new york church sarah lyle

in new york with i think sarah lyle walking through a mall where all the shops are closed like macys and all these big stores and theyve all closed down because no one shops at stores anymore

and its just a big empty mall like a ruin, that we used to know

walking through glass doors to outside and i am wearing these bright blue high heels that are so high and my ankles keep bending and rolling over like they're made of rubber or putty

and im looking at them still just trying to walk and notice the shoes are on the wrong feet

so i change them but they are still hard to walk in and im talking to sarah about how i dont know how all the ladies on ROBH do it everyday all the time

and i am thinking of lisa vanderpump

and i can feel v viscerally the blisters on my feet forming in the shoes as we are walking into a
church

to meet some people and we sit down at a table in the church and we are sitting with two kind of butch looking girls and i am thinking how everyone always eats out in new york

and how i dont want to live there because i want to stay home and save my money but the whole church table seating scenario is odd and droll and throwing off my dream reality

and one girl has bland blond curly hair parted down the middle no makeup earthy looking with a black t shirt with writing on it and then she mentions the mic that is happening tonight is her mic

and called something like willows and thinking she can put me on ---
somehow know that its a comedy mic

February 1st

Me and Frankas are kind of moving into my parents house for some reason. Only my dad is there. We have all this stuff like for the photo booth but it's actually a studio setup. I set it up in the basement and my dad asks if I've done anything yet and I say no and then I remember I set the whole studio up in the basement and I tell him that and he is impressed. We are moving things in from the garage. It seems like some kind of holiday or vacation is going to happen. There are only a few beers In the garage and I open one. My dad is leaving for the gym. He says frank is drinking all his beers in a joking way. Then Frank is in the front seat of the minivan and my dad starts massaging his neck and shoulders and frank jumps up and four of the minivan. I think it was too much pressure for him. 

Something about robots figuring things out after we're gone or like we are material for robots and computers. Or the spaces in between our temporal existences are filled by computers with permanence. And robots.

Train

Weird dream where I feel like I finally understand something about the nature of reality/ unreality/ dream reality/ physics  ? Standing on the platform of a train station and jeryn is there and I think someone else is there and when there is some kind of signal the train starts moving and someone is on the train or off the train and this switches back and forth like I am learning how to be on or off the moving train at whim and others are showing me how they can dissipate onto the moving train and then dissipate off and be standing in the same place on the platform again

Dreamed I was moving intothis studio space/band space/ clubhouse above EMF, moving into it like a house in a way but also all my stuff was there. I am in there alone and it is sunny and bright like an attic, I am there at night breifly and there's a kind of party going on and I see Alvan. All these chairs and tables are arranged like a wonky U shape and I have to walk around behind them to get out either side. I find Brown Bear in a compartment underneath the tables and start carrying him around. Before that I am with my mother and Kathy Cook and Ryan and Dan Cook who is talking all about their pitbull and how she's a real pitbull...there is also a cat, like a sister cat to Lightly or something. We are at a museum or something and my momand I leave and go out through this auditorium type thing and are looking at this pizza kiosk that has allthese pizzas out on display (suddenly Devon Gray is with us also) my mom mentions that she sees a hummus pizza and I am walking around the kiosk looking for the hummus pizza.

Before that something with horses.

Maybe Will, maybe an airport, maybe new york.

I am moving out of n apartment and supposed to go somewhere like cape cod with Tyrone and my family. Paul is moving out of the same apartment and gets all his stuff out. I move my stuff out but forget about my clothes and my bed and my cats, edna and lightly, so I have to go back. When I go back into the apartment Rob Potylo is in the empty room around the corner. I see him and we start talking. There is a little puppet man hanging on a wall or on his bureau and he tells me my father is an electric toothbrush. I am holding an electric toothbrush and turn it on and off and keep trying to figure out what he means by this. I keep saying "you're father...was... an electric toothbrush?" I know he means this little puppet thing to be his father. Then he kisses me. At first it tastes a little weird but right after it is nice and natural. He is not wearing a hat this whole time and I cansee he is balding and it doesn't bother me. We hug and kiss and I keep going back to this in my dream, even with the other stuff still going on. Every time I wake up and fall asleep I'm able to go back with him. I feel like Christiana comes in at some point. Its always best when we're alone.

i am in charleston only it is nothing like charleston. there are no houses or something. everyone is planning to leave. i have come to visit but everyone is driving to new york. john and alex and maybe will and chelsea are all planning on driving to new york. i may be moving in or out of charleston. i keep trying to find people that aren't there. i feel like they are planning this trip to new york behind my back or without me. i feel left out.