dream digression- 9-17-09

i am at ginas house there is one young girl who is her daughter(ish) a horse, will graefe writes me an illustrated note (maybe it has a unicorn on it) it says i love you for right now--just kidding, i love you forever- i am in a horoscope class with preston- the teacher starts with me, going into a long explanation, preston interrupts & cuts her short in order to start talking about him, i get very angry & am extremely cruel to preston, afterward i feel bad about this

dream digression start- 9-14-09

going to sleep i am talking to alex, max, then will (gran), telling them i am dreaming and beginning to sleep which keeps making me realize they are not really there because i am dreaming (this is when i switch who i am talking to) john, paige and i are in another sort of world and we have a flying car, john says he has been told he needs to make paige eat, she wants to go eat--- right before i wake up john says nevermind- right before i wake up luke offers me nine dollars

sunday december 13th 2009

at first i am at some outdoor poetry event, justin maria and will pittman are there, justin and i are canoodling for a bit but he dissapears, will pittman leaves the field trip and seems surly, i think we are talking about who is the greatest or most talented among us, then i am somewhere like a school and am going to teach a riding lesson, the girl who i am teaching asks me to ask gina if she can ride a certain horse, i tell her to go ask her herself, it occurs to me that i still havent seen gina since the last time i ever saw her, dj comes up to me and asks if id be willing to make some money doing the stable radio show, every different facility at the school has a radio show, i want to do it but dont quite understand what im supposed to do or how to do it, somehow i see the radio shows for the stable recently which look like blog posts and are not good at all, then it turns into some kind of rockshow where i need to perform, it had been some sort of soiree but now there is some kind of vote going on about who will -erform next, and someone says it will be me and kimmi hendrix and someone else, i get very nervous that i am not going to know all the words to any of the songs and start trying to remember all of the wind cries mary in my head

friday december 12th 2009

in my dream a huge chunk of my hair falls out and i am upset at first but whoever i try to tell doesnt really notice or care so i start cutting off the rest of my hair. it wasnt the way it was supposed to happen.

DECEMBER 6TH 2009

right when i wake up me and justin yampolsky have just started kissing outside of maybank whgich is also sort of a grocery store and it iswonderful but then he turns into derek campanelli and i almost forget.

before that i had gone on some wierd trip. maybe to new york. jonathan is there in a building like the painting studio and plays me a velevt underground cover that sharon lacey has recorded and says its a big hit. i say shes a painting professor and shes right here! and she is right there and says there is some artist around the corner like i am going to get to talk to him. then jonathan starts acting really strange and embarassing in front of the artist and i have to try and get him to leave. i realize there is blood on my neck and my knee and sharon lacey examines it and tells me i have a worm. i spend the rest of the time trying to convince my family that i have a worm but no one will listen or believes me.

december 5th 2009

i see Peacock and he asks me if I turned in my independent study form at the beginning of the week. I say no i didn't and am sorry. He says something to the point of that it is ok and i will be moving my studio into the new building.

november 30th, 2009 (night before stegner app.)

i am going to some sort of school, i am late for a halloween party. the halloween party is in a room upstairs, the building is like a high school. I have forgotten to get a costume so i go to the room early and michael haga is there getting ready for the party. he is the only one there and has a pile of costumes to choose from. i choose a panda costume and then put a mask on that has a cat shaped head and a beak. i say i am a panda dressed up for halloween but later on i forget i am a panda and think i am the hamburghler who has a proper name which michael haga knows and repeats but i keep forgettiung right after i hear it. somehow i see myself later and realize i'm in a panda suit. i think maria is there. i think other people come.