go to a museum with aunt kathy jenny kashuck lindsay bohan -- we are going in the morning only its afternoon but i am tired and want coffee really badly but we have to go to the empty museum---

aunt kathy has something / shows me something -- made of wood ?

and there is no coffee and its late enough that we go to some social in some restauranty type part of the museum and have drinks

run into jacki maynard and know that she just had a child recently and start walking down the stairs with her and am saying how amazing it was she got pregnant and had this baby and looks great

and she says 'i was really hoping you were going to have a babay and i waited 6 years for you to have it' and she says it like we all had six years to have a baby and the time is over ---

and it really strikes me and i turn to her and say 'im going to have a baby'

(and i wake up and am somehow relieved to remember that jacki maynard doesnt even have a baby and my 6 years arent up)


*a few nights ago john cremona showed up and i was so happy to see him but i dont remember where and what happened*

Go to my pa rents house with Frankas. Leslie and mike just had a baby and they come over with carol and Andy and Keith also comes over. I guess Erin already had a baby too. And this is Leslie's second baby. She doesn't look fat. The baby looks like a little tiny Maltese puppy and crawls around in the floor like one. The other baby looks like a bigger Maltese puppy. There is nothing human about them but we know they are babies. Frankas is very moody and does not really talk to anyone. My mom is kind of mad and bitchy and saying how we should act with one another and wanting me to do things for her. There is a lot of food bring prepared. I accidentally eat a piece of ham which I think is salmon and spit it out. 

Leslie tells me they are vacationing in Honda. Upstairs on my parents bed with Leslie and mike and Frankas and the puppy baby.

Then it seems like everyone left and I didn't notice or something. Leslie is gone I think. I take the Honda Civic and start driving to Honda. 

I drive way past Boston and way lady Honda I think. I finally stop somewhere and go into a restaurant and everyone is talking another language and it looks kind of Mexican Jewish, dark native people. I pee in a weird stall with a toilet that is right next to the dining tables. There is wall to wall carpeting.

I ask the girl at the cashier if I'm far from Honda and she asks me if I am rearranging or going there and says I'm not far. A map on the wall shows where I am and if I go backwards I can go to Honda. If I keep going forward I get to the United States and then to Israel.

yesterday/ last night

i am on like a rented house vacation with my family and relatives. everyone has children even the old ones all have babies and stuff. i can tell everyone is judging me for not having a baby or a boyfriend but the babies freak me out. im scared to touch them or hold them or be near them or left alone with them. everytime someone hands me a baby i end up in the ocean and the water is almost over my head and the baby is about to drown. no one really yells at me for this, they just take the babies away. uncle andy's baby shits in the water and he scoops it up like hes going to take it in as a sample. i guess there is something wrong with his baby. inside keith and wendy are there and they take out these gigantic chunks of corn on the cob out of the freezer. they are each one half of a huge corn on the cub. they put them on the table and cut of a row of kernels and when they cut it off it becomes a regular sized full corn on the cob. i eat it raw.

last night-
anson was there or i was waiting for him somewhere but we changed empty rooms or something. then i was at a table at a restaurant or bar or something and alex was sitiing across from me and i got up and i'm not sure if i made it happen but there was this robot-waitress thing and it got a cup of water and walked over to the table and dumped the water on alexs head and zipped away. it was really funny and the robot was really cool looking like the jetsons.