IM in highschool and i've missed some kind of english class for like over a year and just remembered i have it and it switches around... laura garvey is on her way to the class and says its ok its a substitute and it has been for a while and i should come..

so i go to the class and the teacher is susan the receptionist from  riverside community care in cambridge and she is the original teacher not a substitute and when she sees me come in she says thank you for finally being here

you left me for weeks with no north pole and the south pole of chris canfield has been attacking the syllabus...( something to this affect something about poles) and i am remebering more about the situation as she says this

and chris canfield walks in down a long ramp with a descending wall on the side of it that faces the rest of the class room (and this is the entrance) and chris sees me and pushes into me as he goes by and he looks good

and i remember somehow for some reason in the classes i was gone chris started bringing something up and was saying the word nigger loudly in his argument and when he comes in he says something to susan

and we both leave the class

but in between somehow i see him with his girlfriend who is a chubby short blonde chick i havent seen before, and she is talking low to him and kissing the side of his face and he looks like its his mother doing it

we meet again in some kind of long closet eves place which i guess is my shared kind of attic studio with some other people and chris comes in after me and i try to jump him basically and he says he has a girlfriend and i know it but hes not in to her and we end up having sex kind of or are going to but he has a really small penis (i dont think its that small irl but idk!)

as we are getting clothed shuggy and maria martin walk in and they are kind of in an  argument but this is when i remember i'm in our shared studio space... its something shuggy did

we leave as they come in 

the night before last staying at alex and chelseas apartment in alex's bed i dreamed about a kind of thansgiving gathering at my parents house. my aunt susan was there in the garage and she was smoking a cigarette. A whole dreadlock fell out of my hair and I realized I had even less hair than I thought I did. Alex was there.

susan keeps coming over and falling down on the front doorstep. there are other people around, i think maybe we are partying. susa wants to hang out or wants me to do something for her r with her.

october 27th

i am on some wierd famkily vacation, i send a lot of time in the backseat of a minivan, at one oint we ass a decreit farm where it is clear from the dogs thaqt eugune and gail are staying, although we dont see them frankie (the dog) is there and i et him from the window my father talks about how susan lives on our street and on her art of the street there is crack and someone came and bought crack from her, at one -oint i go to a restaurant which is sortof like blockbuster (i am back home sort of with my arents) i go outside onto the terrace and jum into a sea of icy water by some kind of glacier, i am watching a movie sort of like the grizzly man, i remember how my dad tells me he is watching a movie once and the movie makes it seem like this huge log breaks and rolls out but really someone had come in and already but the broken off art of the log there, so when it ha--ened, he noticed and knew they were trying to kill him he jumed out of the way matthew bowers works at the restaurant and comes and gets me from the water and says why are you out here so late