couple nights ago

going on a cruise with the whole family + rob potylo, first it is like a real big ship, cruise liner but then turns into smaller boats and like we take the big cruiser to the bay where we all get our own little boats, like a tropical island kind of place kind of like water world. no one will drive the boat so i start trying to drive it. then i see there are boats going around in a circle like they are learning how to boat and i am kind of driving wild around the area.

at some point we are all sleeping in a room it seems like and rob gets up off the floor where we are sleeping and goes to sleep on the couch.

(a few nights before or the same night as this)

i am looking for my riding helmet and can't find it anywhere and it feels like a very tragic situation!

Sounds like little Kenny is on the h train, voice of curt Jarva saying this...coriander telling me she thought I liked her like a lesbian 

At some kind of open air event where I find will and we hug each other and turn around in circles 

Jeffy notices the freckles on my face...

I am supposed to be going somewhere we have a show but I am trying to meet up with someone or buy weed before the show or something keeps getting confused like Travis is at the show and I am trying to find Alvan... Driving around and dark open spaces

Train

Weird dream where I feel like I finally understand something about the nature of reality/ unreality/ dream reality/ physics  ? Standing on the platform of a train station and jeryn is there and I think someone else is there and when there is some kind of signal the train starts moving and someone is on the train or off the train and this switches back and forth like I am learning how to be on or off the moving train at whim and others are showing me how they can dissipate onto the moving train and then dissipate off and be standing in the same place on the platform again

Kathleen Kramer, Lindsay, Alyssa Murphy, everyone is around we are at some kind of party/ dealing with some strange kind of reality we all understand

dreams over the past week

i am in the channel cafe with the new floors only the floors are all drawn the same as curtis's floors, the exact same floors i think.

something like john cremona is there but not sure that i quite see him

alvan and i both have interactions with some kind of white cat and the cat treats us both the same way.

several weeks ago had a dream where will showed up drunk and apologetic. maybe we couldn't quite get through to one another. hair mussed.

on some kind of road trip with my parents, through something like a natural preservation land kind of amusement park with something inside like a fountain in the middle or like the grand canyon but not really at all like the grand canyon. then we get in the car and are driving through places/ walking through places like Austin or what seems like a strip mall of little restaurants, kind of like that one street in L.A. where everything seems kind of indoors and kind of outdoors at the same time, or everything is almost a food court; we are deciding where to go to eat. Maybe you could only get to the first place via a big cruiseship kind of boat, more like a ferry.

in the grocery store trying to buy groceries before i have to get to my parents house. (looking for something to eat)

Going to some event almost like Lindsay's wedding. Lindsay is there and Terence. We are driving around what seems like a big historic city in the sun, something sunny, maybe Austin. We go in a tent somewhere, kinda like its Tenesee and we are going to Bonario but also Linda like we are on a cruise. We are sitting somewhere and can see people up on a balcony above us and we recognize some of them and its like both parties are talking about each other but were not within hearing distance. Then someone says one of the people up there across from us is talking about WIllow, making fun of her or something.

Broke and lost several of my teeth a la 'orange is the new black'

I have taken my medication and am feeling all speedy and out of place, starting to think the medication has fucked me up...it's thanksgiving or a thanksgiving type gathering is happening and I am trying to leave and get to New York. I get to New York and I want to stick up birds but the birds aren't ready yet. We start walking and end up walking out into the suburbs (which has happened before) and there is a lake down below us we can see from the road  we are on (more like a pond) I see an alligator in the pond and I want to go down but we don't. I am with Alex Johnson and Jonathan and Lindsay intermittently. Lindsay is sending me messages about what everyone else gave her for her wedding. I am trying to plot a way out of Thanksgiving at my parents house and eating some kind of ravioli. It falls on the carpet and I am eating it to get rid of it and my mother comes and tells me she was going to make more.

In a movie theater with will and its not right for some reason and I want to leave but not in the beginning when the movie starts we are sitting together and I am on his right side and the movie seems like a cosmic star or a planet or I can feel or energy a syncing kind of like a ray of sunlight but more like a tunnel. Then I am at my parents house like I must be in charge or have some kind of obligation there my brother is there too but my parents are gone and the place is Kind of a mess. Devon comes in and we go out to a restaurant and she falls about how she doesn't like drinking eor being around alcohol but she's saying it to my brother for some reason. She gives me an envelope but I never open it. Right before I wake up we are sitting on my parents couch and she asks me if I will tickle her back. She says "I don't want to see the things my family does for me"

Before this when we are just at the house Ricky a calls me on the phone to talk about our relationship and I just can't believe that he's even calling me.

Someone is leaving and I guess it must be Devon's birthday. I am leaving the house and someone comes running out with a portrait I can vaguely remember from portraits we were all doing, a group of girls. The girl is blonde and buck toothed and maybe holding a toothbrush. For some reason I want to call her Liz.

dreamed Will showed up somewhere out of nowhere kind of, he was sort of a mess, upset and maybe because I was with someone else, but I couldn't quite sort it out. I didn't feel as though I was doing anything wrong. It seems like there were more people there. Dream seemed like it happened somewhere familiar but I can't quite place it. I remember vaguely his hair looking all stringy and ragged and he was crying and he didn't quite look like himself more like a cartoon version of himself or like he was blurring at the edges and not quite contained in his person.

