when my cell phone alarm is ringing i am dreaming that there is a kind of zapper called something like a stinger where you twirl your hair after you've gotten highlights (as if you are twirling it through a metal detector) and everytime it detects a brown streak of hair it beeps (the alarm noise) and turns the streak blonde. in the dream this had been in existance forever and i had just never realized what it was before. i was on a trip with abunch of people, john, will, animals. i thought i moved from orrs court but it turned out i hadnt but we still couldnt find my house. someone else had a house nearby, on spring street. going to my house we were told there was a car bomb and shit was going on and that we should stay out of the street. there was a black dude riding in a red suv and some other cars. something about or with anson. at my house i have th cats there and then there are three puppies in my backyard. i think they are the actons but they have followed me here. we seem to be coming back from being away a long time. at the beach someone takes my shoes and i keep asking who took my shoes. at first i think it is john. then it is will who has taken my shoes and i realize he did it because he likes me and he thought i would have to come find him in order to get them. i feel bad for ruining it.

yesterday/ last night

i am on like a rented house vacation with my family and relatives. everyone has children even the old ones all have babies and stuff. i can tell everyone is judging me for not having a baby or a boyfriend but the babies freak me out. im scared to touch them or hold them or be near them or left alone with them. everytime someone hands me a baby i end up in the ocean and the water is almost over my head and the baby is about to drown. no one really yells at me for this, they just take the babies away. uncle andy's baby shits in the water and he scoops it up like hes going to take it in as a sample. i guess there is something wrong with his baby. inside keith and wendy are there and they take out these gigantic chunks of corn on the cob out of the freezer. they are each one half of a huge corn on the cub. they put them on the table and cut of a row of kernels and when they cut it off it becomes a regular sized full corn on the cob. i eat it raw.

last night-
anson was there or i was waiting for him somewhere but we changed empty rooms or something. then i was at a table at a restaurant or bar or something and alex was sitiing across from me and i got up and i'm not sure if i made it happen but there was this robot-waitress thing and it got a cup of water and walked over to the table and dumped the water on alexs head and zipped away. it was really funny and the robot was really cool looking like the jetsons.

i am on some wierd trip with jonathan. he is annoying me.

dream digression- 9-09

we are going to macchu picchu or mesopotamia which is a bunch of adobe villas built underground (which is neither of these i think & more like roxaboxan or pompei) there is a river or stream which runs over smooth flat rocks, the rocks are what we will use for everything, it is a mystery what happened to the people who lived here, professor farrel gives a lecture before we leave, she is the leader- maria, max, and blair, some others all go - along with some of the others i pick up rocks, say i feel like i could do anything with them- max, blair and i stand at a table underground as if we are going to make things

sunday december 13th 2009

at first i am at some outdoor poetry event, justin maria and will pittman are there, justin and i are canoodling for a bit but he dissapears, will pittman leaves the field trip and seems surly, i think we are talking about who is the greatest or most talented among us, then i am somewhere like a school and am going to teach a riding lesson, the girl who i am teaching asks me to ask gina if she can ride a certain horse, i tell her to go ask her herself, it occurs to me that i still havent seen gina since the last time i ever saw her, dj comes up to me and asks if id be willing to make some money doing the stable radio show, every different facility at the school has a radio show, i want to do it but dont quite understand what im supposed to do or how to do it, somehow i see the radio shows for the stable recently which look like blog posts and are not good at all, then it turns into some kind of rockshow where i need to perform, it had been some sort of soiree but now there is some kind of vote going on about who will -erform next, and someone says it will be me and kimmi hendrix and someone else, i get very nervous that i am not going to know all the words to any of the songs and start trying to remember all of the wind cries mary in my head