listening to a song by britney spears during her conservatorship, it sounds different , her voice sounds good,

its fall

at my parents house but its a big old dark colonial type house and i go into a little room to play some kind of music and somebody starts putting the window down from the outside and its maggie clune and she says hey jessie and i say hey 

and  i walk outside and we walk over to her house and she has this big dapple grey horse and he comes running up to us acting like  a puppy and i ask her if she rides him and she says she does and i want to ride him so bad and i ask if hes a girl

and her dad is out there and says no hes a gelding and thyen lets two little ponies out of a gate and they are two tiny little white ponies 

i love this horse and want to ride him so bad and want a horse so bad 

dream idea for a horror comedy

Michelle Bain and this small child and someone like Billy Arria but wearing a black suit are living in the Actons yard next door, only they aren't quite real people, they are more like holograms, like there is something off about them

(i have fallen asleep to scientology and the aftermath playing on my computer)

*almost like if billy arria led a cult of hologram people from my highschool in a way**
except these are the only people we ever see

i am trying to stay away from the hologram people and not interact with them because i can tell they are not real people and there is something off about them

but i can see them through the trees

i can see them moving very fast and through each other in the yard like holograms, i see them doing a slow kind of dance where they move their arms and their arms pass through one another, i see one arm getting long and out of proportion and passing through another ones side of the face

the little girl tries to interact and come over

somehow i end up over in the actons yard with just michelle bain and the little girl and we are sitting in the grass in the front yard and i see billy arria in a car drive down the driveway and pull out- i am trying to make sure he does not see me there and it seems like he doesn't

then somehow i get michelle bain to turn into a real person or something by coming over into my yard through the trees, not sure how but there is a feeling like she has turned more real when i separate her from hologram billy arria and the little girl child--

the little girl child keeps coming over and trying to interact with us and i try not to interact and to get michelle not to interact--

there is something on the ground that has a crude etched image of two dogs on it- something like a black purse- and it reminds me how this has been some kind of secret theme - and i remember that michelle bain had two small dogs- when we were younger- and maybe they died or something

michelle takes a pin , some kind of long needle off the purse or off the ground and sticks it directly into her tongue--- some kind of sign of something

(at some point still in the dream i think this is a good idea for a horror comedy and imagine whitney cummings starring)

II

i start walking down south street sometime after this- am i with the little girl at first? am i trying to escape the house and the yards?

i end up with a hamster and the hamster is white with light light brown spots and i think it is gilby but am somewhere remembering it cant be gilbie with this coloring...

i go into the cooks house and no one is home but there is a hamster cage and a dog and i put the hamster in the cage and fall asleep on a bed that is right there for a minute

then the cooks come home and there is another couple that has come to the house also per my request to get the hamster or the dog and mr. cook is very mean to this couple and an older girl who is supposed to be the cooks daughter i guess comes up to kathy cook and says i just want you to remember you had a beautiful friendship with this woman...

and dan cook is saying to the couple something about the lamp or the umbrella

and i am saying its all my fault because i called them over to get the hamster or the dog but its too late for the fighting and they leave with the dog, the woman wears glasses

for some reason no one is upset with me or about the dog leaving and when the door closes fat baby ryan is still a baby but very articulate speaking and there is a blues sounding guitar coming from somewhere-

dan cook sings some blues lyrics and then says check out this guy-- and there is another baby in one of those circular wheeling high chairs and the baby is holding and playing an electric guitar expertly, dan sings a few lyrics every now and then

there is also another older man i dont recognize who looks a little sweaty and bloated and i think he is drunk

i was going to leave but they seem to want me to stay, i am confused about the interaction and about how i ended up here and why i came here, and wondering if the couple that came over and took the hamster and the dog are hologram people as well

i cant remember why i did what i did or understand why its not my fault

the whole time i am at the cooks trying to speak and explain whats happened and why my jaw is so clenched i can barely speak, a very visceral feeling that seems very real--

my words barely come out and my jaw is in pain it is so clenched and i cant move it- i am filled with fear and talking to dan cook in the front hall i also have a hard time standing straight up

With frankas and he is drunk and he gets arrested or I get arrested but we get out of it- I think I get arrested and then get away during it because it's a casual arrest and I leave during it and a wondering if it isn't better to just stay on the lamb- frankas is running around and drunk and I lose him somewhere, we are inside and outside of this big house that reminds me of glen and cindy's cookout- we make croissants with chocolate inside and they are very good me and frankas make them but then I lose him he runs off and I am in the house- somehow I know where he's gone and I go running through the town, it has just snowed and the snow is on the ground but very dry and it's warm out and I go running through the town with just my fathers running socks on and feeling good and warm and it's good running on the snow, I make it to the house and there's someone just coming into the house and I ask him if he lives there and can he let me in and he does and we open the door and frankas is inside with a bunch of people that I seem to know and they are having fun I think I tell them how I got arrested then we are all in a big basement type room and Karen is there and frankas is trying to kiss Karen in front of me but she won't let him but she's flirting with him and I am just thinking how terrible this is but i won't care

First I go to Todd Larsons house he has some kind of large apartment or available housing or something

Then I have a new rabbit kind of like coke and the rabbit is outside at night at my parents house and Todd is coming over in the middle of the night and maybe it's about the rabbit? The rabbit is hopping in and out of the street through the bushes and there are no trees there in the front yard separating the yard from the street

There are cars in the street and I am hoping the rabbit is learning and is smart

Todd pulls in and stops at the top of the driveway and I know he is there but then forget and my mother is out in the driveway then to meet Todd I guess

Kurt cobain is with his band and comes to see us where we are living in some kind of middle school and auditorium. He is coming to play. He has short very blonde hair. Alvan seems like he's there and other people from emf. 

Then I am in charleston with someone that seems like the far from normal girl. She lives in an area in the woods in something like charleston, I is like arrivals mini neighborhood kind of like Robinson carusoe and out the back of the neighborhood is the beach.

I am with Paige and there is a kitchen we are in. At my parents house my father has a bottle of red wine beside him in the yard he is out by the swing set in the grass counting seeds,

Getting ready for something like thanksgiving.    I am hugging mike the horse from hunters rook

My mom has gotten him and another horse we are going to keep in the yard, I can't wait to ride him

In the kitchen there is an animal they are cooking in a pot that looks like a cartoon platypus