OCTOBER 9 2021

with some freinds and randomly see mikalea murphy on the street and then we are all hanging together and lindsay is there and something is happening

billy arria shows up somewhere

doing coke on some kind of girls weekend in a room with jacki maynard taylor cleaves and other less specific girls. some one kind of like sinclair. joe mccarthy is there  with a few people kind of playing music. taylor cleaves has just been to some musical that i have also been to, called danny boy, and we are seeing video of her up on stage with the cast at the end of the musical...jacki maynard's shirt dress is falling off and she is saying this would be the perfect place for a yogi burlesque show where everyone has to stand up...we are in some apartment in new york....

doing coke. and the coke has glitter in it. and everyone has bags of it. i dont do it at first. both my nostrils are stuffed up. i end up taking a big chunk and just shoving it up my right nostril. someone is saying how numb their lips and nose are and i feel like my lower face is swelling up.

Wendy and Keith are over at my parents house and getting into arguments at one point Wendy says to Keith I only need you to help me read the herald...not sure what this means seems like maybe she was trying to write newspaper articles and he was helping her. I leave with them to go to their beach house or something.

At the beach house there are cats and Katie shecter and a blonde girl and another girl and I am reminded of Kennedy somehow. They are all sitting in a dark room smoking cigarettes and at some point they open tall boys.

I go upstairs and there is someone living there already and then there is repo rob who is moving In and then I guess I am also moving into this room. There are cats. I am somehow taking care of repo rob I feel or he is expecting me to and I am mad at the situation. I look under the bed and there is cat shit out of the litter box. I am freaking out.

Dreamed the last episode of Girls 'Two Planes', that Hannah gets on all these different modes of transportation and does all this traveling to go through something and suffer so that she has better writing or something to write about by the end of it. She gets off the plane with her story or the end of the episode or the start of next season or whatever. Its Lena Dunham but I guess I'm kinda Lena Dunham the way I know whats happening but I am watching her experience.

I. I am about spread the weight of my body across the upraised palms of my highschool field hockey team. Ms. Schad is insisting on it. I have a feeling it may be for a photograph. I am not sure how I feel about this...then I wake up