GO TO THIS RANDOM building that thre's a group art show at and I have apiece of art there and forgot we put the art up there over a year ago... ricky antonellis has something to do with the place but hes not threre and i cant find out about him.... dave tree supposed to be involved also but hes also not there....

dave tree ends up coming the next day and saying he forgot.... the building is almost like the south shore science center...

next to the building is a horse place with a riding ring like a track with metal fences seperating the track from the middle part and in the middle there are buffalos running around (at first we think they are gorillas)

they do some kind of theatrical show with the horses and people in costumes and the buffalos... i am talking to the woman who runs thinks... wanting to ride a horse

everybody is standing out by the side of the road for some reason


then i go to huntersbrook stables and walk into the pastures and lay on the back of one horse and am stroking another white horse

singing some kind of song

no one is around but wjen i get off and start walking up toward the house i see gina coming down from her house out to the barn

and she is excited and happy to see me and tells me how she used to write songs that way with the horses (and im thinking of how i didnt realize gina wrote songs and then i rationalize oh she has to write songs for the horse shows)

and theres all these children around and gina is saying to come here how shes doing so much fun stuff (and i want to ask about being an exercise rider and i want to ask where is dj) and shes sayin g how she was going to have wine with lunch but couldnt find a bottle open er...

and then she is tsalkin g to some children and a little boy with a brown unicorn figurine comes up to me and shows me the unicorn and we talk about whether it is a unicorn or not and i figure that it is and he tells me about 'my traveling horse adventures' which is some kind of series i guess

and gina is talking to other kids so i dont ask her my questions .

11/24/2017

go to ginas to ride horse, or some other place actually... somewhere where i've been told there is a very large indoor arena...or i find this out.... it is somewhere up on a hill where people have been telling me they are going with someone to ride horses, there is some friend with horses there. margot littlehale is coming down from the hill and saying i can go there maybe. when i go there is a large indoor arena and more than one horse but it is also maybe ginas. there are several of us riding horses.

after the horses or this turns into a rich girls  chateua-like apartment / club consisting of herself and some other girls and then she also has a boyfriend. the boyfriend reminds me of travis friend john from brooklyn. maybe the chateau is like his condo in brooklyn.

i am standing next to travis and looking at him and he turns into or looks like scottkitchen. i am questioning who he is and how i really know him.

something is going on between the club of girls and the boyfriend and the chateau apartment. i'm really not sure how i got involved at all, but i feel like the boyfriend is maybe my friend. i don't know any of the girls very well. but i end up sitting with them at a fancy table and now maybe this is somewhere else.

maybe this is like an art gallery, a very large one, something like an art museum the size and scope of an aquarium. and there is something about us going into business or being able to put on some kind of  big lavish events here, i'm not sure. i am sitting at the table thinking how strange and lucky it is i've gotten involved in this girls club with all this money and all this power from trying to ride a stranger friends horse... they are also somehow involved in the fashion world. they seem interested in me and im not totally sure why.

at some point i am outside the house i think with the boyfriend at night and he is slightly drunk or locked out or looking for cigarettes. i feel as if some secret information might be revealed. maybe only that there is some sense of dischord.

i am with someone then maybe supposed to be like my boyfriend but who in my  mind now looks like dave from  the firehouse , we are involved somehow and we have this baby bull dog puppy and we are walking down these sidewalks that are in between grassy areas, away from any streets (this is also the type of area i was with the boyfriend from the chateau outside before)

there is some kind of argument maybe over what to feed the dog. i am holding it in my arms and it is so lazy on its back like a puddle and so cute. there is some kind of mexican restaurant, and this barely makes sense, but there is some kind of mexican lace like we could go to eat there but instead dave opens bags of chips and salsa pours onto the sidewalk and there are two other people there then too and we eat the chips and salsa off the sidewalk and this way it is free for some reason.

