Sunday, October 30, 2011

dreamed there were sebacious cysts all up and down my leg and maybe that i started bleeding

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I am driving in the car, going to do my errands, it seems like i'm on storrow drive, and i see what looks like a giant man-made bird flipping over itself and falling out of the sky. and then i see another one. and then i notice people are on these things that look like giant trapezes. they are holding onto the trapeze and its swinging them up into the air really really high. but people are doing it and they don't look like they are trained to and they aren't dying or losing their grip like they probably would in real life. I wonder what is going on because it must be some kind of festival but im on storrow drive so i can't see anything but the trapeze people and i know i slept in late and missed my ADD appointment (true). then i am in some kind of store like a walmart or a toys r us. i guess this is an errand but i don't know what i was going to buy. this little boy runs up to me and grabs my hand and he wants me to put revlon lip stain on him. he is a really cute little boy with a square-ish head and black hair. he looks like a cartoon. His father is there and he keeps telling the boy (maybe his name was Kyle) to stop it and leave me alone, but hes not very commanding about it and Kyle does not care. He just keeps leading me around by the hand and I put the lipstain on him. For some reason I have to buy the lipstain but i buy it without going to the register. I think I put Kyle in a shopping cart breifly. I really like him or else I wouldn't be bothered. Then the dad sees how I'm still there and hanging out with Kyle and he tells me all about their awesome babysitter for some reason and it seems like he thinks I'm trying to be friends with Kyle in order to get a job. I wonder how he feels about the lipstain and if he knows I had to buy it for his son.

Then I am listening to Scarlett Johansen and she is talking to Woody Allen, and I don't think Woody Allen ever says anything but I know he's there. She is talking about Darwinist economics in a way, which I know is because they are taling about darwinist economics on npr (in real life), but she is putting it into her own terms, like in concern to her and ryan reynolds i guess. she doesnt say as much but i can tell she's rationalizing the failure of their marriage through darwinist theory. this proves true because she ends up saying how ryan was going to build her a 32 million something mansion and she'd really be fine with a 16 but then imagine how hard it must be for people in the middle! it was sort of like she just realized that some people are poor.

this is a weird celebrity dream for me because I'm not particularly invested at all in Scarlett Johansen or Ryan Reynolds...other than a slight latent dislike I harbor for Scarlet based on people telling me I looked like her in her awkward teenage years (ie the horsewhisperer) when I was in my awkward teeenage years or any movie thereafter where she didn't wear any makeup and seemed to always have her mouth hanging slightly ajar (ie girl with a pearl earring) which I took to mean that we were both big-lipped and dumb looking and/or slightly handicapped.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

dreamed that kara sent some kind of message about how the fridge needs to be cleaned out and how its really important and a health hazard or something and i thought it was weird because i threw stuff out of the fridge and pantry yesterday

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I must have moved to new york and I am moving into an apartment which is a room in a motel like the one me and ricky stayed at in york maine. Alex and chelsea have been living together in one room and i am moving into the next room over. maybe alex has moved out. chelsea and i are combiniing our rooms and someone is there with us. I have my room all decorated and stuff and the other person asks if my rooms always look like this and chelsea is saying yes, always.

then I am with paige or am i still with chelsea. we are out in the city but it looks nothing like new york. we are with john and maybe grant in a group and they are going to eat somewhere and ask if we are coming but chelsea says no and we go off. I feel bad for not going to dinner with them and I am saying this to chelsea when a car pulls up and it is john and everyone. I think maybe this is a ritzy group and thats why chelsea doesnt want to hang. They are going to J.crew for dinner and since I feel bad we decide to join them.

J.crew is a restaraunt and I reealize we are with someone who is supposed to be alex wilson and that he only eats at J.crew. I look at the menu and there is nothing I can eat so I don't get anything. John looks uncomfortable and I realize this is a rich kid thing. Also, they don't serve alcohol and I want to leave.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Cliff Peacock is the teacher or main figure but it doesn't look like him but I know it is him. It looks more like a character from the animated movie the sword and the stone. He is teaching a class or leading a group I am in and we are in a log cabin of sorts in the woods somewhere. Peacock hands me something like a leaf or a stone, a small thing but I know it means something. I have the feeling he is trying to express how he cares about me or discreetly single me out within the group. We are making something or talking about making something but I don't feel as though it is painting.