12/26/2019 troy frog statue

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i drive with my father to troy and take him and buy two beers somewhere and sit down at a picnic table in a small park in the middle of the city --- (its the same park i ended up at with the woman who i followed off the bus when i was on the bus in troy in another dream and james was there too and she was quoting bible verses to me )

my father is not drinking his beer and i am starting to get kind of anxious like i cant remember why i brought him all the way here

then i see the pond (where before in the other dream there was a huge real live frog sitting in the middle of it on a lilypad) i go over to the pond and see the frog but the frog is a statue and i can't believe that its a statue and before i thought it was a real frog

and i guess this is what i brought my father there to see

and i drink his beer and my beer

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i go back to troy again this time alone and im on a street with a big median park in the middle and a street going the other way on the other side and everyone out on their stoops

and in the median park there is a black/hispanic guy with a boombox starting to perform his music

and again im almost not sure why im there but i meet some people on the stoops and talk to them

and then i go looking for artist studios or i meet someone who brings me there, somehow i end up with a crew of new people

there is a nerdy looking skinny blonde guy with freckles and glasses, we all go to an artist studio where we can see quiet looking asian people inside but the studio is closed

and we cant get in

it seems like travis is there then and driving the car and maybe we are leaving

the blonde guy with glasses becomes my boyfriend somehow and maybe i am moving to an artist studio in troy

eventually it seems like we get in

but then we are standing on the street and maybe travis there and maybe leaving--

and i am looking at a metal side rail to see a bird sticker i put there before or put a new one there now

(in waking life i tell my dad about the dream while driving to lynn city hall and he says there is a pond in troy somewhere near his fraternity house and he heard they are draining it, and then he tells me how a whale once swam up the hudson river there and i look up the whale but cant find out what happened to it)

IN SOME kind of empty luxury apartment... waiting under unclear circumstances... waiting for go lightly for something, or for the animals to come...

lisa rinna's daughter delilah is there or whoever it is looks just like her

there is a palm tree in a big planter

my mom is there and she is leaving 

Frankaz saying we are going somewhere, rock port? Redford? Something with a ford or a rock or a bed in it...we are in his room and I dream he says we are leaving and maybe we are going for two days

Carol Anne is there, taking me under her wing somehow. It seems like I'm in Charleston, I'm in some kind of art building, seems like I've been here before. There is a big open space that can just be my personal studio I realize if I just go there and claim it. I am in the buildings and part of one turns into a grocery store. Lots of space the way things are set up almost like the behind the set scenes in the movie 'american splender'. Travis is there with me. Carol Ann is alone in an office somewhere or I'm just leaving her or have to leave. I want to be alone and then my mother is there or Thanksgiving is coming. I think about shoplifting from the grocery store. There are eggs in the shape of limp bananas I have in my hands-- I give them to Travis because I'd rather eat them alone and he warms them up and comes back with them and then I say ok I'm leaving. Its kind of like a venue and a community and a library all in one that I'm leaving. I guess I am getting in a car to go home for Thanksgiving.