January 28th and 30th

It's thanksgiving, weird thanksgiving in the woods somewhere, kind of like the table in hook with rufio and the lost boys. I have a horse that acts more like a dog. He is at the table. I feed him by hand. I have a trailer and the trailer is like a hangout and people can hang out in the trailer. Scooter boi is there. It is like a family gathering.

It changes from friend-family to my extended real family and the table and festivities are up in a tree house platform type of thing. Brandon and Christopher and Wendy and uncle Kenny are there. All the food is on one table and then the dining table is up on a raised platform in the tree.  I show up.

Will is there or not quite there and I am looking for him. I see him and he has a shaved head but it's like he can't see me. I go over to his house which is like his house but a tree house and there Is a little Christmas tree he made or something on the table which I recognize so I know it is his house. And his whole family is there for the holidays.

I am out in a muddy field then looking for a horse. Frankas is there and maybe scooter boi also. There is a horse. We find a golden retriever in the muck all covered in muck and maybe missing a leg. It looks like a muck monster. There must be some kind of muck storm going on thAt has covered up everything. In muck. It seems like the golden retriever would have died if we didn't find it.

Two days ago;

I am somewhere like a salon or some thing working for my mother and some other people and I leave to go get coffee and a few things for them--

I walk along a woodsy trail (kind of like walking through north Hampton when we went to happy jawbones house) and find a little River area and notice a baby manatee is sitting like a rock on the bank cause when he sees me he sinks back into the river.

I go to the edge of the bank and look for more animals. I start making a high pitched 'woot woot  whoop' noise at the wTers edge and dolphins and seals and manatees start to come up one by one and touch my hand with their noses and get pry and look happy and go back into the water. Then I hear something behind me. A gruff voice. I look behind me and there is a big black dog and then, for an instant - many big black dogs. Two dogs at each of my shoulders speak to me in a gruff voice and tell me not to call to the manatees or touch them. That they are diseased animals. I look back and I see the owner of the two dogs is talking to me through the dogs and it isn't really the dogs talking. I scold him for doing is to me and trying to scare me.

I was on a us being driven or at least a field trip being 

Edybytom tiptonand the bus was going all throughout wilderness I was thinking about zaza and living in New Hampshire 

I had been told where we were going to a farm somewhere

Maybe of the blue was moving to a farm, I was told we would be able to ride the horses there

I was looking out the window and seeing all these wild animals coming outofthewoods 

(Frankas said I was laughing in my sleep)

We got to where the farm was and I could seethe horses and they were very short and stocky like ponies almost but I was hopeful they were short horses not ponies

They had long long white manes that hung in their eyes and over their bodies and did not look like horses that were being ridden, I was afraid we couldn't ride them

Palomino color a dark tan 

It turned out we were in New Hampshire and maybe at aunt Flossie's house my mother was there

Atone point in the garage like the garage at my parents house and something happened with Melanie on the phone and I got very upset with her and stormed in the house and was very angry

Right before I woke up I was withher in what seemed like the rugged bear but was supposed to became somewhere where we had stopped and there were bathing suits for$10 and she was having me pick one out and I was grabbing quite a few and then regretting it because I didn't want to have to try them on

Before that at aunt Flossie's but whichwSmore like my parents housei was upstairs in my brothers room with this dark haired guy, handsome, he Put on a black wig and looked very goodie it I was admiring him,he seemed like some kind of comedian

Then he took the wig off and was standing on the right side of the bed by the window in front of the mirror and he suddenly became Asian but like he had always looked that way and then I noticed that his head was shaped like a camera, an old time camera with different boxes coming one out of the other,

That's what his head was shaped like

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Frankas dreamed he went to work in a building somewhere and John Cremona was there working and there was a supervisor and the supervisor was also john Cremona and frankas wanted to say something about how he heard he nada show coming up but there wasn't't enough time

And then he realized he was in the ghetto and was scared and also it was late at nightand no one else was in the building

And then he had to leave on a bicycle and something which was very hard to navigate on the bicycle

I go down to some horse farm in the woods where I can ride or I know the horses and there are fields and pens full of horses but no one there. The horses are grouped together like cattle with barely any room between them. Many horses are lying down.

