Tuesday, January 22, 2019

dream idea for a horror comedy

Michelle Bain and this small child and someone like Billy Arria but wearing a black suit are living in the Actons yard next door, only they aren't quite real people, they are more like holograms, like there is something off about them

(i have fallen asleep to scientology and the aftermath playing on my computer)

*almost like if billy arria led a cult of hologram people from my highschool in a way**
except these are the only people we ever see

i am trying to stay away from the hologram people and not interact with them because i can tell they are not real people and there is something off about them

but i can see them through the trees

i can see them moving very fast and through each other in the yard like holograms, i see them doing a slow kind of dance where they move their arms and their arms pass through one another, i see one arm getting long and out of proportion and passing through another ones side of the face

the little girl tries to interact and come over

somehow i end up over in the actons yard with just michelle bain and the little girl and we are sitting in the grass in the front yard and i see billy arria in a car drive down the driveway and pull out- i am trying to make sure he does not see me there and it seems like he doesn't

then somehow i get michelle bain to turn into a real person or something by coming over into my yard through the trees, not sure how but there is a feeling like she has turned more real when i separate her from hologram billy arria and the little girl child--

the little girl child keeps coming over and trying to interact with us and i try not to interact and to get michelle not to interact--

there is something on the ground that has a crude etched image of two dogs on it- something like a black purse- and it reminds me how this has been some kind of secret theme - and i remember that michelle bain had two small dogs- when we were younger- and maybe they died or something

michelle takes a pin , some kind of long needle off the purse or off the ground and sticks it directly into her tongue--- some kind of sign of something

(at some point still in the dream i think this is a good idea for a horror comedy and imagine whitney cummings starring)

II

i start walking down south street sometime after this- am i with the little girl at first? am i trying to escape the house and the yards?

i end up with a hamster and the hamster is white with light light brown spots and i think it is gilby but am somewhere remembering it cant be gilbie with this coloring...

i go into the cooks house and no one is home but there is a hamster cage and a dog and i put the hamster in the cage and fall asleep on a bed that is right there for a minute

then the cooks come home and there is another couple that has come to the house also per my request to get the hamster or the dog and mr. cook is very mean to this couple and an older girl who is supposed to be the cooks daughter i guess comes up to kathy cook and says i just want you to remember you had a beautiful friendship with this woman...

and dan cook is saying to the couple something about the lamp or the umbrella

and i am saying its all my fault because i called them over to get the hamster or the dog but its too late for the fighting and they leave with the dog, the woman wears glasses

for some reason no one is upset with me or about the dog leaving and when the door closes fat baby ryan is still a baby but very articulate speaking and there is a blues sounding guitar coming from somewhere-

dan cook sings some blues lyrics and then says check out this guy-- and there is another baby in one of those circular wheeling high chairs and the baby is holding and playing an electric guitar expertly, dan sings a few lyrics every now and then

there is also another older man i dont recognize who looks a little sweaty and bloated and i think he is drunk

i was going to leave but they seem to want me to stay, i am confused about the interaction and about how i ended up here and why i came here, and wondering if the couple that came over and took the hamster and the dog are hologram people as well

i cant remember why i did what i did or understand why its not my fault

the whole time i am at the cooks trying to speak and explain whats happened and why my jaw is so clenched i can barely speak, a very visceral feeling that seems very real--

my words barely come out and my jaw is in pain it is so clenched and i cant move it- i am filled with fear and talking to dan cook in the front hall i also have a hard time standing straight up

Monday, January 21, 2019

I

living in this house and somehow osman ozzy comes there out of nowhere and i'm remembering that his parents live in the house with us in the hall across from my room but then i remember that they actually moved,

he is there and im feeling his head trying to remember if hes balding or not but hes not (think im confusing him for a minute with north end ricky)

we have sex and go out together and i find him again but hes also not there forever and going back to turkey

i am with him at some point in a basement type room at his uncles house?

II

at some place that seems like a big gym at a school but is supposed to be the out of the blue and there are scattered few paintings up on the wall and not the best feeling like no ones into my paintings and the ones i have there are not the best but throws me back

to a 'memory' of being there when mike greenstein came in and only wanted to buy my paintings--

III.

outside kathryn tajimas car with her mother and sister and my mother and they are talking about how their step father was such a creep and would try to lick their faces and now they are talking about it and exposing him and i tell kathryn tajima 'im sorry but i didnt know !' and she says but i did know i knew that her stepfather chased her out of the house and i am wondering about my diaries and if its in there cuz i dont remember

IV

go to some country music show in a wooded type mall type theater showcase where everything is connected and wooden... with megan kelly  and irish dave and dave tree are there also and i dont realize its the country music awards that are happening but tickets are 100 dollars, im on the phon e with will and hes having some kind of event somewhere and im trying to stay on the phone with him but its hard to hear and when the phone dies its the old nokia brick phone and im trying to leave the country music award thing to go meet will, i use the bathroom there and i think - who else is there, ron from pro event ? some other guy i think is holding the door - but then an older black man with a doo rag comes in when im done but before i leave the stall... and a band is up front in this bar part starting to play and the guy sounds like dave tree and i tell dave tree that cuz hes right next to me and the guy is saying the song titles to his songs and one is 'picasso' and they all sound familiar-- dace tree says theyre gonna play at his place soon

several nights ago

someplace like new orleans--

i go to a liquor store and buy high heeled shoes full of liquor

Saturday, January 12, 2019

december 2018

I
chloe in the backyard with mud up to her elbows

II
my family members, some of them, men, my father, gathered around a counter in the kitchen eating meat, and i come and eat some of it with them, and come to realize its pig meat...
and take the bones to make broth