12/26/2019 troy frog statue

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i drive with my father to troy and take him and buy two beers somewhere and sit down at a picnic table in a small park in the middle of the city --- (its the same park i ended up at with the woman who i followed off the bus when i was on the bus in troy in another dream and james was there too and she was quoting bible verses to me )

my father is not drinking his beer and i am starting to get kind of anxious like i cant remember why i brought him all the way here

then i see the pond (where before in the other dream there was a huge real live frog sitting in the middle of it on a lilypad) i go over to the pond and see the frog but the frog is a statue and i can't believe that its a statue and before i thought it was a real frog

and i guess this is what i brought my father there to see

and i drink his beer and my beer

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i go back to troy again this time alone and im on a street with a big median park in the middle and a street going the other way on the other side and everyone out on their stoops

and in the median park there is a black/hispanic guy with a boombox starting to perform his music

and again im almost not sure why im there but i meet some people on the stoops and talk to them

and then i go looking for artist studios or i meet someone who brings me there, somehow i end up with a crew of new people

there is a nerdy looking skinny blonde guy with freckles and glasses, we all go to an artist studio where we can see quiet looking asian people inside but the studio is closed

and we cant get in

it seems like travis is there then and driving the car and maybe we are leaving

the blonde guy with glasses becomes my boyfriend somehow and maybe i am moving to an artist studio in troy

eventually it seems like we get in

but then we are standing on the street and maybe travis there and maybe leaving--

and i am looking at a metal side rail to see a bird sticker i put there before or put a new one there now

(in waking life i tell my dad about the dream while driving to lynn city hall and he says there is a pond in troy somewhere near his fraternity house and he heard they are draining it, and then he tells me how a whale once swam up the hudson river there and i look up the whale but cant find out what happened to it)

IN MY brothers room in the dream and gilby is there going in and out of the bottom drawer and im trying not to close it and anytime i move it a little he comes running out

and there is a brown rabbit in the hallway and chloe and lightly there too and when i look in the hallway my dad going into the bathroom

and all the animals are getting along and dont need cages

and i am texting james but we are also in some vacation house on the water and i am looking at water and boats and guess im fishing and am going to text james this 

yesterday;

curt jarva downstairs with gilby about to put him in the trash and i have to stop him


last night;

at a party at new alliance and a bunch of guys are sitting on the floor drawing on the floor in crayon and they are drawing all robot heads and parts all connected in a big circle , one is a yellow robot head, and i come in and draw a more human girl head in green in crayon coming out from the circle and ethan is there and maybe drawing too and he is smiling and im saying oh no wait til nick sees this it wasnt me ! and we are kind of laughing

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with james leto in bed and making out and hes saying or im saying kissing is like a massage and just making out forever in my brothers room in bed (where im sleeping) and maybe having sex at some point and getting louder and im realizing were at my parents house...
                         
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go to this big auditorium with sid and sara silk is there and running some kind of program, its kind of like a pipe and drape job, setting up for something or taking things down, the room is mostly empty, and i am helping out and hoping we are gonna bond i guess but she is runniong around in charge of things and very cold to me and i dont know why... at some point there is a big piece of fabric on the ground and i pick it up and fold it and she tells me i did it wrong and this is the only thing she says to me... and sid notices and says something about it to me like she really doesnt like me and we are unwanted there... then whatever is going on is over and she walks behind a temporary wall and gabby 9what is her last name) from highschool (dark hair olive skin her dad was my soccer coach) is saying we are all celebrities and there are a bunch of girls i went to high school with there and they are all doing some kind of video / photo shoot together and sara silk is standing on a taqble or spomething at the top of the group that are all gathered around together in this box set, rose lombardo is there and im not sure who else and they are doing this video skit celebrating how they are all famous and i am just looking on and its like they dont even see me or acknowledge me... and me and sid walk away and i am thinking well maybe its just a video for soul cycle and then remembering sara silk didnt even go to high school with me and feeling v dejected

DREAMS FROM THE PAST WEEK

1. with someone who is like colleen shea at first and also like sinclair from tennessee and also like katie clancy by the end of the dream. with her and a guy who is like christian comeau and chris valverde. and we are all together and i guess they are in a relationship. i find myself attracted to the christian comeau / valverde. we are in one place and decide we are going to new york -- chris and katie leave somehow and i lam sitting in a chair that starts zooming through the air at the height of a plane --- it is very rocky and i am barely hanging on , it is very scary but i survive-- we end up in new york going to colleen sinclair katies mothers luxury apartment in new york city which is inside a big building that is like a grand hotel. we go to play basketball and the basketball court is a tiny circular platform with hoops on it and no guard rails and is maybe 100 feet in the air above the next floor. colleen is nervous about playing basketball on this platform. christian valverde kind of chides her is kind of mocking her or disgruntled and judging of this like shes a pussy or something. i say i am uncomfortable too.

