April 29th

Dream- I am with a group of girls I knew in highschool and we are going on some kind of trip. As we are leaving from a car garage I realize I started making cookies and forgot them in the oven. We get to a set of stairs on the trip and everyone has to do some kind of move across the stairs. Everyone who goes before me does something great and gymnastic. Then I go and sort of flip my legs over eachother at the end and the woman says something that means I shouldn't be wearing such big clothes bc my talent or being is hidden in them or something.

For a long time I am with Will and we are laying down together but we keep moving houses and its like we're on different couches in different basements. We are half sleeping half fucking everywhere we go and I can feel the side of his face on my neck and its like I can just think about how nice it would feel and it happens, nothing seems to go wrong and when I myself waking up I just go back to the dream. (I end up sleeping until 3 at Candace's house).

Then I walk into a field, which is like a clearing by a road, like maybe I'm in Norwell. And there is a very proper looking English woman and she is riding a white horse and comes into the field and starts cantering around and I wonder if she would let me ride her horse. Then the horse starts to buck and she falls off. Another horse and rider comes in but their image is muddier. Then a dark featured man rides in on a big white horse and he is riding around in what seems ind of dangerous and he rides past me and nearly hits me so I start walking toward the road and as I'm walking away he rides up beside me and manages to kiss the side of my face and arm. I pull away and walk up to the road but as I'm leaving I turn back and look at him and he has taken his helmet off and is looking toward me and he looks innocent.

I am on some weird kind of cruise with my parents and my brother at first. Then it turns to me and Rick sharing a room and having sex. And I know somewhere else that morning I had had sex with Will and then left for this cruise. We have sex a few times and every time I come back into bed he is wearing a different outfit and they are all very stylish and unexpected for Rick. It seems a bit like he's been living in Charleston since I've moved away and he's changed a lot but I'm not sure why I'm falling back into things with him. There are two small ginger children in the room who we don't address at first. At the end of the dream we ask them who they are and they say they are twins. I'm a little unsure of whether we've been having sex in front of or in the same room as them. This is after Rick and I have just had sex again and I'm hurting but know its partly because I also had sex that morning...and when we have sex this time he doesn't put a condom on or something and gets sperm on the carpet and so I've gone out to get something to clean it with and when I come back in is when we talk to the ginger children. We are sharing a cruise ship suite with at least my parents and possibly them but its unsure.


Angelina Jolie or Branwen comes over and leaves with a plastic bag and in it one of Paul's boxes of Chex cereal.

I am working at Channel and my job is to take these little boxes with a little pig inside of each of them and put them down something or smash them, something which in some way kills the little pig inside of the box and I can't do it and I have to tell Tammie that I can't do it even though I want to do what she wants me to.

the night before last staying at alex and chelseas apartment in alex's bed i dreamed about a kind of thansgiving gathering at my parents house. my aunt susan was there in the garage and she was smoking a cigarette. A whole dreadlock fell out of my hair and I realized I had even less hair than I thought I did. Alex was there.