up to us acting like  a puppy and i ask her if she rides him and she says she does and i want to ride him so bad and i ask if hes a girl

and her dad is out there and says no hes a gelding and thyen lets two little ponies out of a gate and they are two tiny little white ponies 

i love this horse and want to ride him so bad and want a horse so bad 

I was on a us being driven or at least a field trip being 

Edybytom tiptonand the bus was going all throughout wilderness I was thinking about zaza and living in New Hampshire 

I had been told where we were going to a farm somewhere

Maybe of the blue was moving to a farm, I was told we would be able to ride the horses there

I was looking out the window and seeing all these wild animals coming outofthewoods 

(Frankas said I was laughing in my sleep)

We got to where the farm was and I could seethe horses and they were very short and stocky like ponies almost but I was hopeful they were short horses not ponies

They had long long white manes that hung in their eyes and over their bodies and did not look like horses that were being ridden, I was afraid we couldn't ride them

Palomino color a dark tan 

It turned out we were in New Hampshire and maybe at aunt Flossie's house my mother was there

Atone point in the garage like the garage at my parents house and something happened with Melanie on the phone and I got very upset with her and stormed in the house and was very angry

Right before I woke up I was withher in what seemed like the rugged bear but was supposed to became somewhere where we had stopped and there were bathing suits for$10 and she was having me pick one out and I was grabbing quite a few and then regretting it because I didn't want to have to try them on

Before that at aunt Flossie's but whichwSmore like my parents housei was upstairs in my brothers room with this dark haired guy, handsome, he Put on a black wig and looked very goodie it I was admiring him,he seemed like some kind of comedian

Then he took the wig off and was standing on the right side of the bed by the window in front of the mirror and he suddenly became Asian but like he had always looked that way and then I noticed that his head was shaped like a camera, an old time camera with different boxes coming one out of the other,

That's what his head was shaped like

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Frankas dreamed he went to work in a building somewhere and John Cremona was there working and there was a supervisor and the supervisor was also john Cremona and frankas wanted to say something about how he heard he nada show coming up but there wasn't't enough time

And then he realized he was in the ghetto and was scared and also it was late at nightand no one else was in the building

And then he had to leave on a bicycle and something which was very hard to navigate on the bicycle

Went to see Gina for a riding lesson after everything was going wrong in dreamworld, she was showing me her canter on a horse that looked like mike and I was on a horse like the big rolls Royce horse or Mac cantering behind her and she had had a rough time or something but was doing really well and there were all these people there and more people coming in while I was there. Another horse and a bunch of small dogs came through during my lesson and made me think what a skill she had with animals and people and a genius for allowing them to communicate. There was one dog that sounded like a gerbil but looked like a small white poodle. I got off the horse bc of the people with the dogs and another horse that had blue fur and looked more like a cartoon horse than a real horse but was a real horse... I said it looked like a manatee. Gina said she got it from somebody who sold/worked with dolphins...we were more like in a building then and I started worrying about how I was gonna pay her, I decided to ask if I could mail her a check but I didn't have a pen or anything. I looked down and there were pens in the gravel do I picked I be up. All these people were coming through and I asked her if they were here for her...we got outside and there was some kind of gatekeeper like woman there like she ran some aspect of this town...almost like a gypsy gut this is afte the door opens and the world changes a bit...Gina goes over to the gypsy woman and sits down on her feet in the little caged area with her like they are friends or used to being in this place together and Gina is being silly....she seems like Natasha Leon in Orange is the new black for a moment. I wake up.