Something makes it seem kind of like the Howard Stern family dynamic. Alvan is there and Rob and maybe Christiana. We are walking around at night, inside and outside. We are all musicians or supposed to play music. There is talk about guitar playing and I am thinking I have to get better at the guitar. There is some girl there Rob is supposed to be in love with and everyone knows he's in love with her and I am in the crowd of people. He is talking about the girl and sometimes I'm not sure if he's talking about her or about me. Sometimes he is talking about her and I am pleasant and joking about it.

I neeed to play the guitarr!!

dream digression- before sculpture final/ december

i dream that i make this piano thing. it is like half piano/half table and there is glass, maybe it is partly made of metal. it sits in this building like a townhouse apartment or something and floor to ceiling windows all around it. it is black red, white- the three most powerful colors. then it is suspended in the air, sort of like i am the piano-table but not really. it is on top of the buildings and i have to try to keep it from falling into the ocean (with my mind?) i lose it though and it falls int the ocean and then i am the one who is floating on top of the buildings and i have to try to keep myself from falling. there is something pulling and pushing me, like fear or gravity. i mess up and fall off the building but right then i realize i am dreaming so its ok. once i realize im dreaming i float back up to the tops of the buildings and not falling is more like a game and less like life or death.