antonia villa art gallery cafe mind video

at some kind of open art gallery cafe -- all white interior // open space // something like new alliance or a familiar familial art space--- a bar to the left of me-- almost like in fact it really IS channel cafe, the setup of the room and even the door that leads to stairs

there with someone - chris ? - talking, not many people there --- and i see antonia villa coming up  from the stairs through a door carrying a box in her arms

i realize she is moving out of her studio which must be through the door down the stairs--- still aware that its a suprise to see her and shes moved away and how is she here?

i call out to her and try to talk to her and she ignores me -- keeps moving out -- i go up to her and not even sure she talks to me then--

then i see her sitting in a chair on video like shes talking to the camera -- and i know im seeing her talking but that shes not talking to me somehow-- like some kind of mind video ---

and she is saying she loves me but something like she hates me or doesnt want to know me now because she wanted to be with me and doesnt want to be just friends

and there is something like a small chichuaha in her lap 

chris lauren michelle bOat

with chris laurena and michelle and there is tension and chris is not like himself normally or he is critical and michelle is yelling and lauren is kind of swaying in and out

and we are all on a boat im in one corner with michelle across from me and lauren is next to me and chris is to the left of michelle and michelle is saying things

and it is like the boat is dropping stories like the tower of terror, like levels of something are being broken through and the feeling of being nearly thrown out of the boat at all times

but it stops and somewhere we get off the boat and we are somewhere else maybe like italy

and lauren keeps touching me and then she is touching my face and i need to get away

chris car money

out to dinner somewhere with people and chris its some kind of venue like a casino and the waiter is saying you can test drive this car for $1,000 and chris gets a look in his eye

and wants to the car

i try to mind my own business and look at the table


(( last night before chris falls asleep he is sleep talking... saying there is a lot of people there...(i ax him where...) ... chris's parking lot ))

chris communal house keys ghosts mother art highschool

at some house where there is some kind of collective going on....

this girls mother died and there is some kind of mansion across the street and they want to make this into some kind of art house

and i am there helping, there with chris valverde

and he is into me i guess and i am relenting i guess,

the girl whose mother died comes up to me and puts about 20 keys into my back pocket

we are out in the backyard

they are small silver identical keys like they all do the same thing

im not sure why shes giving me so many keys but she is saying thank you like i have helped and she is glad im there

and i think mel is there and other people are there

there is a big long dining room, there is a kitchen, the place shifts

chris valverde is picking me up and throwing me over his head, the first time he does this i lean my weight back away from his back after im over his head and he has to sit down on the ground

he makes a joke

he keeps picking me up though and he is very tall and i am v small compared to him

he picks me up and holds me to the side by his shoulders like im a child and i hold on and start to think its nice

we go in to some type of shopping center at some point

then we are right out in the street and kelsey barton shows up with a backpack and a new boyfriend she wants me to meet before he has to leave and they want lobsters and we are in an old familiar

part of the city, boston i guess, then and we start down the street where there is some lobster place a block away and kelsey uses her backpack to slide down a banister

to get there

and before or after i shift back to the communal / art house

and chris valverde has been carrying me around and then he lets me down and i kind of rest my head on his head for a minute and then someone is right next to us and it is his mother

somewhere gilbie is getting into a microwaved meal and im afraid he was microwaved but he wasnt

i am walking through my highschool thinking how some people must never go back to high school but im at my high school all the time for some reason, maybe this is somehow part of the

new art school

in a car with what looks like tori from new alliance and another big featured girl and they are talking about doing a photoshoot for the art house dressed as angels and theyre gonna do it both of them

but they dont incliude me (but i dont include myself !)