i win 100 dollars in an arcade playing the "jackpot" game where you have to hit the button when the light in the jackpot spot lights up. i think this solves all my money problems. alas

* i also dream i think during the same night somewhere that i am wearing this purple and black dress i have and i wear it to an event like a red carpet or on stage or something except its been laying on the floor and is all crumpled and wrinkled and out of shape and later my grandmother (who is dead) criticizes me for wearing it and says it makes me look fat and i should have known better and i totally should have. i don't know why i was wearing it but i think i was in a rush and it was the only thing.

i am on some kind of vacation with my family. we keep ending up in new places. i have a lot of animals with me or keep receiving animals. i think there is a point where there are a ton of cats or kittens, sort of like that resvervation thing katharine pelzer sent me. I think Erik is there but maybe he is younger or just seems to be younger or is in a better mood than usual. i don't remember anyone being really angry or upset or any of the animals being dead or dying which is rare.

two nights ago i saw marah funder on the street in a dream and embraced her.

last night something was happening. i saw my mom and dad and my dad was wearing a silver kimono. peacock was there at the end, he was taking me on for something and i thought things were one way when they were really another way and so i was surprised when he said he loved my work and wanted me to be something with him, i'm not sure, maybe he wanted to show our work together. other things happened. i should have gotten here earlier.

i think me and peacock embraced as well.

we are trying to go somehwere and i am riding around with different people. we keep stopping to go into stores because we need to buy things and i keep worrying i don't have enough money. but for some reason i keep buying different kinds of prepared bagels like i keep forgetting i've already bought other bagels and i have a bunch of half eaten bagels in my purse. the dream ends suddenly but i forget why, i think i eventually figured out i was dreaming because the bagel thing was getting ridiculous.

for some reason we are going on a journey overseas, even though it feels as if we have just taken an overseas journey to get to the place at which this journey begins. in order to travel, everyone on the trip must wrap themselves up in a huge blanket which is their personal boat. i think i get mine wet when i am not supposed to. it is late at night and dark and cold. danielle is on the trip and carries her boat next to mine. she is acting sort of strange and nervous and then she says i hate having my period and i know its because she has her period. i don't remember vey much about the trip other than it was very dark and cold and i don't think we were doing things the right way.

susan keeps coming over and falling down on the front doorstep. there are other people around, i think maybe we are partying. susa wants to hang out or wants me to do something for her r with her.

i walk into a dark room where people i know are watching a movie. i sit down next to will, who is there,and he puts his arm around me. when the lights go on everyone knows we are together. it feels nice.