november 26th 2009

first i dream of being at this fair thing where cami wants me to do some kind of performance with her and i run into chanel and she walks next to me and scratches my stomach. its uncomfortable. i see maria and she says shes coming over. i come home and she and my father are watching the i-carly movie in the tv room. i cant watch it now because theyre too far in. i see later that maria is an actor in the i-carly tv show but she tells me its been cncelled. i go to erins with my mother and am very hngry but erin says shes already eaten. she is very thin and is eating gobs of peanut butter out of the jar. she has neighbors whose house isnt seperated from the kitchen by a wall. people ride out of it on horseback. a girl who looks like a animal, maybe chloe, in the face. it is the eyes they are too close together and like an animals, comes into the kitchen and is here to walk the dogs. my mom asks carol if she can walk our dog too and carol says no, she pays for four times, the ice cream man only walks her dog, she will pay the whites to do it, the white know where to go.

november 19th 2009

matt keeps copming to my house and trying to talk to me. i am getting ready for a show sort of like kulture klash. i need to talk to shelley. matt will come over and come in the house and go get the cats and take them outside and then bring them back in. I am showering onetime and see him outside. try to hide from him. eventually we have to talk and he is sensitive and sort of obnoxious. i run into shelley and have to take my paintings down from one show to put the in the other show.

november 12th 2009

something about parker sullivan, i am with a bunch of friends and we go somewhere and he is there and he says something about what he eats, he is something like a vegan but not a vegan, i wish everyone wasn't there so we can get it on. it is possible we get it on. it is possible we have been tragically kept apart by circumstance

november 10th 2009

when i wake up i have been on the beach with my cousins leslie and erin, uncle andy, and my mom, only i remember sephie was there and willow, or perhaps mary merrit, i had just been walking with someone who was either willow, mary merrit, or jody johnson. the beach is beautiful, all bright colors, almost like the graffitti wall at kulture klash, there is a rollercoaster with the same colors in the background, there are huge shells of hermit crabs everywhere, all in the most wonderful patterns and colors. i worry ive left my camera near the shore. Before this I had been on vacation in New Hampshire with paige and we were leaving, she had just bought a pair of shoes aand we were in a shoe store and there was a pair of shoes which were almost exactly the same and she said she wished she had bought those instead. i also dream i am searching through my hair and find tiny little bright silver bugs and look them up on wikipedia and they are 'skin mites.' i am afraid i have scabes