may 18

Whitney Cummings has a treadmill where she attaches sensors to each of her fingers from the treadmill and she is doing a kind of bit where she has all the sensors on her fingers but she can't figure out how to turn on the treadmill

Then I am in her house and the lights are out and I am figuring out how to use the treadmill and she comes out of her room and is surprised to see me and I tell her you have to put all the sensors on and then turn the machine on and off for it to work and I say am I early because we are meeting at her house in an hour and shes says something like I like how you ask if you're early and she tries to tell us how she needs time to work on her art and stuff

may 17

Something like thanksgiving going on at my parents house but maybe it's Halloween I am going yo have my own party or go to my own party- my parents are having people over/ they come back with Kenny and Kathy and others - my mom is in the kitchen and says I'm not allowed to use the plates for one month because of how I was them ( and nothing is working out with my party plans ) and I say BITCH ASSHOLE and my dad is cooking turkey in the oven and he takes out the turkey and rubs it on me and I am screaming and saying how I hate them all and how he is only doing that because he knows it's wrong and how I love the turkey more than him because the turkey never did anything and I mean it

Fall back into it and I am in a room that is antonias room with a girl Kelsey Ellington who is her roomate but I think antonias last name is Ellington Antonia isn't there but nemo is. The girl is kind of like the girl painting the lizard down the street from blanc gallery - she us making jewelery and has all these jewelry pieces- I guess she is friends with nemo- I feel like we are in Allston- I am doing something and kicking around shoes from underneath antonias bed trying to make room- this is how I know it is her room

may 15, 16

Yesterday- I am with Jenny talking and she tells me she's worried she might be pregnant bc she had sex one time in the last month or so and I ask her with who? And she tells me FRANK and I am reeling and can't believe it and can't understand why she would think of it so casually and we go to a party and frankas is there and I am completely verclempt and having that awful conspiracy come to life feeling nauseous

Last night- going to some kind of anniversary memorial for willow gray, in thus big old church, watch mr. Gray come in and he is very tall and looking good and put together and everyone is there, Devon and my parents and the cechinis. After the service I am going to get coffee bc I know I need to bring coffee to the house after- first j get a small coffee by mistake and then a whole box of coffee and keep the small coffee and bring the big box of coffee to what I guess is supposed to be mrs cecchinis house but it's not, auntie Annie is there on the couch and there are some small dogs. I am there with Devon. Then we leave and go over to her place and lilys mother is there in her house which is different than her real house, kind of right up on the street with the door on the sidewalk

And the door opens and we see her inside - lily and Devon are on weird terms- Devon is kind of living in the attic of the house and I go up there with her to sleep with her in the bed up there- she is saying how whenever she wears this one scent everyone comes up to her...

Then me and frankas have gone to my parents house and we have a tent set up in the yard and there is a small shed in the middle of the yard with screens on the sides and monkeys in it. There are several dogs at my parents and we start kicking balls with them and then all these other dogs come over from the actons- Keith pierce is in a box setup kind of a stage but more so a box wrapped in tissue paper with his head sticking out over the top and he is singing and plating guitar- William Duddy is there too in the other corner of the back yard- I guess we are all doing creative endeavors at my parents house or trying to make money... I am trying to find my notebook to write down my dreams...there is a picnic table on the right side of my parents house, frankas comes out and yells at me that he has been waiting for me to play music in the basement (then I hear ' folks' in real life and he is trying to get me up but not mad so I get up, relieved)

 With Paige at some lux place....there is a large portrait painting of someone on the wall...couches...a pool.... Resort like

Then at my parents house and mad at my mom and back from vacation or something and have this wine that is called something that begins with a p or a c ... Something like petal or cepal ....and it is sweet and orange pink and when I pour it in the glass it moves and swirls in slow motion into the glass ... And I am thinking I should videotape it.... And it tastes just like a sweet juicy orange but lighter....delicious.... With Erik in the kitchen and my mom comes in  and starts yelling at me and he says he didn't pick moms and she's not a good one....

Then at dinner with uncle gene and Gaye..... (Before I tell me my mom to just leave me the fuck alone) then at dinne I have a bunch of bottles of the sweet orange wine so I end up gicving one to my mom dad gayle and gene but not to Erik and one other person I forget who