Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts

Monday, October 11, 2021

 GOING TO HERBS HOUSE and axing about the car and him telling me he sold it and not giving me any information about it and just being a total asshole about it,  i start taking things from around the house and throwing them at him

cav comes and takes me away and we are in a grocery store and i dont want to be there or with him and he is looking at all these different chips and there are free samples out and i take some kind of tiny pastry that looks like a button and im telling him how i dont want to be with him 

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

last week living room erik stabbing

in the living room in norwell with my parents and my brother erik and i am on the couch and my mom is over by the fireplace

and she says something to me , judgemental , mean, something that really gets to me and makes me angry and very emotionally upset

and erik is on the couch just laying there next to me maybe sleeping and i am upset but also realizing this is a dreAM

and so i start stabbing him because i know its a dream and there is red blood and even then i dont stab him too much because i know its a dream but i dont want to kill him

and then he is getting up and putting clothes on and staggering around like he is just getting ready to get his flight back to japan, very non emotional

and my parents are freaking out and im suddenly realizing its not a dream and i really stabbed him and im the bath room sobbing and freaking out and cant believe what i have done

and i wake up and realize it was a dream

Friday, March 11, 2016

Frankas leaves me sleeping in room 04 and then two young boys come in the room. 

They are talking to each other and do not notice me past the divider.

One notices me and then they leAve the room. I think maybe I am dreaming them that they were there but realize I 'am not dreaming' when they come back in wi Frankas. I start to yell at them for being in the room and looking at Frankas but realize he has told them they can come in. He is being nice to them and asking them questions. 

I am mad he let them in there when I was sleeping and follow him when he leaves the room out to the bland entrance and throw the wood thing that holds the newspapers at him down the stairs.

We walk through some woods and a trai. Track and find this neat little dead end street with the old train track being the street, dead end on one side and on the other side a little shop. They are playing Elvis outside in one of the houses on the street and a guy walks by singing the Elvis song (this is actually later when I go back to the street) -

The first time, we go into the shop and it is a little middle eastern shop and there is a rabbit , white and black with short little ears hopping around the shop.

We go back again and are talking to a girl that works there, ,aye I am asking about getting a job, she takes me out back down the train track street and to a bug hutch where there are 5 or 6 big fluffy lop eared rabbits inside. I ask her and a mother woman who is there whether it is protocol to let the short eared rabbit live inside and keep all the lop eared ones outside. She said she doesn't really take them out of the hutch and she says yes, this is what most people do. She says the rabbits outside get better food though and some other things.

With Frankas and he puts his hair up Ina bun and he has different hair and really becomes a different person, tAller, thinner, looks slightly like Vince and like that guy who was in film school that I made out with at the party at Lindsay's cousins house in Boston we went to, with Chelsea?

I am looking at him, trying to place him. Then he takes his hair down and i realize he is Frankas again.

Walking around emf and open the door to the 2nd floor bathroom and there is a girl in there I recognize from some time before and she looks passed out but I notice she is scratching at a spot on her upper back thigh before I close the door.

I go back in room 04 and there are even more boys in there and they are all lying like sardines on the bed roll with blankets on them watching something on the projection screen. I talk to them and it turns out they are some kind of computer engineers. I ask them how old they are and they tell me they are 16.

Monday, October 11, 2010

i am in the car with chelsea. chelsea is driving. she is telling me how she heard i orgasmed immediately and i say, who told you that? and she says alex and of course i already knew it was alex. and then she says she heard i like this and i say what and i say don't listen to anything that girl says and complain how i can't tell alex anything. chelsea holds up a red vibrator instead of saying the word vibrator (how quaint) and i get mad about how alex takes things i say and twists them and then tells them to people...but then i get woken up by sharon who tells me the cat just pissed all over my grandmother's bed!! agh!

Monday, December 14, 2009

dream digression- 11\20\09

people (chelsea, will ) come over and pet the cats, they are full of fleas, i tell maria i am skipping class, we are eating a lot of food, my mother drives me to the grocery store because i work there, she is very angry because she went away and i didnt take down her messages- i keep saying - wont they know that you were caring after your ailing mother

dream digression- 9-17-09

i am at ginas house there is one young girl who is her daughter(ish) a horse, will graefe writes me an illustrated note (maybe it has a unicorn on it) it says i love you for right now--just kidding, i love you forever- i am in a horoscope class with preston- the teacher starts with me, going into a long explanation, preston interrupts & cuts her short in order to start talking about him, i get very angry & am extremely cruel to preston, afterward i feel bad about this