the ron jeremy/ danny devito dream: saturday the 25th

(sleeping over at ricky's)

I am living in a little apartment with my grandmother but Sharon also lives there. Sometimes I feel like I need to be doing something and I'm not sure what my role vs Sharon's role is supposed to be in taking care of my grandmother.

At some point I get involved with this guy who has Danny Devito's size and body-type but who looks like Ron Jeremy and acts sort of like a pornstar-gangster. He has a latkey who is a skinny little gay dude who looks almost albino with white blonde hair. They come into my room or I am in their room or the two things become one but I don't think we leave the house where my grandmother, Sharon, and I live. It seems like Ronny Devito convinces me of something at first and then he leaves.

After he leaves I am left alone with the gay albino and we are left to sort of feel each other out. The room we are in sort of turns into my parents bedroom. He asks me if I want to do cocaine with him and I say ok but then while he is cutting it up I get involved in something else...I think maybe I am rolling a joint. He cuts up a bunch of lines and then he does all of them. I had noticed before that he had been doing cocaine and when I see him after I realize he's a bit of a cokehead.
He starts shivering and rocking back and forth on the carpet and I think I am concentrating again on rolling the joint but he suddenly says "hey" to me and I look up. He asks me if I will come over and sit next to him and so I go over and sit next to him and put my arms around him and we rock back and forth and I feel like I suddenly understand him and am glad he is able to ask me to be there, it is a very innocent moment.

Then something happens and I'm not sure the exact time sequence. At some point Ronny Devito comes back and then we are back in the small room in the Sharon-grandma apartment. Ronny Devito is having sex with me and I'm not sure why but I feel like I've become part of some deal or something. It isn't exactly something I'm into but I don't feel like its horrible either.

Then Ricky shows up and we are somewhere else altogether, maybe out, but the environment isn't as clear. We start having sex and it is good and I feel like I've had some kind of sexual realization or discovery, maybe about orgasming. We are together and happy.

Then I am transported back to the little room where Ronny Devito had sex with me and no one is there but all their stuff is there (I guess they had stuff) and I suddenly remember about how they came in and what happened and I start to feel horrible about it and I don't know how I'll get out of the situation. I feel as if I need to run away even though I think that the room was originally my room. I decide that I will need to leave this place.