we are walking out on the steps of the grand hotel luxury apartment and i ask her if the people know her here--

2. i am on a family vacation with artwerk666 with my dad and she is very grumpy and maybe we are sisters. she seems upset and is not talking and like maybe she hates me, we are in a car or on a bus at some point. my dad is there. i start to wonder if she is jealous over my dad or our parents, its like she wants to be with them and doesn't want me there but like maybe we are sisters

3. go to some crazy place a barroom some crazy event where i am supposed to play and bob dylan is there and i see him in  the crowd with a hat on leaning near a wood pillar close to the stage -- its a woozy kind of atmosphere -- i think he sees me play but i dont know

i go in the same place or maybe not and see myself in something like an orgy with people S-in my Ts

go into a bathroom and start to pee and its way more pee and pee pressure than is normal and the pee is coming back up and getting all over me

GO TO THIS RANDOM building that thre's a group art show at and I have apiece of art there and forgot we put the art up there over a year ago... ricky antonellis has something to do with the place but hes not threre and i cant find out about him.... dave tree supposed to be involved also but hes also not there....

dave tree ends up coming the next day and saying he forgot.... the building is almost like the south shore science center...

next to the building is a horse place with a riding ring like a track with metal fences seperating the track from the middle part and in the middle there are buffalos running around (at first we think they are gorillas)

they do some kind of theatrical show with the horses and people in costumes and the buffalos... i am talking to the woman who runs thinks... wanting to ride a horse

everybody is standing out by the side of the road for some reason


then i go to huntersbrook stables and walk into the pastures and lay on the back of one horse and am stroking another white horse

singing some kind of song

no one is around but wjen i get off and start walking up toward the house i see gina coming down from her house out to the barn

and she is excited and happy to see me and tells me how she used to write songs that way with the horses (and im thinking of how i didnt realize gina wrote songs and then i rationalize oh she has to write songs for the horse shows)

and theres all these children around and gina is saying to come here how shes doing so much fun stuff (and i want to ask about being an exercise rider and i want to ask where is dj) and shes sayin g how she was going to have wine with lunch but couldnt find a bottle open er...

and then she is tsalkin g to some children and a little boy with a brown unicorn figurine comes up to me and shows me the unicorn and we talk about whether it is a unicorn or not and i figure that it is and he tells me about 'my traveling horse adventures' which is some kind of series i guess

and gina is talking to other kids so i dont ask her my questions .

FROM THE PAST WEEK

SEE HOWARD STERN IN A ALMOST MINIVAN SIZE JEEP WITH A BIG BIRD HEAD IN IT AND DRUMS, AN OPEN BACK AREA AND I CAN SEE THROUGH THE WINDOWS ALL THIS COSTUME /PROP STUFF LIKE DISGUISES FOR HOWARD I GUESS AND HE IS SLUMPED DOWN IN THE PASSENGER SEAT AND BETH O IS DRIVING THE CAR AND I AM REMEMBERING KKK TELLING ME THIS IS HOW HE GETS AROUND OR THAT HE WEARS DISGUISES AND THIS IS IN CAMBRIDGE NEAR HARVARD SQUARE

THANKSGIVING HAPPENS AT OUR HOUSE AND KEITH IS THERE AND BRANDON IS A BABAY AND THERE ARE ALL THESE PUPPIES LIKE LITTLE GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPIES... THEN THANKSGIVING IS OVER AND MY ASIAN LADY THERAPIST IS LIVING IN THE HOUSE AND SHE HAS TWO CHILDREN THAT SEEM LIKE STRANGERS TO HER THAT SHE DOESNT QUITE KNOW HOW TO CARE FOR IT SEEMS AND I AM THERE KIND OF LIKE AN AU PAIR OR SOMETHING AND PUTTING THE KIDS TO BED AND THEN WATCHING A.L.T. ALONE AT THE KITCHEN TABLE LIKE SHES NOT QUITE SURE WHAT TO DO , THERE IS A SOUND IN THE KITCHEN AND SHE ASKS ME WHAT IT IS AND IT TURNS OUT TO BE THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL WHICH HAS SOMEHOW BEEN LEFT RUNNING....

SEND UNDERWEAR (EMBARRASSING NOT SEXY) AND A PACKAGE WRAPPED IN NEWSPAPER TO UNBLEACHD SOMEHOW AND AM WATCHING HIM GET IT FROM AN OMNISCIENT NON PRESENT PERSPECTIVE AND HE TAKES THE UNDERWEAR AND PUTS IT ON OVER HIS JEANS AND THEN JUST STANDS THERE AND SMILES LIKE A WEIRDO