There is no one there at the farm and I guess I decide not to ride.

Outside the pens there is an animal tied to the ground with a long leash. At first I think the animal is some kind of tiger creature. It is pale beige with the head kind of like a tiger and the body more like a horse. When I go up to it it lowers its back and stretches its body out as if I were to ride it or get on its back. I try almost to get on its back but it starts moving around and I don't. I take it kind of by the leash looking around to see if anyone is there and start walking down the trail that leads out of the woods. I look down and see its jaw closer and see that its jaw is broken and made of rubber plastic tubing kind of like if a car door were broken or some part of a refrigerator was exposed. I notice it has a collar and dog tags around its neck.

I am walking down the trail out of the woods and there are people on the trail. The leash is down under the floorboards of the ground and this is how I've been able to go so far with the animal without taking it off the leash.

I am going back to where I left Frankas, mostly in some ind of sunroom that has a vague reminiscence of the Merrits basement sunroom overlooking their pool in Hanover, but with more light and no pool. Frankas is drunk or in some kind of spell I can remember from before.

I get back to this place (vaguely) with the animal and notice it is mostly a kangaroo and its back is maybe broken and why is it walking this way as a kangaroo? I think maybe its not the same animal as before (in the dream) but the same pale beige yellow color. tiger horse kangaroo. I can see the animal as I first saw it in the field and then again when it changes to mostly kangaroo.

Went to see Gina for a riding lesson after everything was going wrong in dreamworld, she was showing me her canter on a horse that looked like mike and I was on a horse like the big rolls Royce horse or Mac cantering behind her and she had had a rough time or something but was doing really well and there were all these people there and more people coming in while I was there. Another horse and a bunch of small dogs came through during my lesson and made me think what a skill she had with animals and people and a genius for allowing them to communicate. There was one dog that sounded like a gerbil but looked like a small white poodle. I got off the horse bc of the people with the dogs and another horse that had blue fur and looked more like a cartoon horse than a real horse but was a real horse... I said it looked like a manatee. Gina said she got it from somebody who sold/worked with dolphins...we were more like in a building then and I started worrying about how I was gonna pay her, I decided to ask if I could mail her a check but I didn't have a pen or anything. I looked down and there were pens in the gravel do I picked I be up. All these people were coming through and I asked her if they were here for her...we got outside and there was some kind of gatekeeper like woman there like she ran some aspect of this town...almost like a gypsy gut this is afte the door opens and the world changes a bit...Gina goes over to the gypsy woman and sits down on her feet in the little caged area with her like they are friends or used to being in this place together and Gina is being silly....she seems like Natasha Leon in Orange is the new black for a moment. I wake up.

Dreamed I was moving intothis studio space/band space/ clubhouse above EMF, moving into it like a house in a way but also all my stuff was there. I am in there alone and it is sunny and bright like an attic, I am there at night breifly and there's a kind of party going on and I see Alvan. All these chairs and tables are arranged like a wonky U shape and I have to walk around behind them to get out either side. I find Brown Bear in a compartment underneath the tables and start carrying him around. Before that I am with my mother and Kathy Cook and Ryan and Dan Cook who is talking all about their pitbull and how she's a real pitbull...there is also a cat, like a sister cat to Lightly or something. We are at a museum or something and my momand I leave and go out through this auditorium type thing and are looking at this pizza kiosk that has allthese pizzas out on display (suddenly Devon Gray is with us also) my mom mentions that she sees a hummus pizza and I am walking around the kiosk looking for the hummus pizza.

Before that something with horses.

Maybe Will, maybe an airport, maybe new york.

the night bfore the last post i dream i am in sort of my parents front yard/ driveway and there is a car that is trying to get 6 large palomino looking clydesdales and one dark blue clydesdale to follow the car, except they keep running back into the front yard. they are much larger than actual horses but i am not afraid of being trampled by them. i think i am sitting on a sofa. they keep doing loops and come galloping by the couch.