First I am living in a strange place like a hotel from a video game or the house of the aunts in James and the giant peach, I am living with nanny but there are other people around and she is dying. It seems like we wheel her in a shopping cart to the "hospital" which seems more like A library or laboratory or storeroom. On some of the aisles instead of shelves there are long couches. We need to convince the people at the hospital to let her live or that she is not dead. She keeps falling asleep everywhere and sometimes we think she's dead. Erin And lesly and Erik are there too. Erik is not helpful at all and is only annoying, really. At one point I see Erin and Lesley pushing the shopping cart down an aisle. At another point I see a chart with the order of something on it, Andy is at the top, then carol then me then Erin then Lesley then Erik. It has to be symbolic of something. The names were written down in different colors. Then I leave this place on a mission to save nanny although once i leav I can't quite remember how I was going to get help. I find myself walling behind a woman who looks exactly like Carla from modern family and she is singing a karaoke song. Her husband boyfriend reminds me of someone, sort of like hamdee, actually maybe it is the owners of the villa in spoleto...as she comes to the end of he song she runs into an event and finishes off (although I recall hearing her sing a fancier ending before...this is something I have seen many times or happens often) everyone applauds and I walk in behind her, as does her bf, who comes up behind us and hugs us both and she gives me a look like we are old friends. I go to get a glass of wine and someone turns from a group of people and looks at me. At first I don't recognize him. "you don't even remember what your exboyfriend looks like?" he says and I am shocked. It is will graefe. He grabs me by the shoulders as he says this and I can't even feel. I try to explain that I am trying to save my nanny but As I go to do it I realize at this moment I am really just at a party. I wake up at this point/ I make myself go back to sleep

In round 2 I am trying to fix things with will. I get a phone call from Ryan Hines ( who might be with mike Odonnel?) who asks if me and will want to go to his house and smoke pot. I might have been on the phone with will but not quite with him yet- I pick him up in my car and I am wearing my pink ref coach bball shirt and sport shorts. For some reason I don't realize this at first and when I glance in the mirror I am mortified by how bad I look. Will is in a much gentler form now, but is also hazier and less expressive than the previous will. I am drivin my fathers call and it's like I can barely control it. I am going superfast no matter what and my feet are twisted over each other. I have one on eachmped and I keep having to twist the car around. I keep almost killing us an try to play it off. It's like I can't stop the car and readjust my feet. We are ddiving through woodsy areas. Then I drive Into water and it appears this is some kind of gas station so we get out. We have to stand on a log in he water while they/in order to do something to the car. We are standing on the log and we both fall into the water. We have to grasp and hold on to each other in order to get ourselves back up and onto the log. There is something reassuring about it. Afterwards I drive him home and then I realize we never got to Ryan Hines house which was the whole point.

Andy comes in theroom and looks at Nane and says she looks out of it. I am in a classic murder/kidnap situation dream. I am with someone else and we are in the woods with the man who is trying to kill us. We need to walk over a log behind him and kick a gun into the stream. I know what we have to do because I have had this dream before or because I have learned it from a movie, or at least this is the feeling I get whilst in the dream. I am not afraid but feel very focused and I believe everything goes according to plan. I feel like the person with me is something like a little brother. Either this night or the other night kelsey chapman was in my dream but I can't really remember why or what we were doing.

I am in a large house like a mansion. First I am in my nomal house though. It is something like Thanksgiving. Anson is coming to my house and there is nothing I can do about it maybe and I am trying to keep it a secret from my parents. He will have to stay in the basement. I forget about this. Then lots of family starts showing up at the house and I am talking with relatives and getting white wine. Then the basement door starts banging around and busts open and out walks anson. he is balding and his head is shaved almost bald, he does not look so good. immediately i yell at my brother for locking him in the basement which i suddenly know he did. my mother is upset about the event but my dad just kind of jokes with me and says "well you know uncle gene wanted to bring his new girlfriend to spoleto" and then sort of doesthe rick joke-shrug at me. "what does that have to do with anything?" i say, but it makes me feel better that he isnt taking it as seriously.