First I take the bus to New York and walk into a store, I think I see Jonathan. There is a store with bags. And Alex Johnson. I am walking around but find nowhere to go and go back to boston and then back to New York again in one week. I think briefly about how I don't have the money to be spending on this... Someone has an apartment (Alex?) and there is a young asian man there and he comes by to give me a spare key. He has pot smoking things setup on his floor like toy trains or legos. When  I am in New York I am on the outskirts and on the outskirts there are these big colonial like houses that look like they are in a field somewhwere but they are on the outskirts of new york city in the dream. I am walking around and find an alley and at the end of the alley is a fence and boulders beyond the fence and then the ocean. I touch the fence and it almost collapses or is broken. There is a family of a woman and two kids I think, almost like gypsies, and they go on the rocks together beyond the fence. I get back on the bus to leave New York.

Alvan is talking to me about running the office for him since the other ladies he used to have help him are gone (Franny, someone else) I go into 'the tank' area and there is a big blue bench attached to the wall and suspended from the floor. The tank looks almost like an auto-body type place.

I am in France with a group of people like a school standing there with Beth. We are near a highway and maybe just got off a bus. This woman is telling us about how shes seen people come and go and how its dangerous and how you have to act a certain way and Beth does not want to hear it and is scoffing. While shes saying this stuff a bird comes by and lifts her bag, which is brilliant blue into the air and something drops out of it and the bird still has the bag and then it lets go and the woman begrudgingly goes over to where the bird dropped the bag and I am hoping she doesn't throw it away (or does so I can take it) and thinking shes missing the most beautiful thing that just happened by staying focused on her lecture!

Something like we are talking about how Howard Stern did something rude and din't realize it was rude and people are saying he has no manners but like Robin is pointing out he's embarrassed about the situation and that proves that he does have manners...Antonia and I in the woods, we end up at a zoo and this zoo I've been to like 4 times in the past month. I keep going to this zoo. Maybe I keep going to the zoo in dreams. Is it the same zoo as with the monkey? this time it is more woody and froggy and like the pretend Italy I went to with Maria. there is a frog in the pond and we are looking at the frog. There is like a long river.

Antonia wearing a SHIRT that says cakes on it and pointing it out and thinking its funny (corrob with coriander drawing circa today?)

Alvan guiding me through a situation

Somewhere at a party like Dave Trees I am in the corner of the front room and have a raised view like I would be floating in the corner...

Travis trying to complain to anyone about something + crying and looking for someone to validate his crying but I don't appreciate it

Dreamed the last episode of Girls 'Two Planes', that Hannah gets on all these different modes of transportation and does all this traveling to go through something and suffer so that she has better writing or something to write about by the end of it. She gets off the plane with her story or the end of the episode or the start of next season or whatever. Its Lena Dunham but I guess I'm kinda Lena Dunham the way I know whats happening but I am watching her experience.

Dreamed Robbie fingered me and then his finger was black but it was also because/involved with how he had a girlfriend or "has" a girlfriend and that was "real" kind of in the dream world so i guess he fingered me instead or I let him finger me because I also knew I had my period. Seemed like it was in a library or between books but I might be getting confused with the Lena Dunham video.

LOTS OF DREAMS. when I woke up it was lobsters. The lobsters had like personalities or I was giving them personalities and they were crawling on top of each other . I was worried about one on top of the other. I also have an image of my Samick acoustic guitar being broken up at the bottom. Chris G. walking across my lawn in Norwell... he gives me a note and I think its wrapping up a cookie...and the note is telling me to meet Robbie somewhere, to go somewhere and meet Robbie.

Dreamed I was with Rob Potylo, we were moving, like we had to keep moving, kind of like we were traveling. We were touching and I guess we were together. It was still like there was some kind of hesitation but I was overcoming it with love and we needed each other like two crust punk dogs riding the trains together. It felt a but like we were in Italy, a bit like me and Lindsay when we kept falling asleep in the Vatican and had to keep moving. At one point we are sitting on a bench together sometimes curled up together and it's almost like I remember reality and am surprised each time were cuddled up in the dream, but were going through something.

Dreamed I was moving intothis studio space/band space/ clubhouse above EMF, moving into it like a house in a way but also all my stuff was there. I am in there alone and it is sunny and bright like an attic, I am there at night breifly and there's a kind of party going on and I see Alvan. All these chairs and tables are arranged like a wonky U shape and I have to walk around behind them to get out either side. I find Brown Bear in a compartment underneath the tables and start carrying him around. Before that I am with my mother and Kathy Cook and Ryan and Dan Cook who is talking all about their pitbull and how she's a real pitbull...there is also a cat, like a sister cat to Lightly or something. We are at a museum or something and my momand I leave and go out through this auditorium type thing and are looking at this pizza kiosk that has allthese pizzas out on display (suddenly Devon Gray is with us also) my mom mentions that she sees a hummus pizza and I am walking around the kiosk looking for the hummus pizza.

Before that something with horses.

Maybe Will, maybe an airport, maybe new york.

Something makes it seem kind of like the Howard Stern family dynamic. Alvan is there and Rob and maybe Christiana. We are walking around at night, inside and outside. We are all musicians or supposed to play music. There is talk about guitar playing and I am thinking I have to get better at the guitar. There is some girl there Rob is supposed to be in love with and everyone knows he's in love with her and I am in the crowd of people. He is talking about the girl and sometimes I'm not sure if he's talking about her or about me. Sometimes he is talking about her and I am pleasant and joking about it.

I neeed to play the guitarr!!

Night before last- I am with Will or trying to find Will, there is a part where I am in a little trolley cargo car like in Donkey Kong 2 on rails coming out of a dark tunnel and Will is there following me out of the tunnel. We are both moving slow, like he can touch the cart easily.

Last night-Something like I am at EMF