Listening to NPR and somehow watching the younger sister from 7th heaven do a slow dance thru time where she is mostly naked and then she pulls a 'bulimic' version of herself out of somewhere and it's like a mesh sock of all her skin she shakes out and steps into

The NPR thing is with sons writer woman who wrote this and I am getting ready to return to where I just was

At the Hanover mall at some restaurant where people were getting together and alyssa Murphy was there and will was like a server or  had been there too and we finally said hi to each other

But I think frankas came over and kissed me or something was awkward and I left the mall and I looked in the mirror and my face was all puffed up and ugly looking and not my face

And I am in my room in norwell getting ready to go back there

At some highschool party with Lena Dunham abs Jenny in Lena dunhams room and drinking and I see anson and will through the window and figure anson mustave came all the way there in case I didn't have a boyfriend

Go in the kitchen and Curtis is there and gas his own table with a black tablecloth over it and kind of dark sculpture stuff like big balls all connected and all different alcohols, some kind if thing that looks like pink champagne but is lagerand he says he's leaving to go buy a bunch of coke

Christian Conway is there and jacki Maynard And a bunch of people are playing pool and I go by and Danny pye takes a picture of me and everyone

I am having trouble standing but I don't feel drunk at all

Lena is in her room and not drinking and seems concerned for me or the scenario

I am looking for will and trying not to fall because I keep slipping on stuff