ok, then i am in the mansiony house which is really really old and i live there with my family but mostly just my mom is there and nane is also there...then gramcracker is there! and i am like what the hey is going on. so i go to my mom aqnd im like i thought grammie was dead! and she is like yeah, well she is dead but she has this wierd sort of dead person alzheimers where she wakes up every now and again and acts like her old self and doesnt remember that she is dead. meanwhile nane is her old regular alzheimers self. grammy dances around and sings a teacup song and every little song she sings i try to sing too but i dont know the words and i dance around her while she sings them (this happens later tho at some sort of art show or exhibtion in a gymnasium/ auditorium) while we are still in the mansion house we walk over at some point to a bed (me mom nane and grammie) and on the bed are nane and grammies "dead" bodies, nane gets upset seeing grammie and also probably the dead bodies but grammie is really clueless. it is creepy though and i try to get everyone away from the dead bodies.

ok, and then i am at some sort of camp or something. something has gone wrong and we all have to sit underground in a hallway all day. it has to do with sharks. we get assigned to teams. maria is there and maybe we are in college. mr. devine seems t be the leader of sorts. we are waiting to get let out of the hallway. my team ends up going into a classroom filled with water in which there is a shark and something happens with the shark trying to bite us and we are all on some sort of raft or something together and we go around the classroom in circles with the shark snapping at us but no one gets bit. i believe because no one from the team gets bit we are then allowed to go home. it seems like maria and i are in charleston and it is a weekend night and we are trying to go out.

First I am with Will and its as if I have traveled a long distance or he has traveled a long distance. We are together for the first time in a while, I think. We end up in my parents bedroom, I think they are away. Anyways we are in the bed and I know that I have some coke on me but I'm not really thinking about it. Then Will pulls out a bag of coke and asks if I want to do some. This makes me think about/worried about the coke I have. I think he goes downstairs and I put it in my bedroom. So we do a bump or something and we are about to have sex when he interrupts things and says that we can't have sex. I am mortified and wonder if its because of my breath which I have a feeling is very bad. Then I find myself in an airport or something with Anson, it is like fast forward from will to my relationship with anson, which i think is fine until later...my parents enter the picture somewhere and i am worried about the coke again. at the airport i end up needing to eat something or being told, perhaps by my mother, to eat something, so i go to a round kiosk (like the old coffee place in the plaza) and get a falalfel hummus wrap. i am sitting next to rachel hayes who smells something horrid and asks if its my breath. I decide my breat must be horrible and am re-mortified about the will thing. I eat about half the falafel before there is mention of coke and this little scrawny kid wearing a basball cap gets involved. he is TINY, very short and just tiny tiny-boned. somehow we are back at my parents house and cocaine gets spilled all over the carpet. i think my brother comes home. i am equal parts trying to do cocaine and trying to hide cocaine throughout this dream.

recent dreams i forgot to jot down

I. i give my mom a present and she gives it to someone else, it makes me upset

II. i go to lindsays house and she is having a huge party with all these people from highschool and when i show up everyone has been partying for a long time and are all fucked up. she didnt invite me beforehand and i am the only person who is not wasted. i feel like she is going to get in trouble and wonder why i wasnt told about the party (there is another dream where we are at an apartment in hull that this seems somewhat similar4 to) and then (ala how in real life i always end up being the only sober one at jandys by accident when his parents come home) lindsays parents come home and shit hits the fan, a lot of it is about the fact that everyone is smoking marajuana and that they think lindsay has a drug problem

i cut my left hand across the top. i am using a knife for something. blood bubbles up out from the hand every time i move it. i am trying to make something that i need my left hand to make. the blood is freaking me out. all i can think of is doing cartwheels and all i want to do is everything i can't do with my hand bleeding like it is. i wonder if i've accidentally killed myself and will bleed out. it reminds me of the time i cut my finger on the beet can.

I am brushing my teeth when I realize they are covered in a pinkish salmon colored layer which is partially brushing away. I look in the mirror and see a little bit of white where I've brushed, which is when I realize my real teeth are underneath this layer. The salmon colored teeth look dead. I am almost afraid to keep brushing but I do. I feel something get dislodged and spit out what looks like a front tooth. I look in the mirror and it is not my front tooth but one near the right side of my top teeth (though it is the shape and size of a front tooth). You can't see the gap unless I pull my mouth to the side.