I am in a large house like a mansion. First I am in my nomal house though. It is something like Thanksgiving. Anson is coming to my house and there is nothing I can do about it maybe and I am trying to keep it a secret from my parents. He will have to stay in the basement. I forget about this. Then lots of family starts showing up at the house and I am talking with relatives and getting white wine. Then the basement door starts banging around and busts open and out walks anson. he is balding and his head is shaved almost bald, he does not look so good. immediately i yell at my brother for locking him in the basement which i suddenly know he did. my mother is upset about the event but my dad just kind of jokes with me and says "well you know uncle gene wanted to bring his new girlfriend to spoleto" and then sort of doesthe rick joke-shrug at me. "what does that have to do with anything?" i say, but it makes me feel better that he isnt taking it as seriously.

ok, then i am in the mansiony house which is really really old and i live there with my family but mostly just my mom is there and nane is also there...then gramcracker is there! and i am like what the hey is going on. so i go to my mom aqnd im like i thought grammie was dead! and she is like yeah, well she is dead but she has this wierd sort of dead person alzheimers where she wakes up every now and again and acts like her old self and doesnt remember that she is dead. meanwhile nane is her old regular alzheimers self. grammy dances around and sings a teacup song and every little song she sings i try to sing too but i dont know the words and i dance around her while she sings them (this happens later tho at some sort of art show or exhibtion in a gymnasium/ auditorium) while we are still in the mansion house we walk over at some point to a bed (me mom nane and grammie) and on the bed are nane and grammies "dead" bodies, nane gets upset seeing grammie and also probably the dead bodies but grammie is really clueless. it is creepy though and i try to get everyone away from the dead bodies.

ok, and then i am at some sort of camp or something. something has gone wrong and we all have to sit underground in a hallway all day. it has to do with sharks. we get assigned to teams. maria is there and maybe we are in college. mr. devine seems t be the leader of sorts. we are waiting to get let out of the hallway. my team ends up going into a classroom filled with water in which there is a shark and something happens with the shark trying to bite us and we are all on some sort of raft or something together and we go around the classroom in circles with the shark snapping at us but no one gets bit. i believe because no one from the team gets bit we are then allowed to go home. it seems like maria and i are in charleston and it is a weekend night and we are trying to go out.

First I am with Will and its as if I have traveled a long distance or he has traveled a long distance. We are together for the first time in a while, I think. We end up in my parents bedroom, I think they are away. Anyways we are in the bed and I know that I have some coke on me but I'm not really thinking about it. Then Will pulls out a bag of coke and asks if I want to do some. This makes me think about/worried about the coke I have. I think he goes downstairs and I put it in my bedroom. So we do a bump or something and we are about to have sex when he interrupts things and says that we can't have sex. I am mortified and wonder if its because of my breath which I have a feeling is very bad. Then I find myself in an airport or something with Anson, it is like fast forward from will to my relationship with anson, which i think is fine until later...my parents enter the picture somewhere and i am worried about the coke again. at the airport i end up needing to eat something or being told, perhaps by my mother, to eat something, so i go to a round kiosk (like the old coffee place in the plaza) and get a falalfel hummus wrap. i am sitting next to rachel hayes who smells something horrid and asks if its my breath. I decide my breat must be horrible and am re-mortified about the will thing. I eat about half the falafel before there is mention of coke and this little scrawny kid wearing a basball cap gets involved. he is TINY, very short and just tiny tiny-boned. somehow we are back at my parents house and cocaine gets spilled all over the carpet. i think my brother comes home. i am equal parts trying to do cocaine and trying to hide cocaine throughout this dream.

recent dreams i forgot to jot down

I. i give my mom a present and she gives it to someone else, it makes me upset

II. i go to lindsays house and she is having a huge party with all these people from highschool and when i show up everyone has been partying for a long time and are all fucked up. she didnt invite me beforehand and i am the only person who is not wasted. i feel like she is going to get in trouble and wonder why i wasnt told about the party (there is another dream where we are at an apartment in hull that this seems somewhat similar4 to) and then (ala how in real life i always end up being the only sober one at jandys by accident when his parents come home) lindsays parents come home and shit hits the fan, a lot of it is about the fact that everyone is smoking marajuana and that they think lindsay has a drug problem

i cut my left hand across the top. i am using a knife for something. blood bubbles up out from the hand every time i move it. i am trying to make something that i need my left hand to make. the blood is freaking me out. all i can think of is doing cartwheels and all i want to do is everything i can't do with my hand bleeding like it is. i wonder if i've accidentally killed myself and will bleed out. it reminds me of the time i cut my finger on the beet can.

I am brushing my teeth when I realize they are covered in a pinkish salmon colored layer which is partially brushing away. I look in the mirror and see a little bit of white where I've brushed, which is when I realize my real teeth are underneath this layer. The salmon colored teeth look dead. I am almost afraid to keep brushing but I do. I feel something get dislodged and spit out what looks like a front tooth. I look in the mirror and it is not my front tooth but one near the right side of my top teeth (though it is the shape and size of a front tooth). You can't see the gap unless I pull my mouth to the side.