i take a tarot card and the tarot card says that i will not move to california

sharon is there, i am staying at her housde. she has a perm and frosted hair. she goes out and somehow a bunch of people end up at the house. she has a boyfriend and comes back with him and then he dissapears. we ar in like a ranch house, split level. i'm not sure why i am staying with her. her boyfriend dissapears and she sees all the people there. she is sudden;y shy which is not like her. she says she will go and stay at her boyfriends house. i say i can ask everyone to leave. when she first comes in i am with someone else, maybe rose from marylous, who is much fatter than sharon and doesn't like what she's wearing.

i am in the studio. i have built three pieces of ice cream/ three eggs/ 3 white discs/ a hamburger sculpture which sits in a wheelbarrow/ sheet of paper sculpture. i go to the recovery room which is across the street, there is something going on at every bar tonight. i sit outside and draw on the picnic table. jarod comes in but doesn't see me. i may be wearing a mask, then. i go in after and someone (anson/ geoff) tells me i shouldn't do anything with jarod. i see jarod later and he has a milkshake from baskin robbins. he went and bought it, came back, and filled it with vodka. I know then i am there for him so i leave & go back to the studio. someone else has sculpted a huge plastic bunny. sharon lacey is up there and she is talking about how she is dating matt foreman like we both know it and its ok. she says she has a problem with a student on facebook ( dana). a man (officer) comes in and says students can only use the studio from 5-9 because the orchestra needs to practice. sharon lacey argues with him. i notice lacey is wearing a sudafed t-shirt and try to show her the sudafed packs i have in nane's old purse but i brought the wrong one. lacey says she also has things like that. lacey wants to go to the recovery room, then. she thinks she will introduce me to jarod. we go to the recovery room together.

my family lives in a barn. we are having some kind of party. i am trying to prepare for it. it might be something like a poetry party. i have been away for a long time.

night of kombucha & vodka/ tim hussey/ kenneth joint pee

kenneth is talking about my painting, maybe there is something i am thinking of taking out or i want to disassemble the painting and reassemble the painting but he says no, he says that whatever rests in the center of the painting is (always) the most important and unconsciously placed down.

also there is something about table painting and about how table painting is an old or ancient or secret art or something.

i have lice. i cant remember the rest now, maybe later.

anson and matt rabon are talking about roland. they say he draws graves all the time and plays nintendo with a wierd look in his eye. elso that him and someone else look at porn all the time.
before that alex tells me jarod charsewski dated michelle bain and i suddenly remember. jarod is a teacher at my school which is sort of like highschool. we drive around through a maze like thing in a golf cArt to get to his studio. he keeps touching me and people walk in and nearly see us. maria is there and tells me i've got to leave. ther3e is a miscellany meeting i am unprepared for and its because i was out drinking all night. maria says she went out dribnking too.

before thAT I AM IN SCOTT peeples class (which i missed today) and he is singing folk songs. we sing back and forth to each other. he says its important that everyone be in class. he's glad i'm there. i also think maybe hes sleeping.

i tell jarod i think that maybe people come into my dreams when i am in their dreams and he nods like he knows what i mean, then i say but you-- and i am embarassed.

right before i wake up i am trying to tell my father i got kidnapped. he won't listen, he is talking about how i need to shut the window in my room. before that i had tried to tell my mother on the phone butmary had answered and said it would take too long. she wanted me to sing happy birthday to sephie. the kidnapper showed up in the beginning of the dream and was someone who went to norwell high but wasnt a real person i know. his name was ari gold, he may have been in my brothers grade. me and maria left my house to go to a party and he showed up again in the front yard and the car went into the front bushes. his head was in the front window but we got away. then later i was driving down the highway or something by myself and all of a sudden he was in the car. i was never very scared of him but i told him i was going to call the police or my home phone. now that i think of it i was actually just leaving my driveway. i told him i would cALL my house and then kept trying. he didn't try to make me stop but i couldnt remember my phone number. i got rid of him by getting in an accident where we ended up in two cars. he said i'm sorry...i said for what!? for kidnapping me!? for crashing into me!? he looked guilty. somehow i got to see him telling his mom how crazy he was. she could tell he was a cleptomaniac. before that i was in some college town trying to go to an art show. john was there and chelsea i think and paige. jared spooned me for a minute at some point, i'm not sure if we had the sex. when i was first going to sleep i could wave in between. i would be talking to someone in my dream and have the sensation that i was raising my left hand to my face and then i could tell i was sleeping and feel my hands were in the same place.