GOING TO HERBS HOUSE and axing about the car and him telling me he sold it and not giving me any information about it and just being a total asshole about it,  i start taking things from around the house and throwing them at him

cav comes and takes me away and we are in a grocery store and i dont want to be there or with him and he is looking at all these different chips and there are free samples out and i take some kind of tiny pastry that looks like a button and im telling him how i dont want to be with him 

on vacation somewhere with my mom erin and leslie, somewhere like capri or italy-- light ocean tropical beaches-- and we keep going to the same restaurants like we're running out of restaurants to go to -- and we're going somewhere on the last night and we accidentally go to the same restaurant again and leslie and my mom say how i hug erin more than them and how uncle andy said the same thing and i say i realize that and i mean to hug them all more and want to get us all in a pile like the old days --

                                                            yesterday;

will somewhere, maybe somewhere cav is , looking for will maybe, at my parents house, petting chloe, upstairs and my mom is saying i need to get a dog, she knows about gilbie but i can see gilbie like he is there and fine right in front of me

                                                           day before;

 go to an arcade movie theater by myself and the movie starts and then the movie stops all of a sudden and a grey screen comes up and music starts playing like an intermission and there is a hungry hippos game in front of me and i start thinking i have time to play it during the intermission and first i try to put a euro in the machine and then i find a gold arcade coin and put it in and start playing and a dad in seats nearby kindof yells at me but i explain myself and we're ok, then i leave the theater and get lost and i have to go back up  a glass elevator to get back to the theater and then the movie is over and i missed it and everyone is leaving and i walk out of the theater in the crowd crying

                                                            day before;

austin rutledge comes over to my parents house and is upset about a movie, something, he leaves and im in my brothers room

cav kids

yesterday;

go to CAV's fathers house, into a dark dark kitchen... and then his son is there ... and there is a cage on the table and its the sons cage and the son has a dirty diaper


last night;

go to a bright big semi- open house with CAV , guess its his ex wifes house, there is a woman kind of smiling staring at me, we are in the kitchen, shes at the end of the counter--

little girl madeline os sitting there and someone gives me string cheese ina packet and its like a block of cheese - orange and white - and the little girl madeline tells me how she feels about the cheese and how she eats it and i am eating the cheese

the young woman or some0one else is now right next to me to the left only she is a much older woman and i am wondering if this is CAV's ex-wife...

we go into a tv room and sit down on the floor and then a young woman comes into the room with a round face and brown hair and she is smiling and she starts talking to us about the kids,